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Grief and Bereavement

Lost my Uncle
Hello Everyone, Hope you're having a good day and prayers and best wishes for cancer fighters! I am a newbie to "caregivers" thing and have recently lost my dear uncle who was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I spend my few months in taking care of him that's how I got to know about cancer diagnosis treatments and becoming…
Wife passed away
Wife just passed away yesterday, sooooooo lonely and upset, wife was 36 and me 41
Try to cope with the loss
My wife lost her battle with lung cancer on July 3. She was told on April 16 that she had stage 4 lung cancer.During these three months we went to constant drs app.The cancer was not found until an emergency room visit when her blood work up was bad.Before that the only pain she complained about was in her hip.So she was…
Widowhood is a very dark lonely place
I have not been on this site for quite some time. It has been 7 mos. since losing my husband to Liver Cancer. So much has happened since but not a day goes by that I don't wish he were here with me. We would have been married 40 years which seems like to long ago yet just like yesterday. I was only 17 when I met him and…
How do you start your life again?
My wife passed away 4 weeks ago. She was diagnosed last May with stage 4 colon cancer. A little over a year after her diagnosis she passed away at our home under hospice care. She was only 36 years old. I took time off of work and all I can do is keep myself busy. I do chores around the house, take care of the dogs, or…
Hang In There
All, it's been almost a year since I've lost my Karen. I still hold her close to me and think of her often everyday. I know circumstances are different for everyone. The first couple of months of losing someone so close to you is devastating. The pain is indescribable. Everyone deals with pain in their own way. I hope all…
Day 3
My wonderful husband, 47 years old, was taken from me by cancer three days ago. My heart is broken for my children and myself. I have never felt such pain. He was my best friend, the love of my life. Today seemed like the longest day as I continie to prepare for his funeral. Most of the time I try faking he is at work or…
Lost Dad to Pancreatic Cancer
Hi Everyone, January 27th my Dad was told he had pancreatic cancer. We then found out it was stage 4 that had spread to his liver and lungs. He had lost a lot of weight before the diagnosis. Doctors told us he had maybe a year to live. I went home march 9th to be with my dad for his first treatment of chemo. Dad ended up…
Jim passed away
My husband of forty years passed away last Friday, December 29 at 7:47 p.m. he survived 7.5 years after successful treatment for Stage 4 hypopharyngeal cancer. There were a couple of other small cancers along the way but it looks like a new growth previously undetected blocked his airway. Instead of a tracheotomy, I opted…
Miss my dad
I just lost my dad to pancreatic cancer and i have never been so angry and upset in my life. He fought so hard and when the end came it came so fast. The one week in hospice he was so upset and ready to go and in pain i wanted him to go. I kept telling god to have mercy dont make him suffer anymore. And he passed holding…
It’s all in my head.
My beautiful wife, best friend, and soulmate of 43 years died from cancer on October 19th. I’m sure you’re all too familiar with the nearly unendurable sorrow and loss I’m feeling. In rare moments of sanity I realize that the pain … it’s all IN MY HEAD. I don’t have any broken bones, no organ failures, the bank isn’t…
Grieving and scared
Hi. This is my first time to post. I'm 58 years old, and my 57 year old husband passed away Nov. 30 after fighting cholangiocarcinoma for 18 months. I thought I was doing ok; I think I did a lot of grieving during those 18 months, as it became clear that E was not going to get better. But today I'm a mess, can't stop…
Does it ever get better
June 2013 started my journey as a Cancer Caregiver to my husband and in October 2013 he lost his battle with Small Cell Lung Cancer. If that wasn't bad enough 7 months later I began my journey with anal cancer. While I can say I'm a 3 year survivor of my own battle with cancer, a little over four years later I often wonder…
A Love Letter To My Departed
Dear Karen, Its been over 4 months now that you've been gone. It seems so much longer than that and my pain of missing you will always be with me. On the surface the pain will subside but there will always be that underlying pain that will at times come to the surface. It was just a little over 16 years ago (Auguest 31st,…
Lost Husband to Lung Cancer - October 17
First off, I don't like to write. I'd rather talk. Talking is how I process things. But talking generally requires a listener, and I'm running out of those. When it comes to loss, I think friends should have a label that says "use sparingly." I understand, they run out of patience before I lose my need for them to listen,…
Where do I go from here?
This is my first time on this discussion board so I'm really not sure what the rules are. Mike and I met in high school, i was 16 he was 18.we stayed high school sweethearts through my senior year. We went our separate ways. I moved to Southern MN and married my first husband. The marriage was bad from the start and we…
Anticipatory Grief
Hi everyone- sorry, this is where I should have posted this topic. Instead, I posted it in Caregivers. I should have scrolled down the forum page a bit more- sorry for the duplicate postings. OOps I'm a newbie here, and I will start the caregiving 'journey' tomorrow. I always thought that journey was something to look…
How does hearing about other people' misery make you feel better?
First let me say I'm a mess. My husband died 5 weeks ago, 6 weeks after diagnosis Of liver cancer. And I'm curious about a lot of things. 1. How do words help? They won't bring my husband back from the dead so what good are they? 2. How does reading about other people' grief help? How can YOUR misery make me feel better? I…
Missing my Aunt so much
I'm not new to this site, but new to the Grief and Bereavement section. My aunt died yesterday after a very short battle. I was worried how my mother was going to take it, but I was not prepared for how grief stricken I feel from the loss of her. What is it about losing an aunt that is making me feel so lost? I keep…
Our Last Months Together
I lost my girlfriend (Karen) of 16 years to Metastatic breast cancer after a 6 year battle on May 12th 2017 at 4:41PM eastern Time. She was only 59. I have not stopped crying since the day she went into ICU 5 days prior. In October of 2016 she had an emergency CT scan and discovered the cancer had spread to her lungs. She…
2 Months Today
My Karen took her last breath 2 months ago today (May 12th, 2017). She passed away due to Metastatic Breast Cancer spreading to her lungs. That day and vision of her still haunt me. Although it's been 2 months the emptiness and lost feelings have not subsided. I've been to counseling i.e. Grief Share, a Grief group for men…
How do I help my grieving husband?
My sister inlaw passed away 5 months ago yesterday. And since, my marriage has not been the same. I want to be patient with my husband. I want to stand by him. I want to help him in any way that I can. I also want to protect our family and our kids. I also don't want to be a doormat or emotional punching bag forever. I've…
Young, widowed and feeling alone
Back in October of 2016, I lost my husband to Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia treated at Strong Memorial Hospital Wilmont Cancer Center in Rochester, NY. He was 31 and I am 28. We did not have children. We were together for 6 years before he passed. Although I have the support of my friends and family, I cant help but fell…
Should I sue my doctor
Hi Gang, It's been awhile, but looking for opinions. Should I sue my husband's doctor ? There was an obvious mistake. I'm out of the widow fog now and can handle the conversation. My lawyer saids the hosptial will drag my husbands name through the mud. Imply he was a alcholic or smoker or had stress issues, (aka acid…
1 year Anniversary in September
Hi, I lost my darling boyfriend to melanoma last September. His time from diagnosis to death was an astonishing 2 months. I believe that I was mercifully numb for the first few months. What followed, and what lingers is a very deep sadness that leaves me feeling exhausted and hollowed out. I try to focus on gratitude. I am…
Marathon
I ran a full marathon (RocknRoll) in San Diego 2 weeks ago to honor my two wives( 2010 and 2016) that faced their mortality with courage, faith, and diligence. I wore their (wedding) rings around my neck, and dedicated "For Bonnie" on my runners bib. Never had run a full marathon before, dang near killed me-lol! But this…
5 months on the 22nd
Hi-its been a few months since I posted here. First I want to thank all of you for your kind support, I don't think I have acknolwdged that as much as I could and should have. It has been 5 months since my spouses death-feels like much longer because of the deep level of grief. People have asked me if its any easier, that…
Holidays
With the holiday season upon us, how do you deal with the lost of your loved one and one that has been a part of your life for 55 years? I just lost my husband 4 months ago to this horrible beast called cancer and I do realize that the first holiday is the hardest they say. My youngest son and his family want me to come to…
Diagnosis Anniversary
There will forever be so many significant dates in my life, especially pertaining to my mother. The day she died - Mar. 11. Her birthday - Jan. 23. My birthday - Oct. 17. And many other celebrations and holidays whose festivities will be blunted by the absence of my mom - Mother's Day, Thanksgiving, Hannukah... I haven't…
My mum passed away and still have a lots of doubts about her death
My mum passed away from colorectal cancer almost a month ago. My mum was an independent 87 year old, she was diagnosed with stage III (cT3cN1M0) superior colorectal cancer in October. It was an invasive adenocarcinoma, with an enlargement of the rectum wall. They did all the tests (including PET scan in December) and said…

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