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Grief and Bereavement

My mom passed away in December
My mom passed away at the age of 58 from NSCLC on December 7. She had never smoked a cigarette in her entire life. We still aren't sure where her cancer came from. She lived 20 days from her diagnosis. They tried chemo and radiation and nothing helped, we knew that at best it would be palliative. She and I were extremely…
Approaching one year.
I lost the first person who ever loved me who was my closest friend nearly one year ago today, just seven days after my birthday. I didn't know that after seven years of fighting and remission that I was going to lose my mum the weekend we did, and I struggle to come to terms with what I learned in the days after she died,…
My Mom just passed away and I'm having a very hard time
My Mom passed away March 6th and I'm just having a terrible time with grief. I was her full time caregiver and lived with her. I was with her when she passed away. Everything in the house is a reminder of the good and bad times. Of everything I've lost. My Dad passed away last May from heart failure and I was just starting…
Today I cried because I miss my mom
My mom passed away from Colon Cancer Stage 4 on New Year's Day this year. I cried at the Funeral and then I just plugged along. I have my father which I am so grateful for and I know his journey in grief is worst than mine. I recently got a job at a hospital in New York in the Breast department which is a brand new…
Unwanted Memories
It's been three years since she died. Her last day, her last breath and the cold matter of fact "your wife has less than 24 hours to live" from the hospice nurse. Watching her gasp for air. Hearing the rattling sound from her throat and lungs. These memories bring up an anger I've never felt before. I've never had my world…
Private Message Spam
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Feeling allot of guilt
My mother passed away about 8 days ago , she had a form of stomich lining cancer. I am 22 years old. The ordeal started last year March when my mother complained that she was struggling to eat, after numerous scans which were inconclusive her doctor told her that it must be in her a head, I assumed this must be the case.…
Discussion Board and Chat Spam
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Can't sleep, my friend's mom died tonight, sad and anxious all at the same time.
It's just all so sad, so much loss all the time. I didn't even know her well. She was a kidney cancer patient and it went to her brain. We were both going through incredible anxiety at the same time at some point in our treatment and we'd see each other at appointments or at school shows and we both just knew. While others…
Agonizing grief, then normal
What is wrong with me? I lost my husband after a three year battle with Base of tongue cancer. When the nurse said those two words, "He's gone," I wailed; literally wailed. I could not stop crying for two days. Today, six days after he died, everything feels normal. Am I numb? Is it because I have been kept busy or my…
Mom has passed 9/25/14
After 6 years of fighting NSC lung cancer with brain mets my mom has lost the fight! I've been beside her from the start at the time of being dignosed to the very end. She struggled so much and was comatose for six days. I gave her all the promises she asked me to keep. I kept her home on hospice and cared for her and…
CindySue
CindySue, Just wanted to know I am thinking about you, during this time. Your journey has not been easy, an no mother should have to loss a precious son to such an ugly disease. May one day a cure is found and not another person will suffer. Prayers for comfort and peace coming your way! (((HUGS))) Carol and Benjamin
lost my mom
Hello everyone. I lost my mom to leukemia this past Saturday. She fought her battle for a year and a half. During this time I was diagnosed with uterine cancer and my aunt was diagnosed with stage four breast cancer. I am in remission now. I am having a very difficult time with all of this and wasn't sure where my post…
Help with my marriage
I am only 31. I lost my dad 6 years ago and 4 weeks ago I lost my mom after a very long hard battle with colon cancer. She was a two time breast cancer survivor also. My problem now is, my poor husband. I have become so distant. Withdrawn. I'm so sad and know he can't understanr. He tries to help and be there but I'm just…
Looking for other young adult caregivers in Wilmington, NC
Are there any other 20-39 yr-old widows, widowers, or caregivers near wilmington out there? I'm 32 and my husband just died 8/1/14 after a 3 year battle with colon cancer. I would love to start a support group locally for young adults. If you would like to join, please email me or contact me on Facebook at Young Adults and…
Looking for support groups that meet in north Florida / south Alabama
Hello all! My 65-year-old mother was recently diagnosed with lung cancer and we are looking for some support groups that she can talk to with other people who were going to the same predicament if you guys know of anywhere or anyone who is forming these groups I would very much appreciate the information. My email is…
How has your loss changed you?
I was thinking about how the loss of my first wife has changed me, if it has at all. I believe so. Life is different today, certainly than 4 years ago when she died July 29th. I realize many of you have recently lost a loved one and perspectives are subjective, we each have our own way of trying to deal with losses in…
Graduating University 13 years on
Hi All, I guess I'm just looking for an outlet today because in 4 hours I'm due to stand on stage at the Royal Festival Hall in London and receive my Ba(hons) diploma... but my mum won't be there. I suppose everyone has this feeling during significant days, but you see this is the same university my mum went to, and…
Private Message Spam
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Why didn't I
My husband had battled cancer for 8 years. We had our ups and downs and at times I didn't think our marriage would survive. But it did. On December 12 2013 the doctors said thats it no more treatment. Docs said he had 6 months, 17 days later my husband died. 6 days before he died he was driving going to his favorite…
All CSN members are invited!
It’s finally happening! We are happy to announce that as early as tonight, a new Chat application is being launched on CSN. It is NOT Java-based and it DOES support members using mobile devices. To access chat, you must be a CSN member and logged on. Once logged on, all you have to do is click chat in your left navigation…
Lost my dad to CLL and still missing him
Hi all I lost my dad to Chronic Lymphotic or Lymphatic (sorry don't know spelling) Lukemia in 2011 and I still miss him terribly and feel stuck sometimes. The struggle with him being ill and the treatments really have gotten to me I am still upset about what he went through and I wasn't able to talk to him much before he…
Spam Emails
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Lost my Mom 1.5 mos Ago and Feeling Lost Myself, 34years old
I'm new to this board. I thought maybe reaching out to those who are going through the same experience would be helpful. My mom had a very aggressive brain cancer that caught my family totally by surprise. She was sick for 2 years with the disease rapidy taking over the end of summer and through her death. The experience…
hello I miss you
Hello, I am new here. I was searching for something today and I stumbled across this website. Maybe it will help because I know nothing seems to. My husband was 31 years old when he died of non-small squamous cell lung cancer. 31....He has been gone for almost 4 years. And my life has spiralled out of control without him.…
Random Musings
I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer going on 7 years ago. He died three weeks after diagnosis. He was my best friend, and the person I was closest to in the world. Although time does change things- I don't think about his death every day now- the hurt has never wavered and, if possible, is just as strong if not stronger…
I'm 26 and just lost my mother
My mother passed away a week ago after a 3-year battle with ovarian cancer. She finished out her last days at home, and for her last two days, I was her primary caregiver, doing things I never imaged I would be doing for my mother. I don't think that the reality has set in with me that she's really gone...and I don't know…
Had first (strange) dream about husband
Last night I had a strange, fleeting dream involving my husband. I think we were trying to take his body back to Germany. In the dream, he told me he needed something to take the edge off of the flight. He asked me to call a doctor and ask for something for him. (He and I were always nervous flyers.) In the dream, I…
thoughts on early grief "fog"?
I'm new to this site and to my loss; my husband of 30+ years died on Sept 7 after being diagnosed with stage 4 larynx cancer on Aug 1. He'd been progressively hoarse and short of breath for a few months...we were unprepared for his advanced diagnosis and rapid 5 week decline. We decided to forego disfiguring surgery and…
I just lost my mom to Pancreatic Cancer and I'm still in disbelief.
May 23rd 2013 2nd worse day of my life. That is the day my Mom's Dr. called me to give me the news they had found cancerous cells in her Pancreas. It took me a week to digest the news and finally tell my dad and brother. After dicussing how we were going to tell my mom, I had already contacted the oncologist who only…

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