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Should I sue my doctor
Hi Gang, It's been awhile, but looking for opinions. Should I sue my husband's doctor ? There was an obvious mistake. I'm out of the widow fog now and can handle the conversation. My lawyer saids the hosptial will drag my husbands name through the mud. Imply he was a alcholic or smoker or had stress issues, (aka acid…
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1 year Anniversary in September
Hi, I lost my darling boyfriend to melanoma last September. His time from diagnosis to death was an astonishing 2 months. I believe that I was mercifully numb for the first few months. What followed, and what lingers is a very deep sadness that leaves me feeling exhausted and hollowed out. I try to focus on gratitude. I am…
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Marathon
I ran a full marathon (RocknRoll) in San Diego 2 weeks ago to honor my two wives( 2010 and 2016) that faced their mortality with courage, faith, and diligence. I wore their (wedding) rings around my neck, and dedicated "For Bonnie" on my runners bib. Never had run a full marathon before, dang near killed me-lol! But this…
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5 months on the 22nd
Hi-its been a few months since I posted here. First I want to thank all of you for your kind support, I don't think I have acknolwdged that as much as I could and should have. It has been 5 months since my spouses death-feels like much longer because of the deep level of grief. People have asked me if its any easier, that…
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Holidays
With the holiday season upon us, how do you deal with the lost of your loved one and one that has been a part of your life for 55 years? I just lost my husband 4 months ago to this horrible beast called cancer and I do realize that the first holiday is the hardest they say. My youngest son and his family want me to come to…
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Diagnosis Anniversary
There will forever be so many significant dates in my life, especially pertaining to my mother. The day she died - Mar. 11. Her birthday - Jan. 23. My birthday - Oct. 17. And many other celebrations and holidays whose festivities will be blunted by the absence of my mom - Mother's Day, Thanksgiving, Hannukah... I haven't…
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My mum passed away and still have a lots of doubts about her death
My mum passed away from colorectal cancer almost a month ago. My mum was an independent 87 year old, she was diagnosed with stage III (cT3cN1M0) superior colorectal cancer in October. It was an invasive adenocarcinoma, with an enlargement of the rectum wall. They did all the tests (including PET scan in December) and said…
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Grieving with cremation
I just wanted to put this out there in case anyone else is experiencing (or has experienced) this. My mom passed away about a week and a half ago. Both sides of my family typically do burials after death so this was my first experience with it. It's already so hard to lose someone close to you, but to just get a call on a…
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It's been one month...
What is it with me? I've tried so hard not to count days. I didn't count time after my love's dx until I began to sense that we were nearing the end of our time together. And I told myself not to count anymore since he passed. But here I am today, marking the one month anniversary of his death! At times I feel that the…
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Private Message Spam
Hello everyone, Thank you to all of you who have alerted us to the PM spamming from earlier today. I apologize for the inconvenience. While we do have securities in place, we are not always able to catch all spam, and we are trying to figure out how this one got around our system. If you received a message from jegac1…
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Finally, a picture of this couple
This is my soulmate, my love who died November 22nd. This was on our wedding day in July 2012. I'm posting this simply so that you can see a face with the names. She would not necessarily approve of her photo being used like this, which is why I hesitated for so long. However, I am here, I am left with her memory, and I…
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emotional entanglement
My deceased wife has a sister, they are so very much alike, sound identical on the phone, walk the same, voice inflections are identical, similar values. She used to come here to the house and be with her sister, they were very close. Frankly, while I always enjoyed her company, I was not in any way, shape or form…
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Things people have said that make me wonder
Sorry-it's been a tough day and I am entering more topics than I normally would. Have any of you been approached by well meaning individuals who say incredibly inane statements? Here are a few that have come my way. Bear in mind, the majority of people have said very nice, appropriate things, but its the few that stick out…
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Marathon
I'm 62 and I'm going to run a marathon in June. Ran 4 miles today, following a workout plan. I've run for 40 years but never a marathon. This is important to me-to honor both my wifes who died of cancer, their journey, their pain, physical and mental. Wish me luck!!
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I love my sole mate
I lost my precious wife in Aug 2016 ( one day before my 41st birthday) she was 41. We were married 20 years in June of 2016. She was sick for almost four years. We tired everything and anything to get her better. She had breast cancer that spread EVERYWHERE. She was to sick to attend our two daughter's high school…
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Going Crazy?
Hi-lost my beautiful wife Novembr 22nd. Her memorial was last Saturday. For the past week I have been stuck trying to transfer some of her assets to mine (401k) life insurance, etc. What a myriad of red tape that is. I don't even have death certifiactes yet. I want to move on. To make matters more stressful I am being…
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Died and came back my experience
I have been recently diagnised with stomach cancer. This doesn't directly have anything to do with cancer but in a indirectly way it does I was a electrician and back in 2001 my company had been contracted to wire a department store. Well like most companies money was the main topic and employee safety was not the top…
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Why can't I have good memories
Well its now been 2 months since my mother passed and I am so mad at myself. I know I am supposed to think of all the good times we shared...but all I can think of and remember are the last 3 months of her life when we were in the hospital. I look at photos of our great family vacations and time together...but in my mind…
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osteosarcoma
osteosarcoma 1 year hi my friends daughter, 14, has only survived one year after diagnosis with osteosarcoma. she started with a lump on her ankle and on diagnosis it was found in her hip, shoulder and lungs. very unusually it then spread to her pancreas. then her wrist and thumb. chemo had v little or no effect, the…
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18, mom passed 2 weeks ago. lifes complicated...
Posts: 1 Joined: Jun 2016 Jun 10, 2016 - 1:24 am How did you do it? New I am 18 and i just lost my mother two weeks ago, to breast cancer. She had been fighting for 16 years and it was just this thing she had. She tried not to let it affect my life but you know, it does. Everything was okay, other than the Chemo's and dad…
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Did hiking help anyone else with grief?
My mom was diagnosed with leukemia (AML) and fought for a year and a half before succumbing to the disease in 2008. It will be 8 years this fall and I still struggle every day from it. We had an amazing mother/daughter relationship and we did everything together. One activity that recently helped me was taking a hike by…
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Loss of my husband, my best friend
My husband, Rick was diagnosed on November 25 or 26 of 2014. He had throat cancer due to smoking according to doctors. He was sent to treatment and had issues with the center. Then in February 14th of 2015, on our anniversary, he had to be hospitalized. He was having difficulty swallowing and breathing. They did an…
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Everything seems so overwhelming
I lost my husband of 24 years on the 23rd of October, 2015. He had colon cancer with mets to the liver. All the time frames we were given were wrong. They originally told us he would have around 3 -4 years. He had eighteen months. Even when he went into palliative care, they gave him three months. He lasted barely six…
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my mom passed away aug 4th. im lost without her
i lost my mom on Aug 4th 2015 at 2:19 pm. we all knew it was the end of the road for this earthly place. she had cancer all over pretty much. i am so lost without her. it feels like i am on an emotional roller coaster. some days i am ok, and some days i just want to lay in bed and not talk to anyone. i know she is in a…
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Planned Outage on 10/9
There will be a planned CSN outage on 10/9/15 from 5am-8am EST while the site undergoes some maintenance. We apologize for the inconvenience. Rowan CSN Support Team
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I Will Love You Forever My Friend...And Will Never Forget
I love you Josh and miss you so very much. Our love is an old love baby It's older than all our years I have seen in strange young eyes Familiar tears We're old souls in a new life baby They gave us a new life to live and learn Some time to touch old friends And still return Our paths have crossed and parted This love…
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Holding On
I can't let go. I tell myself all the things I already know and repeat the advice and words of encouragement offered by friends and family. I try to socialize and visit outside my home. But everytime I do and then come home thoughts of her overwhelm my mind. I feel like a ballon when the air is released all at once. How do…
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Mother's trip?
My mother just lost my father to cancer Last week. This was very unexpected and he passed within two weeks of leaning he even had cancer. they had a long trip planned to go over seas. Her friends are telling her to take the trip with them. She is asking me what I think. I have no idea what to tell her. Has anyone had to…
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So Lonely
My husband passed away two weeks ago from lung cancer which spread throughout his body. He was the best part of me and I just don't know how to go on without him. I am Catholic and believe he is in a better place but lately am having these doubts. Will I ever be with him again? Does he miss his family? Will my heart ever…
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I lost my cheerleader
I lost my Mom on March 3rd, 2015 to stage 4 pancreatic cancer. She was diagnosed in January and it was way too fast to imagine. She was cheerleader and was the only person who kept me grounded. I cannot describe what I'm feeling at this time in my life. I'm am lost, and I need her guidance. She was my best friend and since…