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Cancer Free
Congrats to all those who have beaten this beast. I met my first pancreatic cancer survivor last week and he was 13 years free.. I said your Mr 3% and he laughed, heartily I might add.
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There was never enough time...
For almost one year, I never had enough time for myself, while being My Love's caregiver. Now that he is gone I seem to have all the time in the world! And I struggle to find something to do to fill the hours. My family and friends say that I should take time to "take care of myself". So tonight I decided to color my hair.…
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Kid's sightings
Hi Its been 8 weeks since hubby passed. My 3 year old has been saying strannge things like I talked to dad last night and he told me he misses me and a couple of times she has seen him around the house. She knows he is gone and I do understand that to her gone might seem a temporary thing. Yesterday my nine year old came…
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one year ago today
I held your hand and prayed with you in hospice. All of your grandchildren surrounded you and we had an early Christmas. When you breathed your last it was in peace and your healing is now eternal. I think "I should call Mom today." And then I remember. I see things you'd like and then I remember. David graduated from…
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its only been a week since husband past, seem like it forever
My husband of 29 years past away on 10/22/2009 after a 5 month battle with esophageal cancer. We married when we was in our early 20's and you think that you will grow old togeather do the thing you plan. after 29 years and two children now age 28 and 24 and 2 grandchildrens that i would not be so lost and feel that my…
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27 year Doctor gave us wrong diagnosis based on his gut feeling instead of running correct tests. Se
Hi My name is Beth and I want to share my story of the personal hell that I have just been through. My grandmother had bladder cancer 22 years ago and has had a ostomy bag attached to her ever since. Last Wednesday she started experiencing abdominal cramps. She could not keep food down. We immediately ran her to the…
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Flashback
Last night I was at the ER with my husband who is diagnosed with liver cancer. They had him NPO because they were planning on possible anesthesia. I got a little styrofoam cup with ice chips and a spoon for him, and when I spooned out some ice for him, I was reminded of the months I spent in the hospital caring for my mom,…
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Inanctivated Member has pulle up many very old threads!
I she or he hacking into the system?
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Life After Caregiving - I lost my Grandma
Hi Everyone, I'm new to this site. I wish I had found this site about 6 months ago. My grandma was 84 and had tounge cancer. She had a portion of her toungue removed, as well as some lymph nodes. The Doctors recommended that she get radiation therapy. I slowly but surely ended up becoming her caregiver because I was the…
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losing mom, i feel lost without her
I am new to this site. I hope to gain friends here that actually understand and feel the pain and agony I do. I also hope to help one another through our pain and share stories of our loved ones that will make us laugh and even some that will make us cry and yet honor those who have moved on to Heaven. (this may be very…
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A place that tears built
Hello, We are trying to get volunteers together that would like to help with a special project for terminally ill patients and families. I had a mother and daughter that was diagnosed with cancer and sadly have lost both of them, however, my husband and I are looking to help others that are currently going through…
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cancer treatment centers of america
anyone have experience with these hospitals?
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3 months since I lost my mom to GBM...
it has probably been the worst 3 months of my life being without her......every day is a struggle..i try to stay busy but when im done the pain is still present.....i think of her every day....hugging her, laughing with her, laying down with her...her rubbing my head...she's my best friend, my heart, my soul...im living a…
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Surviving Loss
I became the primary caregiver for my mother when I was 22, at that time she was diagnosed with cancer of the gallbladder. Facing the reality of her incurable cancer we used the time we had to create memories that helped us make it through such a difficult time, and continue to sustain me today. This is a blog I recently…
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I found my laughter or it found me
For months I have been forcing myself to laugh, you know that make sure you laugh at the appropriate time kind of thing. This week something so silly happened in my life that I actually burst out in a real laugh. I guess I'm sharing this because it felt so good to know even though losing him still hurts so bad, there is…
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Does it get easier?
I lost my husband on 7/17 to colorectal cancer after only 9 months. Prior to his cancer diagnosis he had suffered a stroke 9 years ago that left him wheelchair bound. I was his main caregiver the entire time. My entire life had become about him and giving him the best quality of life possible. I didn't mind for a second. I…
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Sad for Him, Struggling with Me
I lost my husband two months ago to esophogeal cancer, an ugly disease he battled for 10 months. He was 41, a wonderful husband, and even better Daddy. We have three beautiful girls ages 12, 10 and 6. I think about him every second of every day -- my heart is broken. We were so perfect together and had things right where…
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One year without my mommy :'(
A year ago today, my beloved mother passed away. I am only 17, was 16 then. She was the only one to comfort me at hard times, so now I am lost without her. Besides Mother's Day, today has been one of the realest and hardest days I have yet to live without her. & I think I have finally realized I have been in shock and…
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Transition to the Surviving Caregiver Role
My dear husband passed away from brain cancer early in the morning of July 11th. As many of you know I struggled with my decision to move him to a nursing home earlier this spring when his care got too much for me to manage at home. As his decadron was slowly tapered his condition gradually declined over the past few weeks…
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Third Anniversary
Today would have been mine and Dales third Anniversary.. I just want to crawl back in bed and pretend that this day without him is not happening..I know the preacher said till death do you part I just didnt realize he meant the death of both of us. Sorry I'm rambling, I just hurt so bad right now. Panks
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scared and lonely
I just lost my partner and best friend to cancer and I am having trouble finding the strength to go on. I depended on him for so much and I am feeling so empty and useless. I am terrified that I have to face my future without him. How do I find a reason to go on? I don't have children of my own and don't live near any…
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Two Years Today
It's been two years today since I lost my husband Terry. I have learned ...that I can go on and still have his memories close. ...that he loved me very much and made sure everything was prepared for me even ...when hospice pushed me to make his arrangements, it wasn't cruel as I first thought but something I needed to be…
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The title of this thread is surviving caregivers?
My husband passed on Oct 13, 2009. I am dying slowly each and every moment since then, so I wonder about the title of this thread. Do we truly survive the loss of a loved one or so we simply exist until it's "our turn"? I will never call myself a surviving caregiver, I will simply describe myself as someone who is "waiting…
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Broken Heart
It's Been 4 mounths since My Cathy has left me! I am so lost, my heart is broken into so many peices, I don't know how to mend them. I can't even think of her with out the tears just bursting out all the time, Work is becoming very difficult, having to go out side a lot to regroup. I wake every morning wishing someone…
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Scholarships?
Hi everyone I please ask you for your help, Recently, about a month ago, my Uncle John Panico, was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. I do not know many details of his cancer but from what I know I am writing this letter to you. He survived by his Daughter, my cousin, Erica Panico, and his sister Donna Lewis. I was in shock when…
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MY ANGER IS BUILDING AND I NEED TO RELEASE IT
I have shared before, and it has only gotten worse. I work in a hospital and lost my mom only 3 MONTHS AGO!!!! If you anything about grief or decide to do your homework before making horrible conclusions, one might know that at 3 months it could get worse. Reality starts to kick in. But no! Not where I work, they expect me…
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No energy
Hi everyone~ I haven't posted anything for a while but have been reading the discussion boards on and off - I hope everyone is doing well. I really need some advice and insight from some of your experiences. My problem right now is that I am becoming more and more disfunctional and I hate it. I have zero energy and I'm not…
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So glad I found this discussion
Was just siting here thinking I needed to quit posting on caregivers because I lost him in March, and really hated the thought of it, the sight has been such a blessing for me.My role in life has changed now and I am my own caregiver and I really am not liking it much. Even though Dale was sick I always felt better knowing…
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When does it stop hurting?
My mom, my best friend, is dying of lung cancer right now and I can't even imagine a time where I won't ache with raw, searing pain. I'm twenty four years old and this all happened so fast. She only started chemo two weeks ago and now we're discussing removing life support, letting hospice help us arrange her final days…
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I lost my mommy
On July 18, my mom passed away. For two years my dear mother fought her toughest battle. Unfortunately, it just wasn't enough. She was a single mom with three kids of her own, including myself. It was just me and her in the house because the older two were off at college. I gave my life to her and cared for her as much I…