Is anyone still scared?

Kylez
Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
I had surgery, rads and sometimes still get so scared. Does anyone else? I guess the fear is that it will come back. There seem to be so many just on here with recurrences that it is hard to forget.


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  • outdoorgirl
    outdoorgirl Member Posts: 1,565
    Kylez,
    I think all of us are scared at some time or another-especially when it's time for a mammo or any of the other tests we may have to have on a regular basis. It's reality.
    For me,it's always in the back of my mind somewhere,but I want to enjoy life too so I try not to think of it too much.I hope that you are able to do the same...
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member

    Kylez,
    I think all of us are scared at some time or another-especially when it's time for a mammo or any of the other tests we may have to have on a regular basis. It's reality.
    For me,it's always in the back of my mind somewhere,but I want to enjoy life too so I try not to think of it too much.I hope that you are able to do the same...

    Kylez .. I am scared .. I will be having my bone scan and
    PT scan on Friday .. anything have to do with mammo, testing, mri etc .. scares me. Plain and simple.

    I am DCIS - high grade, invasive, Her2 positive and fight with the possiblity of cancer spreading elsewhere in my tired body. Normal thoughts, maybe .. but I refuse to give in FEAR .. time is our friend, FEAR is the enemy.

    Outdoorgirl is speaking from the Bible when she states .. It's reality.

    Stay strong and peaceful:

    VickiSam
  • lynn1950
    lynn1950 Member Posts: 2,570
    Scared
    Yep, had bilateral, chemo, rads and am taking Arimidex. I am afraid, but I no longer let fear run my life. For this moment, I am fine and that's good! Lynn
  • rjjj
    rjjj Member Posts: 1,822 Member
    lynn1950 said:

    Scared
    Yep, had bilateral, chemo, rads and am taking Arimidex. I am afraid, but I no longer let fear run my life. For this moment, I am fine and that's good! Lynn

    Of course we are scared
    but slowly as we survive each month, each year it my subside some, only to rear it's ugly head each 6 months for checkups and etc. I just try to think of other positive things and I know I will be fine for now. I love you all and wish all my sisters the sweetest dreams tonight.
    Jackie
  • Christmas Girl
    Christmas Girl Member Posts: 3,682 Member
    I think most of us...
    Are afraid, at least sometimes, occasionally, around appointments, etc. ...

    It is, unfortunately, our reality. However, from my own experience, it does get better as time passes. The further out from treatment, the better the odds get.

    Always remember - as I often remind myself - that many, many, many, many more of us survive BC than don't. In fact, the vast majority of us certainly do. :-)

    Kind regards, Susan
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    SCARED
    Yes I most certainly get scared and I think it is what has kept me alive. I get scared I go to the doctors I complain and make a pest of myself and they run tests....twice this has resulted in proof or recurrence that I have caught early enough to fight it off. Fear to a certain degree keeps us alive. Live you life, enjoy your life get out and have fun but listen when your body seems to be trying to tell you something. What does it hurt if you are wrong and you are okay thats a good thing.


    Hugs,

    RE
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    Still scared....
    I would be lying if I said I wasn't. But it is what it is and as Claudia has reminded us in the past...we do what we have to, so we can do what we want to! If it ever does come back than I will face it head on, but until then, I will live life. Pammy
  • zahalene
    zahalene Member Posts: 670
    I was diagnosed...
    in 1986 at age 38.....
    in 1988 at age 40.....
    in 1996 at age 48.....
    I am now in stable health....
    at age 61.
    Yes, I get scared.
    No, I do not let it ruin the rest of my life,
    because TODAY I am ok.
    Next time you get scared you have my permission
    to go into your zen meditation with this mantra
    on your lips....
    ZZZZZAAAAAAHHHHHHH........
    ZZZZZAAAAAAHHHHHHH........
    ZZZZZAAAAAAHHHHHHH........
    LOL
    God bless!
  • meena1
    meena1 Member Posts: 1,003
    Yes, I am scared. I also
    Yes, I am scared. I also have a pet scan on Friday. Every little ache or pain worries me, but I know I am under good medical care.
  • ohilly
    ohilly Member Posts: 441
    RE said:

    SCARED
    Yes I most certainly get scared and I think it is what has kept me alive. I get scared I go to the doctors I complain and make a pest of myself and they run tests....twice this has resulted in proof or recurrence that I have caught early enough to fight it off. Fear to a certain degree keeps us alive. Live you life, enjoy your life get out and have fun but listen when your body seems to be trying to tell you something. What does it hurt if you are wrong and you are okay thats a good thing.


    Hugs,

    RE

    Re, how did you know you had a recurrence? I'd like to know what to look for.

    Ohilly
  • ohilly
    ohilly Member Posts: 441
    zahalene said:

    I was diagnosed...
    in 1986 at age 38.....
    in 1988 at age 40.....
    in 1996 at age 48.....
    I am now in stable health....
    at age 61.
    Yes, I get scared.
    No, I do not let it ruin the rest of my life,
    because TODAY I am ok.
    Next time you get scared you have my permission
    to go into your zen meditation with this mantra
    on your lips....
    ZZZZZAAAAAAHHHHHHH........
    ZZZZZAAAAAAHHHHHHH........
    ZZZZZAAAAAAHHHHHHH........
    LOL
    God bless!

    same question
    Zahalene, same question I asked RE: How did you know you had a recurrence? I would like to know what to look for.

    Ohilly
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    meena1 said:

    Yes, I am scared. I also
    Yes, I am scared. I also have a pet scan on Friday. Every little ache or pain worries me, but I know I am under good medical care.

    You have to be
    I think that if we weren't scared at least a little, that we would be living in denial. And, that would be not only wrong, but, not smart. The main thing is to just not let it control or influence your continuing to live a great life. Keep it in mind inre to checking yourself and being aware of any changes, but, just don't obsess about it. Bc does change our lives forever, but, it doesn't have to be a bad thing.

    Leeza
  • courage is fear that has said it's prayers
    I am scared all the time about a recurrance. Sometimes wonder who my hubby would marry if anything happens to me. But I just pray about it and know that I'm not in charge of what happens.
    Hope this helps
  • padee6339
    padee6339 Member Posts: 763
    You Betcha!
    I am scared stiff that it will return. It is a thought that pops into my head unannounced at various times of the day. I have my first "Monthly" visit to my oncologist tomorrow, and then on Sept 24th, I will have my first mammogram since diagnosis. I am petrified that it will show something. Although after 6 rounds of chemo and 36 rads it better not show its beastly face again! Two of my friends have had recurrences, one had a mastectomy this time, but the other was caught again at Stage 0, so no further treatment was needed. I guess once the mammogram shows nothing, then I'll breathe a little easier. Its coming up on the one year anniversary of my diagnosis and believe me I don't want another year like this one. Wish they would invent a button you could push to turn off the anxiety.
    Hugs - Pat
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    I was for about three years
    I was for about three years after treatment. When I was diagnosed with Parkinson's I stopped. I had a dream once that Death looked at me and said, "It's your time." I accepted it and changed clothes and floated off. I looked down at the yard as I passed by and there were huge piles of dog doo doo, like bales of hay. I thought, "they aren't cleaning up after the dog." but I didn't worry about it. I woke up then.
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    RE said:

    SCARED
    Yes I most certainly get scared and I think it is what has kept me alive. I get scared I go to the doctors I complain and make a pest of myself and they run tests....twice this has resulted in proof or recurrence that I have caught early enough to fight it off. Fear to a certain degree keeps us alive. Live you life, enjoy your life get out and have fun but listen when your body seems to be trying to tell you something. What does it hurt if you are wrong and you are okay thats a good thing.


    Hugs,

    RE

    Why I thought it was back
    Ohilly the first time a bump popped up overnight on my chest and of course I went nuts with fear. I had not been feeling well anyway, the second time for me it was the fact that I could not get well from small things like flu, cold, bladder infections and infections in my arm that has lymphedema. I just plain did not feel well, I felt exhausted all of the time. I knew this was not right and insisted and tests, it took awhile to convince the docs it was a prob. but eventually they listened. My body could not fight off the small colds and flu's while it was attempting to fight off cancer.


    Hugs,

    RE
  • mimivac
    mimivac Member Posts: 2,143
    Are you kidding?
    Heck, yeah I'm scared! I can say that most of my days are joyful, but once in a while I get into one of those "spells" where all I do is worry about recurrence. I become hopeless and think that it's inevitable. Then I reemerge. I think it's something we have to learn to live with. I think Jackie's right that it gets somewhat better with time.

    Mimi
  • zahalene
    zahalene Member Posts: 670
    ohilly said:

    same question
    Zahalene, same question I asked RE: How did you know you had a recurrence? I would like to know what to look for.

    Ohilly

    ohilly,
    I did not have a recurrence in the true sense.
    I had a new cancer in the other breast 1 1/2 years after the first one. I found them both by self exam.
    The third diagnosis was a bone lesion which showed up on a chest x-ray at a regular check-up at the site of my first cancer. But it was also a separate tumor, not a recurrence of the original cancer on that side.
  • CR1954
    CR1954 Member Posts: 1,390 Member
    Yes.......
    Yes, yes, yes....still afraid and always will be.

    Hugs,

    CR
  • lanie940
    lanie940 Member Posts: 490
    CR1954 said:

    Yes.......
    Yes, yes, yes....still afraid and always will be.

    Hugs,

    CR

    i agree. I will continue to
    i agree. I will continue to be afraid also.