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CT Scan coming up!
Here it is near 3am and im awake. I even took one of my heavy pills for pain to try and get some sleep, and here I am. Last nite fell asleep thinking of it, woke up dreamt i could see my insides and I was scared, is this a omen, do I have something to worry about??? So next friday the 29th is my ct scan, and I worry,…
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Seeking a community in my time of need
Hi, everyone: I am new to this network and write as a caregiver for my wife, who has struggled over the last dozen years with a variety of rare cancers and cancer-related issues: paget’s disease of the skin, underlying squamous cell carcinoma (both gynecological issues) and, just recently, urethral cancer (she just had…
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port has flipped, on avastin, what to do?
So my port has flipped over. I have 2 doctors, an oncologist and gyn-onc. One says I can have it surgically flipped back and possibly it needs to be reattached, no problem while on Avastin treatment. The other says, "no" you will have to wait for 28 days after your treatment with Avastin is done. Hummm................ And…
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Really struggling emotionally
Hi, I'm a new member here so I guess I'll start with an introduction. My name is Laura. I'm 45 years old and have been living with Stage 3A breast cancer since July 2008. Prior to surgery, my team of doctors all told me how lucky I was to have caught it so early. Early you ask, at stage 3A? Until they got in there they…
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Just when you think you are doing better...
I spent a wonderful evening with the "girls" in my family last night! Enjoyed some wine, laughed harder than I've laughed in forever! Played a silly board game! Listened to the young ones music! So why is it that this morning I feel so lousy? No, I didn't drink too much wine! Lousy that I am missing my love so much. Lousy…
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Don't know what to do...
Wow, I really don't even know how to start this, so I guess I'll just jump in and try. I am 20-years-old, and I have Hodgkin's Lymphoma. I am having a stem cell transplant, and I am so very scared. There are so many things that can go wrong, and I just don't like living in the world of "what if?". My biggest problem right…
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What happened to me!!
Yesterday was a great day, listened to music, was baking at same time, chatted with some friends was in a great mood and then last nite something snapped. I am not sure what happened, all the sudden my support ( soon to be ex) made me mad, and I ended up doing some heavy lifting on my own. I am independent lady, always try…
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my mama
My story is my wonderful mother passed away march 27 2010 after battling gallbladder cancer for only 10 weeks.the thing is I am still having a hard time when I think about my mom its those 10 weeks I spent with her and all the pain she was in and all the hospitals and all the things we went through with her.I really want…
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thaks to everone for your support
befor i found this support line and the weakness that i am having i felt hopless that i felt like just felt like ending it all i have no support line even my older childred do not act i hear from them when i get my social security my my 13 year old tells all of the time she hates me she told me the other day to leave all…
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thaks to everone for your support
befor i found this support line and the weakness that i am having i felt hopless that i felt like just felt like ending it all i have no support line even my older childred do not act i hear from them when i get my social security my my 13 year old tells all of the time she hates me she told me the other day to leave all…
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I'm have been the main caregiver for both my parents
I'm have been the main caregiver for both my parents. I took care of my mother years ago until 8yrs ago when she had died. The first year my mother was in the hospital for most of it. I went to school, found a full time job (that I loved very much) which I held for 13yrs until the company closed in 2008. Within that time I…
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feeling a little down
Hi everyone . Feeling a little down this week. Tomorrow is my mother's birthay, she would have been 81. But she isn't here to celebrate. My husband and I will celebrate 25 yr. anniv. in May and she always used to say,"We'll have a party God willing..." Well apparently, God wasn't willing. Been thinking about the past a lot…
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What happened to me!!
Yesterday was a great day, listened to music, was baking at same time, chatted with some friends was in a great mood and then last nite something snapped. I am not sure what happened, all the sudden my support ( soon to be ex) made me mad, and I ended up doing some heavy lifting on my own. I am independent lady, always try…
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ok what now-totally need to vent
rectal/liver cancer- does any one out there have this type. ok getting ready to meet with surgeons after 8 rounds of chemo, totally stressing out. I feel I need to get my life in some kind of order. Don't mean to be a downer but if you have kids do you write them a letter of the just in case something happens while you are…
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I am 51 years and lost my husband of 26 years on January 28, 2010 to Pancreatic Cance
I have a son who is 23 years old and graduated from U of o yesterday. I am so angry my husband is not here to support my son and to show how proud he would be of his oldest son. He bought a graduation card for my son and never wrote on it. I have another son who is a Junior at OSU. I know it is not my husbands fault he got…
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Feel Alone........
I seem to not handle things that weel the last couple days that been really hard on me I just want to lay around and cry. I have all these feelings inside I think sometimes that maybe its just me. I have a hard time talking and I keep it inside. I go to church and tell people what they want to hear that everything great.…
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Please pray !
Hi everyone, really need some support and prayers again! My daughter-in-law is Japanese and her parents live in Japan where the earthquake was. They are safe but have no water, electricity and have alot of damage in their home. I feel so sorry for my daughter-in-law cause she's so scared and wishes she could be there. Also…
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Happy Birthday to Me!!!
Well today is the first birthday that I'm celebrating without Tom. But I am wearing the diamond earrings & beautiful celery green top he bought me last year. Had a nice morning down at my Village coffee shop. I baked a sour cream coffee cake, everyone sang & I got lots of hugs. Helps alot to know you're loved. Just got a…
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Tsunami- daughter found :-)
hello! I want to thank those in the know that prayers have been answered about my only child-who is not in the UK but on a remote island in Micronesia. She was on a diving trip and evacuated to a place of safety having just flown out there a few hours before the earthquake via Tokyo and Guam. What with everything else- its…
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Spot to vent about - insensitive people
I have had it with insensitive people. Bad enough people are living with disablilities and there are always businesses who show no compassion whatsoever and make it even harder for us than what we are faced with daily. This issue was raised for me today when my landlady decided, seemingly out of the blue, that they were…
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Tired of being sick.....
I had my surgery in September got better then they didn't find no cancer. I am stage 4 small intestine cancer. The end of January started having stomach pains again. They sent me on tests over and over. Today I went for a test at the hospital. It was an x-ray test but had to drink that stuff before the test. All my ct…
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relay for life
im not sure where is a good place to post this question but here it goes. for my fundraising i want to do donation buckets but i have no idea what to put on them. please help me!!! i am lost and this is my first year. thanks rathgirl
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My girlfriend's end...
I guess I just need a place to vent a little, seeing as my mind is a mess right now. Last week, my girlfriend, 17 years old, got diagnosed with brain cancer, and the doctors are giving her a very low estimate of time left. Radiation doesn't seem to work, nor does any other treatment. And surgery is far too dangerous, and…
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Just joined (hello and rant)
Hi - I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I can't find a "new members" forum so here I am. My husband was diagnosed with kidney cancer in September, had the kidney removed in October, and during the surgery we found that it had metastasized into the lungs and abdominal wall. He is on Sutent for the…
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Struggling
I have Small Intestine cancer they found it in September when they did surgery. I got better they been doing test blood work to make sure its not back. then I started having stomach pains. Its like I am right back where I started before I got sick. I went to see the surgeon about the pains he was so mean he said suck it up…
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The Government Paper Trail
And so it starts... I don't believe it! Nine years! "They", the travel agent said it was legal , part of the United States (like Puerto Rico)! A beautiful island called Fiji, clear blue water, romantic, palm trees, sunsets and no crowds. A unique experience, a wedding on the beach! Sure... I have a paper that says I am…
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what to do when you keep getting pushed away on top of dealing w/paranoia
hey all, this is my first post, didn't think i would need help but i guess we all do at one point or another. so to be as brief as i can, i'm the oldest of four, i have three younger sisters, the one closest to me in age, deb is an rn who had been working for of all things hospice. my father passed on years ago so it is…
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I feel better today
Well, after 3 months of having no hair, wearing chemo scarves and wrap scarves I finally broke down today and had my husband help me go wig shopping. Since he knows better than I do what I looked like with hair, he found a perfect synthetic wig that I had fitted onto my head and trimmed to look like my "old" hairstyle. I…
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Rough six months
If it aint one thing its another it will be 2 yrs in april my husband passed of colon cancer I have done pretty good but these last 6 months My brothers brain cancer has come back not looking good for him i had knee surgery in sept fell in oct going to the surgeon this friday have a torn flap ( great) 3 weeks ago i could…
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Just to say it
Four months ago, my dad got sick. He quit smoking suddenly and ended up in the hospital for a week because his heart almost failed. It turns out he had an aortic aneurysm. They did an incredibly dangerous surgery, and he spent another week in the hospital. He was so sick. I was only able to go home for 3 days, because I…