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I'm new to this and am having a severe bout with depression
I was diagnosed with breast cancer in Nov. 09. Just had my 7th of 8 chemo treatments with herceptin. I dread the few days after the chemo treatments because I get so depressed. I have dealt with depression for a long time but it seems to be getting worse. I go see a psychologist but he can't be with me 24/7 and weekends…
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Scared, Confused, and Tired
Hi..My husband was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lung Cancer on December 3, 2010 and then my only brother committed suicide on December 7th, 2010. I don't know how to talk to others well and thought maybe someone could give some advice. I am scared, angry, confused, and plain tired. I feel like life has gone into overdrive on a…
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Tears and Showers
I lost it in the shower this morning. Out of the blue. Very strange. I have thought alot about March 1st the past week or so. Thinking of taking off work etc. You see, March 1st last year is the day my life was changed forever. The day the **** ER doc said "well folks, it is worse than a stroke, she has cancer". I swear I…
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HELP! It's been almost 6 months and I still can't cope
Hi everybody, it's been a while since I was here, when Mom first passed away I came here for support, which I recieved from so many of you, and I thank you for that.It just seemed like every time I would read other peoples sad stories it would make me more depressed so I did what has come natural to me lately, which is to…
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I can only deal with so much (vent)
I am stressed out, exhausted, and drained, and I know it is only to get worse. My dad told my mom to f off during her radiation and made her get her own wheelchair. Then he told her he couldn't wait to have her retirement. Then my 19 year old brother threw a full blown toddler temper tantrum because I asked him to please…
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Port inserted, why so much trouble [ just a vent ]
This is definitely not a serious issue but one where I am at the point of thinking my body just loves to make trouble for the rest of me....sounds silly doesn't it. I have reoccurance of cancer. First time round I chose to do treatments by IV in hands, now I have blown veins so its a port... okay I go get a port am…
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second chemo treatment second time...
I just want to know if anyone has experience with the following: I have had two chemo treatments and both times my white blood counts have fallen low were they have to delay treatment by a week. They are fine with a week off. The docs tried to reduce the amount of gemzar I am getting to 80% but my whites dropped again.…
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42 year old daughter has terminal renal cell carcinoma, spread to lymph nodes in neck and one "spot"
Hello, I am in great distress. My 42 year old daughter has terminal cancer (RCC) . She is married to a wonderful man and has three sons (20, 18, and 9) I am heart-sick and feel so much anguish and fear that she will not be able to finish raising the 9 y-o. That is her biggest heartache also. She had one kidney removed over…
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Best friend is going to die
My best friend is going to die of cancer, given less than 3 months. Not sure what Im going to do, shes such a good girl and has everything going for her. If she dies I may kill myself, shes so young and doesnt deserve it... its just not right.. any comfort? if not dont respond
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A Different Kind of Post
Hi Friends, This is not a cancer related post, but at the moment I did not know where else to go. This morning, on my way to work at 3 am, I passed a car accident. A young man had hit a telephone pole and landed in the opposite lane facing traffic. I passed by, turned around, and went back. My little voice kept saying to…
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Coping with loved one with cancer who is depressed, angry, and mean
My 83 year-old mother was first diagnosed with lung cancer back in 1983. She underwent surgery to remove the tumor with follow-up radiation. She recovered physically but her personality changed radically with the diagnosis. Growing up she was fun, funny, and supported me and my family in everything we did. A truly great…
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My Mom, 49, comfirmed to be in final stage of liver cancer...Cry
My Mom, 49, comfirmed to be in final stage of liver cancer...Cry... I am 21, I am the single child. My dad dumped us when I was born, so as you can imagine how tough she is. I love my mom so much, she is such a nice person, she helps people and she covers for her relatives' debt but nobody would be willing to help her back…
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Another round for me!
I am going thru the "i dont' know stages of this". I call it that cuz i dont' know why my cancer has come back. I am strong and want to get stronger. I am trying to have faith inside me that this will be last sessions of chemo and this will stay hidden......for good! I will not let this beat me, no statistic, no nothing is…
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cancer blocking relationship
im only 18 but finding that someone is hard. when i was diagnosed with HD i knew there was no way anyone would want to date someone with cancer. if anyone would like to share stories or thoughts that would be great emilyann
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Here we go again
So here we are just 6 months after Bob’s first diagnosis of melanoma - stage 3c and his first tumor & lymph node removal surgery (missing primary). Great hopes for new beginnings, Christmas/family, and News Years 2011. Bob faced his first checkup and retesting during Christmas week while he and I anxiously waited for the…
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Survivor goals
Having finished treatments & getting back into life I'm throwing out an invite. I ride a motorcycle (XL883L sportster) & live in Calvert County, Md. (chesapeake beach). I would like to put together a group that rides for fun & be a team for Relay for Life. If anyone is @ a point where they can do this PLZ LET ME KNOW.…
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prayers, please - UPDATE 1
Jim will get the results of his 6 month post-treatment PET scan this morning. Asking for prayers for God's will, His mercy and grace. Original tumor site looks good with the exception of some inflammation around the edges, likely caused by the treatment. PET also showed an area which was there last time but the uptake has…
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People who mean well...
Does anyone have the issue of people saying the wrong things to you during a time of pain? I know it is not always easy to know what to say, but it is often exhausting having to answer to these people - especially when you're in so much pain.
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Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Panic Attacks/Anxiety
I just answered another post from someone who felt they were dealing with anxiety attacks and I answered him/her as I have been going through a patch of this I believe myself too. I have only had little bits of anxiety here and there but it seems to have built up big time recently with more stresses. I also thought about…
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Loved one with bile duct cancer
My husband was diagnosed with bile duct cancer about a year and a half ago. It was resectable but has scans every 3 months to make sure it's not coming back. I live every day scared out of my mind. We have 2 young childern and I can't imagine it coming back. I am constantly watching everything he does and starring at him…
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Praying for better days in 2011 for all
I just had to post a special New Years wish for all on this board and their loved ones, for good health and love in 2011. You are all in my prayers and let's hope 2011 will be known in years to come as the year a cure was found for cancer. Nothing is impossible. Blessings, Bluerose
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Christmas Forever
It’s that time of year again and if you aren’t careful the beautiful meaning of Christmas can get totally lost in the vast amount of presents that are located under the decorated tree along with the family get-togethers that are spent in light conversation with empty hearts. It takes a real connection with those around us…
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Advice needed - meeting a terminal friend for a "vacation" next week
Hello - I am meeting my oldest friend of 27 years next week in Cancun. She is in England and I am in the US. This is most likely the last time I will see her due to our geographical distance. She has been diagnosed with lung and bone cancer - given 1 year to live. I am anxious about the trip and losing some sleep over it.…
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Children of cancer patients
This board is for the sons and daughters of cancer patients. It is great to have people your own age going through the same thing that you are. Here we can all talk and support one another and help each other through these trying times.
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How Did We Get Here?
The Talking Heads asked that....and I have many times. For years.....46 exact, I would hear of someone I knew, someone I used to work with, old family friend, friend of a friend of friend.....whoevever...who one day was full of life and vibrant and the next day....the dreaded C word. How? Why? Never understood.....until…
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Pushing people away...
Hi Everyone, I hope you've all had as good of a Holiday as possible this year. It went by so fast. I just wanted to ask if anyone feels like they push people away? I am very selective as to who I feel like talking to, and I tend to ignore many phone calls and emails. It is not fair to the people in my life, but I find it…
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Remission milestone gift
One of my friends had a clean scan 5 days ago showing 1year in remission from stage 4 lymphoma. He gets his port out next week. I'd like To get him something to show support and how happy/proud i am for him. He's active in fundraising for the leukemia lymphoma society so I was thinking of donating in his name. What do you…
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Co-workers silence about cancer
Have any of you found that co-workers totally ignore what you went through with cancer? I was diagnosed with early stage 1B1 cervical cancer this past May, had a radical hysterectomy early July, and am grateful to not need chemo nor radiation. My first tests 4 months after surgery recently shows I am cancer free! When I…
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Having a bad day!
To all my CSN friends, I thought I was doing pretty good since this is the first Christmas without my hubby, Tom. But started having a hard time last night and today isn't any better. I suppose this is normal, but just wish I had his arms around me right now. There's probably a few more of you who are feeling the same way,…
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Merry Christmas From Heaven
Merry Christmas From Heaven I still hear the songs I still see the lights I still feel your love On cold wintery nights. I still share your hopes And all of your cares I’ll even remind you To say all your prayers I just want to tell you You still make me proud You stand head and shoulders Above all the crowds Keep trying…