Here we go again.....

Eil4186
Eil4186 Member Posts: 949
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Hi all, am a little nervous just was hoping for some positive thoughts! Had a mammo thursday, doc asked for more pictures, then did ultrasound, then core biopsy. Suspicious area close to chest wall in opposite good breast. Doc will call w/results monday after 5pm.

The whole day went exactly the same as my 1st mammo/diagnosis on 2006. Even same number of hours 5 1/2. I had a weird feeling something was up before I even got there too. Weird.

I am wondering how I could even possibly develop a secondary breast cancer while taking tamoxifen? But I shouldn't jump the gun though. Unlike last time, this time there is a decent chance that the area will be benign.

Please say a little prayer, ok? Thank you all. Eileen.

P.s. Boy, there's always something, huh?
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  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159
    ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
    ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) and every positive, encouraging, upbuilding, healthy , calming thought to you, sweet Eil!
    Chen♥
  • jennytwist
    jennytwist Member Posts: 896
    Keeping you
    in my thoughts and prayers - and also sending you all my positive energy - feel all our love around you. (I still have one and I worry about that as well) Try to relax this weekend!
    much love,
    Jenny
  • roseann4
    roseann4 Member Posts: 992 Member
    chenheart said:

    ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
    ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) and every positive, encouraging, upbuilding, healthy , calming thought to you, sweet Eil!
    Chen♥

    The fear is more difficult for me than the actual diagnosis.
    Hi Eileen,

    The fear between the mammo and final diagnosis is HELL for all of us. Not that the treatments are a piece of cake, but at least we know what we are dealing with and there is a treatment plan. I am so sorry you are going through this fearful period a second time. I'm scheduled for my first follow up mammo on Nov. 30th. Not looking forward to it. Hopefully, your biopsy will be B9 and you can get on with your life once again. Hugs!

    Roseann
  • Whoknowz
    Whoknowz Member Posts: 82
    More hugs to you
    I can't even imagine that heart-stopping moment, but know you've got all the support and love we can send to you as you deal with this.

    It's especially hard to focus on a different outcome when the circumstances repeat themselves so eerily. But you've made a great start!

    Prayers, hugs, and lots of good thoughts to you and for you

    Angela
  • Marlene_K
    Marlene_K Member Posts: 508
    Sending all kinds of
    Sending all kinds of positive vibes your way and send a prayer that all will be fine and you will get that great sigh of relief we all wish we could've had the FIRST time around. I wanted to have a double mastectomy but the surgeon talked me out of it. He said there was only a 2% chance I could get it in the 2nd with it not being hereditary. I guess a 2% chance is a chance in and of itself. But heck, there are women that get a recurrence even with a mastectomy, so I guess there's just no sure guard against it. I truly hope you don't have to have a repeat because no one wants to go through it the first time, never mind a 2nd! Please post & let us know the results as soon as you can!

    With lots of hugs ~ Mar
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    So sorry you have to have
    So sorry you have to have this worry. Positive thoughts headed your way and hugs. Hoping it's benign.
  • LC815
    LC815 Member Posts: 155
    Prayers and Hugs
    Dear Eileen,

    I hope everything ends up okay. It's like that old Tom Petty song, "The Waiting is the Hardest Part." I hate waiting for results. I'm glad he got to do the biopsy right then and there. At least things are moving quickly . . . I'm praying that they're moving right to the Big O.K.!!

    I taught in a Quaker school for a long time. The Quakers have this "thing." When someone is going through a tough time, they "hold you in the light." It's a lovely image, I think . . . your friends holding you up to the a place where there is light and peace.

    I'm holding you in the light.

    Hugs,
    Linda
  • natly15
    natly15 Member Posts: 1,941
    B9
    Eileen I pray thats what you hear on Monday. Prayer being said as I write. Please let us know as soon as you can.
  • creampuff91344
    creampuff91344 Member Posts: 988
    natly15 said:

    B9
    Eileen I pray thats what you hear on Monday. Prayer being said as I write. Please let us know as soon as you can.

    Oh Eli, just came across
    Oh Eli, just came across your post, and am dumbfounded. I am sending all of my positive thoughts your way, and hope that this is just a precaution they are taking and nothing more. This bc scare is enough to make all of us just want to beat our heads against the wall. Seems like there is never an end, but I am sending good vibrations to you, and hoping for a good prognisis. Let us hear when you have the news, one way or the other. Hugs, Judy
  • tasha_111
    tasha_111 Member Posts: 2,072

    Oh Eli, just came across
    Oh Eli, just came across your post, and am dumbfounded. I am sending all of my positive thoughts your way, and hope that this is just a precaution they are taking and nothing more. This bc scare is enough to make all of us just want to beat our heads against the wall. Seems like there is never an end, but I am sending good vibrations to you, and hoping for a good prognisis. Let us hear when you have the news, one way or the other. Hugs, Judy

    Eil
    My thought are with you and I really hope this is Nothing to worry about (even though you will).. Huge Hugs coming your way... Jxxxxxxxxxx
  • mimivac
    mimivac Member Posts: 2,143
    Damn it.
    So sorry this is happening, but chances are that it is benign. Doesn't help with the waiting and worrying though. Sending you lots of good thoughts. I'll be thinking about you this weekend.

    Mimi
  • chickad52
    chickad52 Member Posts: 497
    Eileen
    you will be in my thoughts and prayer!! Hugs, Diane
  • cruf
    cruf Member Posts: 908
    chickad52 said:

    Eileen
    you will be in my thoughts and prayer!! Hugs, Diane

    Thinking of you
    Eil, just want you to know I am thinking and praying for good news! I know it's so hard not to think the worst so I won't tell you not but try to relax, keep busy and believe that you will be ok. HUGS!!! Cathy
  • jk1952
    jk1952 Member Posts: 613
    cruf said:

    Thinking of you
    Eil, just want you to know I am thinking and praying for good news! I know it's so hard not to think the worst so I won't tell you not but try to relax, keep busy and believe that you will be ok. HUGS!!! Cathy

    Eileen, I'm so sorry that

    Eileen, I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. The waiting is the worst. I wanted to encourage you that I have had several mammograms where they found suspicious areas and did further testing and everything was fine. Especially having been treated for breast cancer, the doctors do want to be extra careful whenever they find anything that they may consider out of the ordinary.

    I'm praying that you'll receive good news on Monday.

    Joyce
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    Keeping in my thoughts and Prayers!
    Eileen, here is a little prayer I thought you may like to have. You will be in my prayers!


    Circle me, Lord.
    Keep protection near
    And danger afar.

    Circle me, Lord
    Keep hope within.
    Keep doubt without.

    Circle me, Lord.
    Keep light near
    And darkness afar.

    Circle me, Lord.
    Keep peace within.
    Keep evil out.

    By: David Adam


    RE
  • maryruthk
    maryruthk Member Posts: 2
    prayer
    oh i know this fear .. i was told i could have cancer all over my body and had to waith 5 days for the scan to come back.. what a time i had.. but it wasnt ,just in my breast and nodes. I pray for you to have peace that only our lord can give us .. may the report go well with you as we all ask for that.
  • LC815
    LC815 Member Posts: 155
    RE said:

    Keeping in my thoughts and Prayers!
    Eileen, here is a little prayer I thought you may like to have. You will be in my prayers!


    Circle me, Lord.
    Keep protection near
    And danger afar.

    Circle me, Lord
    Keep hope within.
    Keep doubt without.

    Circle me, Lord.
    Keep light near
    And darkness afar.

    Circle me, Lord.
    Keep peace within.
    Keep evil out.

    By: David Adam


    RE

    Beautiful Prayer
    Thanks for sharing it, RE. I hope it comforts you, Eileen.
  • ritazimm
    ritazimm Member Posts: 171
    Eileen
    I can't even imagine the stress and thoughts that are going through your head. You're right, don't jump the gun. BUT we all know that is easier said than done!!! God be with you!

    You're in my prayers!!!
    Rita
  • Eil4186
    Eil4186 Member Posts: 949
    roseann4 said:

    The fear is more difficult for me than the actual diagnosis.
    Hi Eileen,

    The fear between the mammo and final diagnosis is HELL for all of us. Not that the treatments are a piece of cake, but at least we know what we are dealing with and there is a treatment plan. I am so sorry you are going through this fearful period a second time. I'm scheduled for my first follow up mammo on Nov. 30th. Not looking forward to it. Hopefully, your biopsy will be B9 and you can get on with your life once again. Hugs!

    Roseann

    Thank you Roseann, positive
    Thank you Roseann, positive thoughts coming your way on your mammo. That 1st one is always a little stressful.
  • Eil4186
    Eil4186 Member Posts: 949

    Keeping you
    in my thoughts and prayers - and also sending you all my positive energy - feel all our love around you. (I still have one and I worry about that as well) Try to relax this weekend!
    much love,
    Jenny

    Thank you so much Jenn!

    Thank you so much Jenn!