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2009 XMAS AND 2010 NEW YEARS MESSAGE BOARD
Hey Everyone, Just a short message from me and place for all of you to post Xmas and New Year's Greetings to all on this site and to all CSN Staff as well. No words can ever describe how imporatant this site is to so many survivors and their families and friends and for that we are all, I'm sure I can speak for all, truly…
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Its been 4 months I can't believe it still...
I've been having a tough but ok time over the last 4 months when I lost my mom with colon cancer. Its Xmas eve and i find myself going back here. I used to go to Cancer Surivors Network just to read stories to calm myself down when my mom was on treatment for 4 months.....i saw alot of hope. But when she was taken away…
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Butterfly....
For once in my life I couldn’t deny I thought that I’d found my everything, A lover a friend, the hours we would spend just doing nothing at all, Yeah, but your need to leave is your so long, break free let go, Butterfly fly, fly away from here Go and try, try through the laughter and the tears You’ll always be a part of…
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Never thought I would need permission to grieve
I have had enough of people telling me I have to be strong for my children. Apparently I need to get on with the business of life. In the meantime it feels like my life went on pause 11 days ago when I watched my husband sigh his last breath. I can't seem to find the space to mourn my loss. Everyone keeps trying to keep me…
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Two Months
Today is a tough day. My husband died two months ago today. The children's Christmas program and the Christmas music at church really got to me. During prayer time I asked for prayers for those still fighting cancer and for those working to find a cure. I got lots of hugs afterward. The tears just kept coming. I was ok,…
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2008 Christmas Message Board
Just thought it might be nice to create a Christmas Message Board for all to add to if you wish. I want to personally wish all those on this CSN site who I have chatted with in chat and on the discussion boards/through email a Merry Xmas and a Merry Xmas as well to all CSN staff who work so hard on the site. I hope you all…
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pancreatic cancer
My husband was told he had pancreatic cancer stage 4 a little over a month ago. I am finding it very hard coping and still trying to be strong for him. Good days and bad. I'm trying to cope. We have a one and a two year old. How do you get the strength to keep going? All I seem to have is prayers to keep me going.
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Another 'chemo Christmas' and a 'same old/same old' New Year'c celebration. :(
After a glorious 5-month remission where I actually felt GOOD and had hair and eyebrows and a LIFE, my cancer has recurred and I am back in chemo. It's hard enough to know that now my cancer is considered uncurable and my treatment 'palliative'. But having it happen at Christmas makes it particularly hurtful a blow.…
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minnie mn
How are you doing? let us know michelle n
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The nights are so hard,
I seem to be able to get through the days but when the night comes I start missing Jack so much,I feel my emotions to overwhelm me, I just miss Jack and start crying, I just dont know how to start to move on, Im to the point that for the last 3 nights as soon as it gets dark I get stomach pain , not sure if it is just…
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hYDROGEN PEROXIDE - oXYGEN
Has anyone with terminal cancer tried this? Or know someone. Wanted to know opions on success. benefits, side effects, concernd. Thanks Aveena
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If things could not get worst,
Well if things could not get worst, As you know Jack passed and I was finally getting back to work and I was doing home health care, but walmart asked me to come back and so I quit my homehealth job and went to walmart which I made less at but at least I was not care taking, And they told me at walmart I was only…
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This is so hard
My husband passed away of head and neck cancer on October 31. He had fought for 2 years - went through chemos, radiations, a test trial . . . Mike died at home surrounded by his family. When he passed, my 21 year old and I bathed and dressed him, which was one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life. I am…
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He has gone on a new journey without me
After a valiant battle, my husband passed away at 11p.m. last night. Have to finalise the funeral / cremation arrangements this morning. We cremate within 24-48 hours of death so its going to be a busy day. I am numb.
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there is hope!
hello, my name is connie. i live in anton tx. my mother has cancer. she started i believe when she was 35 yrs old with breast cancer. she has dealt with this cancer for 27 years. and can you believe, she is still here with us! Thank GOD!!! so, to anyone that is going through this, you know its hard. all i can say is that…
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i'm good at pretending
i'm getting good at pretending i'm ok at telling you i'm fine that Kelly's pain is getting better i'm good at masking reality at hiding in the shadows and teardrops Lisa
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In Response to the woman about the hydrogen peroxide and cancer
Hi we stumbled upon your post.and weve learned a few amazing things.and please tell your mother she should take the hydrogen peroxide food grade by mouth also.and please look up DMSO and cancer and baking soda.and we were very impressed with what they had to say.along with apple cider vinegar about 1/4 cup of vinegar.3…
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Anger/fear of losing my person
I'm caregiving my partner who has metastatic thyroid cancer and is a strong and inspirational fighter. Watching her suffer from severe pain, side effects of chemo and radiation, has been hard on me. It's made me angry, irritable, sad, depressed...a range of emotions. I can't seem to let those go though for long periods of…
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surviving many operations/tumor removals
If I am a survivor why am I still criing?
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New here and Confused
Well as my title says Im new here and confused about my whole situation to be honest. Couldnt sleep so decided to go through my bag of info the social worker that came to "talk" to me in the hospital gave me ( I think she was trying to size me up to see if I was nutzo) Im only 32 and been stressing over this all since…
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Arrangements
Yesterday the nurse was here from hospice and as she was getting ready to leave, she asked me if I had made any funeral arrangements yet. I advised that I had not. She recommended that I start making them next week. She caught me off guard. When she called this morning, I asked her if she thought my husband would make it…
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exhausted and lonely
It all happened so fast. On 10 Nov we found out that the tumour had recurred and metastasized. Paramjeet was already deteriorating by this time and so we were expecting bad news ...not the catastrophic news we received. His tumour has spread to four parts of the brain. Surgery is not an option anymore. On 17 Nov Paramjeet…
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pain and alone
Hi all, I feel bad for posting this, because I know everyone is going through their own things. I am having a really tough time handling things. I am in a lot of pain to where I can't even lie still. I am very depressed, and I don't know what to do about it. I want help but I want it on my terms, and I don't know how to…
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How do I help my son?
Greetings, My name is Shanta, my son is 10 years old and one of his bestfriends has Cancer, my son is trying to be a support group by his self for his friend, he also see's how hard it is to deal with the treatment and the mental issues and most of all the heartache of losing your normal childhood. My son has started a…
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I used to have a dream....
I used to have a dream of a life so full of love, a home with a white picket fence and rocking chairs on the porch... God willing a child to raise, a home so full of laugher. Then cancer raised it's ugly head and took my life away. Now all I have are memories and dreams of what could have been. The house is empty and I am…
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Cancer Awareness Event on FOX
Kaleidoscope airs on FOX on Thanksgiving afternoon at 4pm following the NFL game. Kaleidoscope is a skating and music special encouraging women to take action for their health! Returning to the ice since their cancer diagnosis are Olympians Scott Hamilton and Dorothy Hamill! Joining them will be Champions Kristi Yamaguchi,…
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I'm new here
I am new to posting here, but have been reading for months. My husband was diagnosed with Stage IV Prostate Cancer in May. It has mets in his entire lymph system, and every bone in his body. He was only given one treatment choice by several doctors. Hormone shots. He took the treatment, and continues with it. While it…
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HollyBerry has passed
I received a letter from Jerry today. Holly passed away on Sunday Nov 8th at 10pm. Jerry was right beside her holding her hand. Holly had spent the last 9 days at the Joliet area hospice home. Jerry was by her side with the exception of a few breaks when the oldest daughter or other family members took over. Jerry is…
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I'm not sure I can take much more....
I'm not sure I can take much more... Just over 15 weeks ago I lost the love of my life and now my partners mother is dying.. she was admitted to hospital with complications with her congested heart failure. Two weeks have passed and now the Dr's keep telling me that medically she is back to normal but she is refusing to…
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feel so ineffective
Hubby has deteriorated drastically over the last week and on Tuesday I had to call the ambulance because he could not move. He is now in hospital. The doctors have suggested he be moved to a hospice unit. Hubby asked me early on to try to keep him home and not in a hospice unit. However all the facilities I have spoken…