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Lost too many friends
When I read the postings here, I realize what is bothering me doesn’t compare to what so many people are going through. But I wonder if the following seems unusual to y’all, the undisputed experts. First, at 64, I am the last of my original immediate family. My father (57), brother (54), and sister (66) died of heart…
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chat room
How can we help when the chat room that helps all that are new cant get in get it right CSN been 3 years but nothing but problems find a new chat server we have done it on our own many times when it is down but that wasnt your goal right now you have done alot to leave others out fix it it was sapose to be a room where we…
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This is just getting worse.
I lost my mom, my best friend almost 2 months ago. She had been diagnosed 18 days before that with mets to lungs, liver, adrenal gland, etc etc etc. She went from being completely self sufficient and living alone to unable to turn herself in bed. She told me she wanted to go so I put her into hospice. She passed in my…
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Cracks of My Heart
Cracks of My Heart If you trace my heart, you’ll find a maze of cracks. These cracks have different sizes, some are deep, others shallow, and all have their own shapes. The one thing they all have in common is that each one remembers someone who either were diagnosed with cancer, fought the savagery of cancer, or passed…
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Osteosarcoma
Osteosarcoma My side of this story is different from most, it's not me that is suffering from osteosarcoma but my best friend. Right now everyday is a different day we don't know if he will make it through this yet, but I'd like to share his story. He is a normal 15 year old guy and loves basketball with a passion and…
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My family has suddenly turned invisible
After reading many of the posts on these discussion boards, I now realize the kaleidoscope of emotions and events happening around my husband's cancer diagnosis are not so weird and unusual. Well, I could only wish that our family would take the time to investigate and understand this phenomenon because they seem to have…
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Pancreatic Cancer
My mom is 82 years old and was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer two days ago. My emotions are so confused. Don't know just yet how to deal with it.
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caregiver's comments
What do you say to a caregiver who thinks drinking beer is the cause of her husband's cancer? Or that surgery will cause the cancer to spread? How do we educate people on this? I am a 3 year survivor and find it hard that someone would think this way?
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The birthday that wasn't
Hi. My mom would have been turning 80 today. A milestone bday. But she's gone, passed away in June 09 four months after official diagnosis, 4 months into "Treatment" There's been alot of firsts since then , July 4th, Labor Day, Thanksgiving, Xmas, NY, and now her birthday, Easter and Mother's Day are coming.. I think this…
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Radiation and its affects on you Reply to Kevins Post
Hello all- My name is Susan and I am new to this website though Ive looked at it several times for information. I have Non Small Cell Stage 3B Lung Cancer. No - I do not smoke. I am an ex smoker of many years and had a chest x ray in 2000 that indicated I had all the signs of someone who never smoked at all. I was elated…
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For those who need to feel better.
Hello, my name is Arturo Scolamacchia and I'm an Airman in the USAF. In mid november my mother was diagnosed with Colon cancer that had also spread to her liver. I was told this news by her when I took leave the following december around christmas. What a gift right? Anyway, me and my mother had always been close. You…
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THE PERFECT STORM !!!!!!
This analogy is for all members who are struggling with understanding the emotions and turmoil of diagnosis, treatment, family and society's reaction to cancer. Just my humble opinion, of course. Once upon a time we were all landlubbers walking on solid ground and going through our daily lives without a clue as to what a…
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Update on Husbands Radiation Treatment
My husband had his final radiation treatment on December 23rd for his Prostate Cancer. He did good during the treatment. I made sure he followed his diet and he had only a couple 'minor' side effects. The first one was going more often to the bathroom, and the other one was being tired all the time. He had his treatment…
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Future thinking
I'm really in a lot of pain when it comes to thinking out loud about things my husband and I could/might do together once chemo is over and he is hopefully doing better. Of course all of that is implied. Nothing is certain. So when I talk about the summer house, or a trip to Costa Rica or just going somewhere - anywhere -…
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depression a year after chemo
A year after finishing chemo and surguries and the like, I have come to the realization that I must be depressed. I have looked around on the internet and found it is quite common even well after the cancer has gone. I blame myself for being the cause of all my family's misfortune. (we lost everything had to move back home…
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18 and afraid
I am ashley I am 18 and currently have brain cancer. After surviving many agressive treatments to get rid of leukemia and later ovarian cancer I was given a brain cancer diagnosis. I must say I am afraid to lose this battle but I will keep fighting for as long as i can. Everything happens for a reason and God gives…
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In Loving Memory of My Dad
Hello All, I would like to post in loving memory of my dad, Ray, who put up a wonderful fight against esophageal cancer, with mets to his liver for 16 months. He was brave, strong, and determined. He passed away at home on 3/9/10. May he rest in peace, until we meet again. Love you always and forever, Daddy's Little Girl,…
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Hi, I need advice, from someone knowageable.
Hi, My father has termanal cancer, they have given him 6 months. The thing is My sisters and one brother and I never saw him alot these past few years, and I think now that he is dieing,My other brother that lived next to him and is his caregiver, is trying to keep us away from him. We have all seen him in the last 3 weeks…
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My father is a 10 year cancer warrior, lately he is showing signs of anxiety/depression...
My name is Randy. My father's name is Joel. Joel was diagnosed with Stage IV Nasopharyngeal Carcinoma back in 2000. Originally, the doctors advised my father and the family for a rough road since the cancer had metastasized through his body (spine, above liver, neck). After several rounds of chemo, radiation, every…
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How do you have happy talk about an unknown future?
I am having a problem discussing things outside the Cancer Land arena with my husband. He has had 3 lung surgeries since 2005 and is now in chemo. He's doing well. He's 68, I'm 61. I am trying to talk to him about things that may seem trivial to him, but to me are some of the glue that holds me together. I need to think of…
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Angriest woman in the world
Some of you have probably seen my posts here and there. A brief synopsis, mother diag. with Stage IV uterine cancer in Feb. 09. in June 09 she passed away 4 mos. into treatment (chemo) a treatment we were told was working. Well it didn't work. not for her. She was 79 yrs old. I have been and continue to be very angry. I…
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Is there anything you wish the healthcare professionals would have done differently throughout your
When I was going through radiation and chemo treatment for my anal cancer in 2008, I wish my caregivers would have had conversations with me about the whole me, not just my tumor they were working to rid me of. I had complications with scar tissue in the vagina, and though I was told that my husband and I should be able to…
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Mother of 3 small children and TERRIFIED to get autologous stem cell transplant!!!!
I am a 28 year-old mother/wife of 3 small children. I was diagnosed with Cutaneous Peripharel TCell Lymphoma and went through 8 rounds of CHOP chemotherapy. I went into remission quickly and stayed in remission for one year. Just recently I was told I have a recurrence and will need an autologous stem cell transplant. I am…
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healing and starting over........
Dating......Finding a new partner after this experience is a whole new catagory I can't find on personal dating sites. I want to meet someone who has experienced cancer or has someone in their lives who understands what it's like to survive this. No one else understands. It's like an exclusive club, one you never wanted to…
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POEM: " OUR JOURNEY WITH CANCER " ( husband & wife both have cancer )
Does anyone know, Does anyone care, that every feeling inside me is screaming in despair.... I try to be strong as the day goes on, Try to keep it right, hold on tight, all thru the long and tiring night... Cancer is a nightmare that won't go away, Call from the Dr. saying you need chemo right away, The saying is that time…
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my father has lung and brain cancer
I decided to sign up on this site because my father has lung and brain cancer. He was diag. oct 2008 and given six months to live. He is currently still alive, however, in the past month his health has taken a turn for the worse. He is now home with my mom and in care with hospice. I am having a very very hard time with…
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Survivor's Daughter - Introduction
I'm so glad to have found this board, I feel that it is helping me stay sane through this unbelievably difficult time. My mother (age 57) was diagnosed with Stage III UPSC (rare and aggressive type of uterine cancer) in July 2008. She had a hysterectomy/oopherectomy, internal/external radiation and a course of…
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Goal-setting in your treatment options, for the long haul
Just before Thanksgiving I had my cancer come back after just a 5-month remission, and went immediately back into weekly chemo. Now, after 10 rounds of a mild single-agent chemo that is meant more to 'hold me in check' than anything, I think it is again decision time. My chemo-oncologist doesn't believe a cure is an option…
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Surfing Isnt Dead
I have Osteosarcoma. A type of bone cancer. My surgery was in June of last year. Im 24 and love to surf, my doctor told me i wont be able to anymore but i beg to differ. I recently got me a longboard so im gonna try it out this summer. I was wondering if anyone else was having any problems with there leg since surgery. I…
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my mom in law
when my mother in law was first told she was free of cancer she had problems. her consulor told her this she said it was true for her that she was so busy learn to die and so busy taking care of all the bussiness she had to do putting her things in order that she forgot how to live. of that was before ptsd. looking back i…