Why?

I think I've said that about a million times throughout the day.

Today I lost my husband, my best friend, and my lover.
Our battle began just last year when he nearly left us then
He just turned 48 on Monday.
Happy Birthday baby, I love you.
I feel so empty or numb.
I try to keep face for our children (aged 15, 13 and 3).
It's hard.

I pray for all you going battling this beast.
May your higher power hear your prayers.

Comments

  • COBRA666
    COBRA666 Member Posts: 2,401
    So sorry
    I am so sorry for your loss. I see you are new here and you will find support from all. Could you elaborate a little more on what type of Lymphoma your husband had? There are so many different types. How long did he have it? What was the classification? etc.,etc. Our prayers are with you. John
  • JoanieP
    JoanieP Member Posts: 573
    c4nd1s
    May God wrap his loving arms around you and give you comfort. I am so sorry for your loss.
  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178
    So sorry...
    I am so sorry for your loss. When you feel up to it come back and let us help you through your grief. My prayers are with you. Love...Sue(age60)
    (Follicular NHL(indolent)-stage3-grade2-typeA-diagnosed 6/10)
  • c4nd1s
    c4nd1s Member Posts: 6
    COBRA666 said:

    So sorry
    I am so sorry for your loss. I see you are new here and you will find support from all. Could you elaborate a little more on what type of Lymphoma your husband had? There are so many different types. How long did he have it? What was the classification? etc.,etc. Our prayers are with you. John

    hi john i thank you all for
    hi john i thank you all for your kind words.
    This is day two the weight on my chest isnt as heavy.
    my husbands name is dwight
    we have been together for sixteen years
    About two years ago he was told he had NHL
    We were in shocked and both figured if we didnt talk about it it would go away
    I didnt even know whagt stage it was i was too afraid to ask
    We went threw chemo treatments last year ending dec 10'
    We thought we made it then in april more lumps showed up
    Doc suggested aggressive treatment so that began immediately
    His last treatment ended aug 3 he roughed it out til he finally had enough on aug 27
    I love my husband with all my heart
    He'll be buried soon and i'm not sure i'm ready for that

    Any suggestions advice... Would be appreciated
  • forme
    forme Member Posts: 1,161
    Your Loss
    Hi C4nd1s

    I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your husband. He was so young. My heart aches for you and your children.
    I cannot answer your "why" question. I only know that what you are going through is very hard.
    I pray that friends and family will wrap their arms around you and your children during this very difficult time.

    Lisha
  • vinny59
    vinny59 Member Posts: 1,032
    so sorry
    so sorry for your loss, I know words can't help what your going through.............
  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    KateNTx and c4and1s,

    I'm sorry both of you are having to experience
    this part of life now. I thought I'd introduce you
    two as you are both in similar situations.


    Hugs...

    Jim

    <<>>

    c4nd1s


    http://csn.cancer.org/node/225299


    KateNTx

    http://csn.cancer.org/node/225285
  • c4nd1s
    c4nd1s Member Posts: 6
    jimwins said:

    KateNTx and c4and1s,

    I'm sorry both of you are having to experience
    this part of life now. I thought I'd introduce you
    two as you are both in similar situations.


    Hugs...

    Jim

    <<>>

    c4nd1s


    http://csn.cancer.org/node/225299


    KateNTx

    http://csn.cancer.org/node/225285

    thanks jim i've read a few
    thanks jim i've read a few of her posts under caregivers
    we aren't alone there are others suffering too
  • hilde451
    hilde451 Member Posts: 229
    Sorry
    I am so very very sorry for your loss. I absolutely hate this disease. You and your children will be in my prayers.
    Hope in days it will be easier for you. It takes lots of prayer and time.
    Hilde
  • Go_go_Gi_gi
    Go_go_Gi_gi Member Posts: 84
    c4nd1s said:

    thanks jim i've read a few
    thanks jim i've read a few of her posts under caregivers
    we aren't alone there are others suffering too

    c4nd1s
    So very sorry for your loss---I pray the God of all comfort will wrap His loving arms around you and your children during this very difficult time---

    Hugs and prayers-susan