Im sorry for what i said

Glad you are back
So sorry you have so much on your plate and have to deal with the beast too. Hang in there Laura. Sending you hugs and prayers.
Hugs, K

So relieved
to see your post, Laura.

I can't even imagine the hell you must be going through, but as others have said the only thing to do is to keep going - you certainly can't just stay where you are.

Some days it may just take closing your eyes and taking one breath at a time and just concentrating on the fact that you are here, and as long as you are here and breathing there is hope for a better future. Try to take what joy you can find, even if it's just hearing a bird sing outside your window. Hang on to the love your children have for you, and your love for them. Even though that love may cause you pain right now because you can't have them with you as you'd like, it is also the love that will give you the best possible reason for moving forward.

I wish there was something I could do to give you more strength, but I hope you know that I and so many others on this board are sending all the positive energy and prayers your way that we can and we all want you to get through this. I know you will find the strength you need and someday this will just seem like a bad dream.

Hang in there, sister!

Peace and Hugs,
Cindy

elm3544 said:

Hi Laura, I'm so sorry for
Hi Laura, I'm so sorry for your situation but so happy you posted again. If there is ANYTHING I can do for you please let me know. I wanted to make you a special bracelet but didn't know an address to send it to.

Laura good to hear from you.
Take steps to get out of there. Check with social services for hud housing, food stamps, and whatever else they may offer. Maybe you can find a roommate. Dealing with cancer is bad enough in a good healthy enviroment, but you have to get away from the poisonous devils. Stay away from them if you can. I know it's hard, but you'll need to encourage yourself everyday. Reading Psalms helps me alot.
Take care be strong, persevere.
Jennifer

elm3544 said:

Hi Laura, I'm so sorry for
Hi Laura, I'm so sorry for your situation but so happy you posted again. If there is ANYTHING I can do for you please let me know. I wanted to make you a special bracelet but didn't know an address to send it to.

So, how are you doing now
So, how are you doing now Laura? Were you able to get some help?


Please post to let us know. Thanks!


Hugs, Debby

ladyg said:

Glad to hear from you
and know that you are trying to keep it together. I am sorry you are having such a hard time. Fighting the beast is hard enough without everything else you have going on. Please just take one day at a time and you will make it through. Hugs to you and your children.

As you can see
You may not have the unconditional support of your family and you do feel like the battle is all your own you will feel in your soul the sisters who care about what happens to you.
It isn't easy dealing with this and then have to deal with our lives also. I am sorry that your children aren't with you but if anything they will be the ones to understand better than anyone else once they get over their own pain. Kids are truly smarter than most adults but sometimes takes time for them to see the truth when so much often clouds their own views and visions.
Know that your close to our hearts and here for you. I don't sleep well at night but haven't been able to access chat so contact in the middle of night not so easy.
Please be good to yourself because we are the ones who hardest on ourselves.
Be your own best friend from here on in and treat yourself like you would your bestest of friend...
Tara