Tomorrow (tonight) is a bit tough....
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I feel like turning the phones off tonight, not a single call do I want to have...my mom is elderly...I already told her she had to hang on..lol!
I got word that the settlement payout is finished. At this time, all the 'loose ends' are tied. I will send a prayer up to my dearest Miss Steph tonight, and hold her tight in my arms, and say 'Rest now, my little love'.
Thanks for letting me share...I know it's not about cancer, but it is a part of my life.
Hugs to you all, Kathi
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Kathi.
My thoughts and
Kathi.
My thoughts and prayers are with you as I read your post. Losing a child is one of the most difficult things to go through. They are all precious in his sight. Take care of yourself. Marilyn0 -
Peace to you, Kathi
You have talked about your precious daughter before, and I can't imagine the heartbreak you must feel at this anniversary. I think you have the right idea to turn off the phone and just have quiet reflection and loving memories of your daughter. We are here for you during this difficult time.
Mimi0 -
I will raise a glass to you
I will raise a glass to you and your sweet Steph this evening; difficult as it was to put into words what your heart is no doubt feeling, it once more binds us in ways which transcend cancer~ as you rightly said, it is about a part of your life.
Bittersweet Hugs,
Chen♥0 -
my thoughts and prayers are
my thoughts and prayers are with you and this board is not just to talk about our BC its about woman going through similar situation to talk to each other ...we are here for you ... to listen to talk and to even send you a cyber hug....((((((((((hugs)))))))))) and no I am thinking about you tonight xxxxxoooLisa
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My heart and prayers go out
My heart and prayers go out to you. I can feel the love in your words. It's so hard to loss those we love and to loss someone when it wasn't necessary is even harder. You know better than most that we are more than our cancers and that everything that touches us is important. Your laughter is our laughter, your tears are our tears, your joy is our joy, and your sorrow is our sorrow. It will be 7 years on the 13th since I lost my mom and 46 years on the 18th since I lost my dad. The pain is less, the memories more dear but what I wouldn't give to have them here for just a day. May your memories fill your heart tonight and ease your loss.
Stef0 -
Hold on to your memories,LC815 said:Smile
I loved your sentence about your daughter's smile. May that vision warm your heart tonight.
Prayers and peace to you and Miss Steph.
Linda from Baltimore
Hold on to your memories, and she will always be with you. You are in my thoughts and prayer.
Kathy0 -
Ditto to what everyone else has saidKat11 said:Hold on to your memories,
Hold on to your memories, and she will always be with you. You are in my thoughts and prayer.
Kathy
I watched my 21 year old brother die of cancer and was in PAIN, but the pain was only a fraction of what I had to watch my parents endure for the next 7 years before they passed on to join him. Losing your child is the WORST thing to have to go through in life. Please open your heart and if the phone rings maybe it will be a "message" from her in a round about way. That is how I get through the losses I've had to endure. Whent he lights flash, that's my dad, when I get a good parking place, THANKS MOM! When a very special song comes on at a time when I need it, that's my brother, now I am waiting to see how my sister will reach out to me. She died Dec 14th of bc. I pray you find peace in your heart and life. FAITH....0 -
Keeping loved ones close in heartMama G said:Ditto to what everyone else has said
I watched my 21 year old brother die of cancer and was in PAIN, but the pain was only a fraction of what I had to watch my parents endure for the next 7 years before they passed on to join him. Losing your child is the WORST thing to have to go through in life. Please open your heart and if the phone rings maybe it will be a "message" from her in a round about way. That is how I get through the losses I've had to endure. Whent he lights flash, that's my dad, when I get a good parking place, THANKS MOM! When a very special song comes on at a time when I need it, that's my brother, now I am waiting to see how my sister will reach out to me. She died Dec 14th of bc. I pray you find peace in your heart and life. FAITH....
Kathi, I am so sorry about your loss--I can't imagine how much it must still hurt, but I agree that losing one's child must be one of the worst pains a mother could possibly have to bear. I'm sending you warm hugs.
Mama G, I love the way you've connected your dear ones to signs from events that occur in your life--how lovely. My dad still "talks" to me in my head; though my mother doesn't still talk to me, I see her photographs every day. Both of them are still with me in my memories.
For me, the memories of their love now have become bigger than the losses, though that certainly wasn't true at first.
Sandy0 -
The phone didn't ring!!! BIG hugs to my sisters in pink!!
Thank you, everyone, for your kind and wonderful words. I have such a caring family in you all!!!
I feel lighter today...as if you guys lifted me up....I can never repay your kindness!!!!
All I can do is send warm wishes to you all....
Hugs, Kathi0 -
LateKathiM said:The phone didn't ring!!! BIG hugs to my sisters in pink!!
Thank you, everyone, for your kind and wonderful words. I have such a caring family in you all!!!
I feel lighter today...as if you guys lifted me up....I can never repay your kindness!!!!
All I can do is send warm wishes to you all....
Hugs, Kathi
I know I am late, but my love and thoughts are heading your way. Take care.0 -
Kathi,KathiM said:The phone didn't ring!!! BIG hugs to my sisters in pink!!
Thank you, everyone, for your kind and wonderful words. I have such a caring family in you all!!!
I feel lighter today...as if you guys lifted me up....I can never repay your kindness!!!!
All I can do is send warm wishes to you all....
Hugs, Kathi
You repay the
Kathi,
You repay the kindness every time you reach out to another sister and uplift her. So debts are repaid all the time. Each encouragement we give pays back a moment when encouragement and support was given to us. We are all debt free.
Stef0 -
Glad you're feeling betterKathiM said:The phone didn't ring!!! BIG hugs to my sisters in pink!!
Thank you, everyone, for your kind and wonderful words. I have such a caring family in you all!!!
I feel lighter today...as if you guys lifted me up....I can never repay your kindness!!!!
All I can do is send warm wishes to you all....
Hugs, Kathi
I didn't see your post until today, but am glad you got through the night and are feeling uplifted today.
Sending you hugs,
Cindy0
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