Oh how I wish for my life back...

dear midnightbreeze. I wish I could hug you - so let me assure you everything you are feeling is normal and I am so glad to reached out to the Helpline. As you said, 'fatigue is better' and it really does keep getting better!!! (I promise!) You just beat the heck out of your body so it just takes time.

I am a visitor from the Uterine board and visit my sister gyn warriors! This is a safe place with people who understand. It helps to know you are not alone. Again - hugs dear one!

i was diagnosed july 21, stage 3had surgery and 6 rounds of carbo/taxol

jusr finished end of december … now I am on Lynparza as my maintenance drug for supposedly three years, I also have epilepsy and I had to change my seizure medication to go on that. I will be going back to work soon and will be starting with four days which I know will be exhausting. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing with myself now. I walk a lot I walk my dog a lot my husband is in a fog, I think he’s walking on eggshells, I have a 20 year old son and I’m not really sure about what I’m supposed to be doing with myself now I wish there was a support group down the street from me that I could go sit with people and not have to do this.

Good morning,

it’s very windy today here too but sun is out so that’s a good thing. Finding a counselor is a great idea. I hope your able to find one that you can vent to and hopefully that will help with everything. You can message me as well. March 1st sounds exciting but I’m sure that if your not “on your game” it’s going to be okay. What kind of work do you do? I start school as a CNA on March 1st I’m very nervous because I have always been a stay at home mom so I have high anxiety. I will definitely think of you since you will be going back to work this day. I hope you have a wonderful day nonetheless.

hope to hear back from you soon take care :)!

How amazing!!! That’s even better someone you know. Besides what’s going on I had actually seeked out a counselor last month for anxiety but just didn’t work out with my insurance.

I know my church has live services not sure if you are religious but, I feel like when I’ve been down lately they always brighten me up somehow. In case I’ll leave you the link.

CNA (certified nursing assistant) basically we do the grunt work of the nurses lol. Well kinda least what I have heard 🤷🏽‍♀️I’m excited for it though it’s going to be a whole new world for me but I use to be a medical assistant and miss the medical field. I took a pic for you from my trip to this local museum we went to today. Being outside and getting fresh air helped me so much to ease stress I need to do that more often.

your job sounds so fun, I love sales I use to work at a phone company years ago. I loved the customers you’ll be fine. I’m happy for you sounds like a great day over all.

bummer doesn’t let me post the pic sorry but it was beautiful lol anyways hope your counseling sessions go well looking forward to hearing how it goes. Stay strong and stay positive. My favorite book of the Bible is the book of job, ever since I was little and first heard it I always referred back to it.

How amazing!!! That’s even better someone you know. Besides what’s going on I had actually seeked out a counselor last month for anxiety but just didn’t work out with my insurance.

I know my church has live services not sure if you are religious but, I feel like when I’ve been down lately they always brighten me up somehow. In case I’ll leave you the link.

CNA (certified nursing assistant) basically we do the grunt work of the nurses lol. Well kinda least what I have heard 🤷🏽‍♀️I’m excited for it though it’s going to be a whole new world for me but I use to be a medical assistant and miss the medical field. I took a pic for you from my trip to this local museum we went to today. Being outside and getting fresh air helped me so much to ease stress I need to do that more often.

your job sounds so fun, I love sales I use to work at a phone company years ago. I loved the customers you’ll be fine. I’m happy for you sounds like a great day over all.

You are not alone with all of the heavy emotion. I agree that it's hard in a new and deeper way once chemo is over. You will continue to feel better and better physically, and your emotional processing of the true trauma of the experience will be a journey. I have noticed that about every two weeks I need to have a BIG cry...and then I feel better. And then the cycle starts again. Exercise and being outside as much as possible in nature really helps lift my spirits. Wishing you healing in all ways.

I should do some plant potting myself! By the way I suck at planting but the only plant I have that’s survived is a bonsai tree. I got it so small and it’s my baby now.

Ginseng ficus bonsai is the name I got it at ikea and my mom and husband laughed it would die. I have had it over a year now and it’s doing great. I rescued a dog from the shelter because I just felt so broken and wanted to help a dog maybe feeling the same way I do. 🤷🏽‍♀️

So this dog is a English bulldog who’s gonna need a few surgeries nobody wanted to pay or deal with surgery so he was getting passed up.

I’m happy to hear you went with your gut about going back to work. Hope your cake was delicious :)! I actually never started my school for CNA , they mixed me up and have me starting in May but I am working on starting a cleaning business so not too sure about that Cna for now. Well today is my biopsy day, my husband was going to go with me but I am actually a bit happy he can’t go he’s freaked out by anything that looks painful haha. So your getting married? 🤗it’s been 10 years for me.

the serenity prayer is beautiful and I always love to remember the book of job during hard times. Well I’m going to update what the doctor says later on. I’m looking for good news.

Lol oh wow 30 years is a long time. It’s been 10 for me. I had a really really good day today. Towards the end also I got my test results from my doctor. It seems they didn’t find anything on my biopsy but just not sure if I should ask for a DnC

I have had a sarcoma for 22 year, chemo 10 years ago.. I struggle everyday. Still don’t feel hungry a lot I fixate on certain foods when I am hungry. Find something you love example animals, hobby distract yourself. Animals force me to get out of bed my horses can’t feed themselves. It will get easier you will have days, scans, bad news, high rate for multiple cancers because of radiation/chemo that didn’t work. Find simple pleasures, it’s not easy, let yourself cry when you need to. Write in a journal reading my chemo journey was good to read years later. Your human normal healthy people struggle. Be patient with yourself.