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Got a Good walk on outside to help balance athe counter effects of steroids today. I started a paleo smoothie diet yesterday, Sunday. Today is day two with 1 more smoothie to go. Unfortunately, the diet will last a third day. Oye! The things you try to help to rid your body of cancer..

I know having a physical, sexual relationship with my husband is important to keep a marriage. However, when you are now seven months out from cancer diagnosis, endured months of pain until pain management and pain gone, six rounds of five days each in hospital chemotherapy for months every three weeks, then suffer seizures to find multiple brain lesions in December, then complete three days brain radiation in January 2022, and experiencing hot flashes, sweating my head off. My libido is ZERO.

Listened to Straight Talk podcast from MSKcc about women, cancer and sex. Is it okay to want to crave physical and sensual touch now? Or should I talk with doctors about starting slowly, taking more Rx for increasing libido, and lubricating and moisturizing? I'm sure that physical part of sex is important to my husband's marriage happiness; I'm just not feeling anything, libido.

Thanks. I just was putting something out there.

So competed my second acupuncture treatment and my left hand tension is lessening so I am regaining dexterity. Yay! For little wins.

Sadly I have occasional headaches possibly from healing of brain lesions after brain radiation so doctor has me taking pain meds as preventative every 4-6 hours and upped my steroids to twice a day while symptoms persist. I really want these tough days to go away soon, OFF these steroids, and back on my healing journey. Tough days are now and not fun. 😥

I'm not sure if nerve damage due to chemo toxicity, side effect of seizures, side effects of steroids, developing carpel tunnel syndrome, or what. To many variables to pin down with a dart ATM. I live in DE so I got out today in cold, sun, blue sky, snow for an hour. I was happy feeding my soul and forgetting about the cancer. Enjoying the dogwood out front. My mother for me these snow shapers last year for my birthday (Jan) and I played in the snow making penguins, hearts, snowmen. It was fun. I even got to talk with an old family friend who had breast cancer and lives in CA now. She helped me laugh. 😃 😆 ❄️☃️😎🌞 🐧

So today started off successful, but I had a bad acupuncture session 😥

It was my third session. It had me chasing pain across my body from the needles. One needle in my left ankle hit a nerve that lightning hit under my arch down to the big toe ball of the nuckle bone! I sat with the pain (several spots) calling for the doctor three times before I said 'i can't sit with pain Any Longer!' So I started taking the needles out myself (illegal apparently). It made me connect with my mom who has Fibromyalgia and her search for a massage therapist to treat her. I was snot crying and wanting my mommy! I was frustrated because I started this Open Minded and Willing to try to treat my left hand tension and it had been increasing my dexterity for two sessions. This was my third session and my Healer, Shaman trained mom helped me to conclusively decide: No More. The energy was getting stuck and was not releasing using this method. 😥

*Anyone else try Acupuncture and then had to stop because it was not with pursuing despite being open minded to Eastern medicine?*

I felt frustrated, upset, defeated, crying, willing to try something new, open minded, working through the pain, then deciding it was too much to keep 'dealing with/working through', happy with progress, my dexterity was improving, my tendon was releasing. Ugh!

The good thing I'm holding on to for today was my chiropractor was fantastic. 👼 😊

Thisthank you for sharing. Trying to move on from the frustration of leaving acupuncture behind in my recovery journey. 😥 / 😊