Another cancer, scared,freaking out!

TuffCookieHere2 said:

Hello Patiann,
I know oh to

Hello Patiann,

I know oh to well, how you feel. I had breast cancer 10 yrs ago, then 3 yrs after
that I got anal cancer, and that was 7 mths after my dad died. Seemed like the world
was caving in. Now I have a pelvic problem, after all the anal rads, their protocol
is to radiate the outside pelvic organs, so cancer wont go to the lymph nodes, be-
cause of that, nobody can ever get a pap or uterine biopsy, i have been having horr-
ible pain, in groin, sciatic, pelvic, and nobody can get a biopsy, found one gyno
now that just might have, he said he went up to the uterus and got the biopsy as
well as blood was gushing out, black, clotty blood, he took a specimen, then i had
relief, seems like pain just went away. But i face that biopsy result on tuesday,
plus, the biopsy, for the breast, of which i had cancer 10 yrs ago, they found a
2cm mass. I am scared stiff....its a bit different situation then yours, but all
the same type of suffering.

I feel bad that your husband is behaving that way with you. Sometimes, i dont feel
my mother understands the severity of what torture and fear we go through fighting
these damn fights. She says she does and feels bad, but I dont know. Maybe I am
waiting for a pitty party, maybe I just want someone to hold me and say, I hope
you dont suffer anymore, or I Love you.....or just say, I understand and i am here
for you.....why do people who don't walk in our shoes, realize, the severity of
what we go through. I know they cant do anything physically for us, but words of
encouragement do help. I have no siblings or kids, never married, my dads deceas-
ed, some cousins....and long time family friends, some high school friends, and
long long time neighbors, but my mom is only immediate family.

I am basically housebound, because i have other disabilities.

Pati, I just want to say, I care for you, I may not be able to see you, or hug you
or, hear your voice, but know that I am standing behind you 100% and i will NOT
let you feel alone and i will NOT say, I dont understand, or get sick of you talk-
ing about what you have to say....I will be your unconditional friend, who cares
and loves you, because we are all fighters here, and we are all like a family,
striving to be survivors and fighting for our lives....so, i know what you are
going through....and I want you to know....YOU ARE DEFINITELY NOT ALONE....YOU
HAVE ME, YOU HAVE US ALL. You will fight this, you will be strong and tough,
you will NOT ALLOW IT to get the best of you....you hear? You fight Pati, because
I care...and I want you to be around a very long time....Tell, yourself you can
do this, this is a challenge your facing, to see how strong you are....give this
gift to yourself....and beat, both odds....of both cancers....i want you to be
happy....and enjoy your life.....and know you got friends on this board, that will
ALWAYS, SUPPORT YOU. (((((((((((((( PATI ))))))))))))))))) A BIG HUG JUST FOR YOU!
LOVE YOU, DEAR SISTER SURVIVOR AND THRIVER.....YOU CAN DO IT....NINA FROM NY!

robang13 said:

I can't imagine what you are
I can't imagine what you are going through~ I just hope you find the strength to keep fighting for the babies if nothing else. Maybe hubby needs a talking to from some-one to make him understand what it is you're going through. You are not alone! You have us here to talk to and cry to. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers~~

Angela

TuffCookieHere2 said:

Hello Patiann,
I know oh to

Hello Patiann,

I know oh to well, how you feel. I had breast cancer 10 yrs ago, then 3 yrs after
that I got anal cancer, and that was 7 mths after my dad died. Seemed like the world
was caving in. Now I have a pelvic problem, after all the anal rads, their protocol
is to radiate the outside pelvic organs, so cancer wont go to the lymph nodes, be-
cause of that, nobody can ever get a pap or uterine biopsy, i have been having horr-
ible pain, in groin, sciatic, pelvic, and nobody can get a biopsy, found one gyno
now that just might have, he said he went up to the uterus and got the biopsy as
well as blood was gushing out, black, clotty blood, he took a specimen, then i had
relief, seems like pain just went away. But i face that biopsy result on tuesday,
plus, the biopsy, for the breast, of which i had cancer 10 yrs ago, they found a
2cm mass. I am scared stiff....its a bit different situation then yours, but all
the same type of suffering.

I feel bad that your husband is behaving that way with you. Sometimes, i dont feel
my mother understands the severity of what torture and fear we go through fighting
these damn fights. She says she does and feels bad, but I dont know. Maybe I am
waiting for a pitty party, maybe I just want someone to hold me and say, I hope
you dont suffer anymore, or I Love you.....or just say, I understand and i am here
for you.....why do people who don't walk in our shoes, realize, the severity of
what we go through. I know they cant do anything physically for us, but words of
encouragement do help. I have no siblings or kids, never married, my dads deceas-
ed, some cousins....and long time family friends, some high school friends, and
long long time neighbors, but my mom is only immediate family.

I am basically housebound, because i have other disabilities.

Pati, I just want to say, I care for you, I may not be able to see you, or hug you
or, hear your voice, but know that I am standing behind you 100% and i will NOT
let you feel alone and i will NOT say, I dont understand, or get sick of you talk-
ing about what you have to say....I will be your unconditional friend, who cares
and loves you, because we are all fighters here, and we are all like a family,
striving to be survivors and fighting for our lives....so, i know what you are
going through....and I want you to know....YOU ARE DEFINITELY NOT ALONE....YOU
HAVE ME, YOU HAVE US ALL. You will fight this, you will be strong and tough,
you will NOT ALLOW IT to get the best of you....you hear? You fight Pati, because
I care...and I want you to be around a very long time....Tell, yourself you can
do this, this is a challenge your facing, to see how strong you are....give this
gift to yourself....and beat, both odds....of both cancers....i want you to be
happy....and enjoy your life.....and know you got friends on this board, that will
ALWAYS, SUPPORT YOU. (((((((((((((( PATI ))))))))))))))))) A BIG HUG JUST FOR YOU!
LOVE YOU, DEAR SISTER SURVIVOR AND THRIVER.....YOU CAN DO IT....NINA FROM NY!

Kristin N said:

I'm sending you lots of
I'm sending you lots of prayers and good thoughts too Pattianne.