I'm "OK" Pinks, sorry for the worry's :(

Hello everybody, sorry for worrying you, but since I've returned from Cancun, I've been falling apart.
Cancun was AMAZING, and that time with my two kids was priceless, tears fall as I write about it because it was the most precious time I've had with them in all our lives. However, my health has been going downhill rapidly over the last couple months, in fact I was worried there for a bit that I might not make Cancun, but by the grace of God, I made it. With the exception of osteonecrosis developing in my jaw while I was there, I did well.
As for my health now, none of the chemos seem to be working, I've been through a couple more since I last posted. My tumors are growing in my hip, so I've seen an orthopedic to determine stability and for some cortisone shots. The tumors on my spine are growing rapidly, I've been put on Fentynol patches to control the pain along with palliative care assistance. I've developed osteonecrosis of my jaw which has been extremely painful and has swelled all the way through my neck, I'm now on 3000mg a day of antibiotics to combat the infection. This is due to the Xgeva shot I was receiving that was really helping me and I now can no longer get that. I was given one unit of blood on Tuesday this week, then another unit on Wednesday because my counts are way down. I'm currently getting Halaven (spelling?) for chemo but the scans are saying it isn't working.
My Oncologist sat down with me and my daughter (my daughter is an RN on the oncology/transplant wing of my local hospital) and told us she's really worried, we have gone through a lot of chemos and the cancer keeps growing, she told me "if there are things you want to do, you really need to get them done" and that she by no means will give up on me but it's not looking good (I love my Oncologist, she has always been straight up with me). She is now looking into Mayo clinic for any trials but most of the trials have a high peripheral neuropathy s/e so they wont take me beings I'm already grade 2. I've looked into MD Anderson, they gave me no reply and wanted 15,000 in addition to my insurance to even consider me and have nothing they can do for me that my Onc isn't already doing. I try to keep this all inside and pretend like I'm doing ok but I can't do it anymore. Last week my kids and I sat down with palliative care and some social workers to go over hospice care and set things up so we have my care in order before I'm not able to state what I want, that was the HARDEST thing I've ever had to do, and I'm not done yet, I have additional appointments with them. I'm am grateful that I have my marbles yet so I can state what my wishes are, it wasn't so for my Mom, she went from ok to not coherent and it was all left up to me and my brothers. My kids wont have to worry about that, it'll all be written, as hard as it is, I have to get it done. As it sits right now, my Doc said she will keep trying new chemos as long as I'm willing, but she also knows that I'm at the breaking point of saying I've had enough, I'm tired of being sick, I'm tired of blood transfusions, I'm just plain tired. I'm sorry to dump all this on here, but I needed to get it out and I know all of you understand. I'm also VERY worried about Laurissa, so if anyone finds anything out please pass it along to me. Once again, sorry I don't have any good news, and I hope and pray for all of you every day, even though I'm not on here like I'd like to be, you are all always on my mind and in my prayers.
God Bless,
Kari