Pathology report :(

Texasgirl10
Texasgirl10 Member Posts: 668
in Breast Cancer #1
While I was going through chemo the cancer spread. I developed another tumor 3.7 mm on my left breast, and 2 more tumors under my arm. They tested positive for cancer. The good news is that everything on the right side is clean. I just finished chemo 5 weeks ago and now I have to do it again. I will do radiation while going through chemo.

This is a devastating setback! My family are devastated. I see my onc on the 19th and I am pretty sure that he will have me start chemo again the next day. I don't want to have to go through chemo again. Just the thought of it makes my stomach hurt. But I don't have a choice, I want to live and I will never stop fighting. I am so scared. It finally hit me today that I am truly very sick. How did this happen to me, someone please tell me how did this happen to me.

Please pray for my family. I love them so very much. They are everything to me. I am so worried about my husband, children, and my mom and dad. They are all standing strong with me and acting very brave, but I know they are terrified. To tell my daughter and my mom that I am still not cancer free was very hard ( my husband was with me at the appt) I haven't told my sons yet. This is not going to be an easy thing to do. I am afraid that my youngest son is going to fall apart. He lives in Houston and calls or texts me about 7 times a day just to check on me. Funny, today is the first day that I haven't talked with him in a very long time.

I am so glad that I have all of you cause I don't know what I would do without you.

Hugs and God Bless,

Dawne
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  • Lynn Smith
    Lynn Smith Member Posts: 1,264 Member
    #2
    Dawne
    This brought tears to my eyes.I just posted something from your post last night.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. You will beat this.Before my cancer dx I've been through major surgeries and many other problems.I prayed and prayed.I lived.A few times I wasn't given much of a chance.That is why I pray even though I am in remission.I don't want to slack off.

    I know you will fight with all your might and you will WIN!!!!!!

    We are all here for you.

    Lynn Smith
  • aisling8
    aisling8 Member Posts: 1,627 Member
    #3
    Lynn Smith said:

    Dawne
    This brought tears to my eyes.I just posted something from your post last night.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. You will beat this.Before my cancer dx I've been through major surgeries and many other problems.I prayed and prayed.I lived.A few times I wasn't given much of a chance.That is why I pray even though I am in remission.I don't want to slack off.

    I know you will fight with all your might and you will WIN!!!!!!

    We are all here for you.

    Lynn Smith

    We're here
    and together we'll get you through this.

    I can only imagine how depleted and devastated you must be feeling right now. And scared and terrified and and and ...

    Go. Fight. Win.

    xoxxo
    Victoria
  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
    #4
    Dawne,
    I am so sorry that
    Dawne,

    I am so sorry that you are going through this again and especially sad that you have to tell your family. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I know the feeling and sometimes the worry and sadness on my son's faces is enough to do me in!

    Everyone on this site has been so supportive and loving and like you, I don't know what I would have done this last 4 months without all of you!

    Hang in there and I will pray for you, your family and your doctors and like I keep telling my boys, I will have chemo as long as my body can take it, today was #12 this time around. It sucks but it is worth it because we love our families and want to be here with them.

    Wish they knew how and why we got this awful disease so they could figure out how to cure it or turn it into a chronic condition!

    Sending love and prayers,
    Carol
  • Texasgirl10
    Texasgirl10 Member Posts: 668
    #5
    camul said:

    Dawne,
    I am so sorry that
    Dawne,

    I am so sorry that you are going through this again and especially sad that you have to tell your family. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I know the feeling and sometimes the worry and sadness on my son's faces is enough to do me in!

    Everyone on this site has been so supportive and loving and like you, I don't know what I would have done this last 4 months without all of you!

    Hang in there and I will pray for you, your family and your doctors and like I keep telling my boys, I will have chemo as long as my body can take it, today was #12 this time around. It sucks but it is worth it because we love our families and want to be here with them.

    Wish they knew how and why we got this awful disease so they could figure out how to cure it or turn it into a chronic condition!

    Sending love and prayers,
    Carol

    Loving words
    Thank You for all of your kind, loving words. I need them and all of you right now. Thank You for being here for me.

    Love,

    Dawne
  • natly15
    natly15 Member Posts: 1,941
    #6
    Oh my dear sweet Texas Girl,
    Oh my dear sweet Texas Girl, so sorry to hear this. We are here for support and you bet your buttons there will be many prayers for you and your family and plenty of crowded rooms with all us pinks right beside you. Prayers and Hugs. Keep that positive attitude and fight , fight, fight.
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    #7
    :-{
    Dear Dawne I can totally relate, I did six sessions of chemo then 6 weeks of rads only to have it return in my chest wall and sentinel node less than 6 months later. I know how deflating it can be to have to return to chemo but you can do this and you can survive this, don't lose your desire to fight keep believing you can rise above this. After two years of treatment I was free of cancer and remained that way for 9 years. I am truly sorry you are facing this, but you and your family can get through this, they love you greatly and I am so glad you have each other! I will be keeping you and yours in my prayers and close to my heart.

    ♥ RE ♥
  • Ticky
    Ticky Member Posts: 117
    #8
    natly15 said:

    Oh my dear sweet Texas Girl,
    Oh my dear sweet Texas Girl, so sorry to hear this. We are here for support and you bet your buttons there will be many prayers for you and your family and plenty of crowded rooms with all us pinks right beside you. Prayers and Hugs. Keep that positive attitude and fight , fight, fight.

    Texas Girl
    Words cannot describe how surprised and sorry I was to here this news. You seem to be such a nice person but strong person and I feel that somehow you will find your way through this. Please know that we will be praying for you.

    Prayers and Hugs,

    Ticky
  • New Flower
    New Flower Member Posts: 4,294
    #9
    RE said:

    :-{
    Dear Dawne I can totally relate, I did six sessions of chemo then 6 weeks of rads only to have it return in my chest wall and sentinel node less than 6 months later. I know how deflating it can be to have to return to chemo but you can do this and you can survive this, don't lose your desire to fight keep believing you can rise above this. After two years of treatment I was free of cancer and remained that way for 9 years. I am truly sorry you are facing this, but you and your family can get through this, they love you greatly and I am so glad you have each other! I will be keeping you and yours in my prayers and close to my heart.

    ♥ RE ♥

    Dawne
    I am very sorry about your devastating news. Please stay brave and positive. Your oncologist probably prescribe you a different CHemo medications which could be easy than previous ones. You and you family are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Hugs
  • Texasgirl10
    Texasgirl10 Member Posts: 668
    #10
    RE said:

    :-{
    Dear Dawne I can totally relate, I did six sessions of chemo then 6 weeks of rads only to have it return in my chest wall and sentinel node less than 6 months later. I know how deflating it can be to have to return to chemo but you can do this and you can survive this, don't lose your desire to fight keep believing you can rise above this. After two years of treatment I was free of cancer and remained that way for 9 years. I am truly sorry you are facing this, but you and your family can get through this, they love you greatly and I am so glad you have each other! I will be keeping you and yours in my prayers and close to my heart.

    ♥ RE ♥

    IBC
    Hey RE,

    Thank You for your encouraging words. I needed to hear your story right now, it is giving me more determentation to beat this :) You are so strong, brave and determined. I can't remember, do you also have IBC?

    Thank You for praying for my family and me.

    Hugs and God Bless,

    Dawne
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    #11
    Texasgirl10 said:

    IBC
    Hey RE,

    Thank You for your encouraging words. I needed to hear your story right now, it is giving me more determentation to beat this :) You are so strong, brave and determined. I can't remember, do you also have IBC?

    Thank You for praying for my family and me.

    Hugs and God Bless,

    Dawne

    IDC
    Hi Dawne,

    I had Invasive Ductal Carcinoma in 97 did the chemo and rads then as stated above it
    returned rather quickly which they referred to as "malignant cells present, most consistent with metastatic carcinoma of breast origin." I keep a folder with pertinent medical papers for quick ref. on my health issues (I know oh a fun read that must be ;-)) I ended up having a total of 24 chemo sessions and 16 weeks or rads over a span of almost 2 years. I remained cancer free till 2007 when it showed up in the clean breast so I choose to have it removed and had 4 more chemo sessions, to date I remain in remission. You too are strong and brave Dawne, it is so scary to hear that one has cancer let alone do treatment and then hear it again. Keep that fighting spirit alive and be kind to yourself, rest when you need to and on good days go do something fun to remind yourself why you are fighting, you're fighting because life is worth the battle and mostly because YOU are worth battling for! I am here for you, we are all here for you!

    Big GIANT HUGS!

    RE
  • laughs_a_lot
    laughs_a_lot Member Posts: 1,368 Member
    #12
    Radiation and chemo
    Texasgirl,
    Just so that you know I read an article that there has been some research done on doing chemo then also doing radiation on the weeks you don't have chemo. Of course this is for a single bout of cancer rather than two seperate overlapping cases. So this concept is not brand new. They beleive it will help shorten the course of treatment and improve quality of life. Of course for you it will not shorten it much as you are going through two seperate cases of bc. However, I thought it might give you a slight bit of comfort to know that it is not a brand new concept.
    So I guess this means a double dose of prayer for you as well. When I was growing up I learned a saying. "Singing once is praying twice". I guess I will have to make up a little song to sing for you so that I pray twice.
  • Hippiechick58
    Hippiechick58 Member Posts: 320
    #13
    laughs_a_lot said:

    Radiation and chemo
    Texasgirl,
    Just so that you know I read an article that there has been some research done on doing chemo then also doing radiation on the weeks you don't have chemo. Of course this is for a single bout of cancer rather than two seperate overlapping cases. So this concept is not brand new. They beleive it will help shorten the course of treatment and improve quality of life. Of course for you it will not shorten it much as you are going through two seperate cases of bc. However, I thought it might give you a slight bit of comfort to know that it is not a brand new concept.
    So I guess this means a double dose of prayer for you as well. When I was growing up I learned a saying. "Singing once is praying twice". I guess I will have to make up a little song to sing for you so that I pray twice.

    Dawne, I am truly sorry that
    Dawne, I am truly sorry that the beast has returned. I believe in the power of prayer and will be praying for you and your family. I can't even imagine how it must feel to you right now. You are a brave woman and will conquer this beast. I know you will!

    "May you be at peace, May you be free of Suffering,"
    Dianne
  • Cinkal
    Cinkal Member Posts: 161
    #14
    So sorry for your bad news.
    So sorry for your bad news. I can only imagine how you are feeling, knowing you have to start the chemo thing all over again. But like you said, you have no choice. Keep fighting girl! Cancer is so unfair. I try to stay positive, but there are moments when I am SO angry. I will be praying for you and your family.
    You can beat this!!

    Hugs
    Cindy
  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    #15
    @Dawne
    I am so sorry...I am sending good thoughts and hugs your way to you and your family...

    I"ll check back for updates....

    Denise
  • ms.sunshine
    ms.sunshine Member Posts: 707 Member
    #16
    disneyfan2008 said:

    @Dawne
    I am so sorry...I am sending good thoughts and hugs your way to you and your family...

    I"ll check back for updates....

    Denise

    Ms. Texas Dawne
    I am sorry to hear the bad news. To hear news like this is a stab in the heart. Stay positive, and keep fighting, as I know you will. You have a great support team that will rally around, and together you and they will have the victory. We are here for you, so post to keep us updated.

    Surround yourself with people who are positive and will encourage you.
    Stay encouraged
    Jennifer
  • butterflylvr
    butterflylvr Member Posts: 944
    #17
    ms.sunshine said:

    Ms. Texas Dawne
    I am sorry to hear the bad news. To hear news like this is a stab in the heart. Stay positive, and keep fighting, as I know you will. You have a great support team that will rally around, and together you and they will have the victory. We are here for you, so post to keep us updated.

    Surround yourself with people who are positive and will encourage you.
    Stay encouraged
    Jennifer

    Wow Dawne,
    Your news hit me like a ton of bricks and I'm not even blood related. But I am family and so is everyone else here on this board. May you find the added strength you need to get you through this next round of chemo treatments. My heart aches at this moment and my words aren't coming easy. I feel over the past few weeks we've been traveling this journey together and have gotten closer. My prayers are coming every day for you and your family. Please keep us posted on how you are doing my friend...

    Hugs,
    Lorrie
  • sausageroll
    sausageroll Member Posts: 415
    #18
    ms.sunshine said:

    Ms. Texas Dawne
    I am sorry to hear the bad news. To hear news like this is a stab in the heart. Stay positive, and keep fighting, as I know you will. You have a great support team that will rally around, and together you and they will have the victory. We are here for you, so post to keep us updated.

    Surround yourself with people who are positive and will encourage you.
    Stay encouraged
    Jennifer

    Dawne
    Knowing you....the strength will be there to fight this. You are just going through that time when the emotions are really near the surface. We are definitely here for you and it is good to have a place to come to where you can show your emotions. It's going to be a haul...but you know you want to do it. Take care. Pat
  • mjjones453
    mjjones453 Member Posts: 155
    #19
    sausageroll said:

    Dawne
    Knowing you....the strength will be there to fight this. You are just going through that time when the emotions are really near the surface. We are definitely here for you and it is good to have a place to come to where you can show your emotions. It's going to be a haul...but you know you want to do it. Take care. Pat

    Dawne
    I am sorry to hear of this news for you, I will keep you and your family in my prayers! How hard it has to be to go through this all again! Mary
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
    #20
    Damnit! That's just not
    Damnit! That's just not fair...we go through all this and it is supposed to make us better. I'm so mad and upset about this I just don't know what else to say.

    Hugs and tears,

    Linda
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159
    #21
    Hi sweetie~ we all certainly
    Hi sweetie~ we all certainly know the frightened, sinking feeling you experienced at hearing the most unwelcome news. Hard as it initially is, I picture you taking a DEEP breath, and bundling together as many postives as you possibly can. That would include of course this awesome group of warriors, especially those with dx and treatment similar to yours, and the incredible fellow feeling we get just by being here.

    As you can tell by the responses, you are not alone on this journey~and we send you whatever you need to help you in this fight. Courage, strength, hugs, prayers, positive thoughts...we give it all to you in abundance. You don't even need to ask. We are here to support you. We are family.

    Hugs and Love to you!
    Chen♥

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