My last chemo is today

Chris17
Chris17 Member Posts: 175
Well the day i have been waiting for is today,after a long battle to beat this demon,as i said before in an earlier post i feel like a baby bird being pushed out of the comfort of my nest to finally go out on my own and fly. Its been a long 2 and a half years and i found out alot about myself in that time, i am a strong woman, when i think back and remember ( what i can) about what i have been through i actually sat back and said wow! For the first time in ages i wont feel tethered to chemo, i can actually breathe and not think about the next treatment coming, and it feels good, but on the other hand i am nervous, i have depended on "tethering" as it were and its a bit unnerving, wondering in the back of my mind, will it come back as soon as i stop?Its not easy, that will always be in the back of my mind somewhere, but i cant let that hold me back form moving on, i refuse to let this demon get me, i have fought too long and way too hard, will let you know more when i get back.
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  • vinny59
    vinny59 Member Posts: 1,032
    last
    That must be a great feeling, when I finished my eight round, I felt like a huge load was off my back, I can only imagine how you must feel! Keep fighting the good fight!!!!! Positive thoughts your way......... Vinny
  • dixiegirl
    dixiegirl Member Posts: 1,043 Member
    vinny59 said:

    last
    That must be a great feeling, when I finished my eight round, I felt like a huge load was off my back, I can only imagine how you must feel! Keep fighting the good fight!!!!! Positive thoughts your way......... Vinny

    Last
    Last treatment is a great obstacle to overcome! Comfort in being done, but at the same time, more stress. I didn't know what to do with myself. No more constant doc visits, bloodwork, tests.....it came to a screeching halt.

    With time it got better, but those 2 months between maintenance become a VERY long time.

    Congratulations friend!! Enjoy the weekend!\\

    Beth
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    dixiegirl said:

    Last
    Last treatment is a great obstacle to overcome! Comfort in being done, but at the same time, more stress. I didn't know what to do with myself. No more constant doc visits, bloodwork, tests.....it came to a screeching halt.

    With time it got better, but those 2 months between maintenance become a VERY long time.

    Congratulations friend!! Enjoy the weekend!\\

    Beth

    thank you
    Thank you Vinny and Beth, i am glad of the no more constant Dr appts thats for sure, and now i can focus on regaining my strength back and continue on where i left off, and i cant wait! God bless you all who are dealing with this, i will be coming back to post, just because i am done with my treatments wont stop me from posting here, thank you for the support and encouraging words that were posted here for me, it really meant alot.
    Chris NHL stage 3 4/08 in remission.
  • merrywinner
    merrywinner Member Posts: 626
    Chris17 said:

    thank you
    Thank you Vinny and Beth, i am glad of the no more constant Dr appts thats for sure, and now i can focus on regaining my strength back and continue on where i left off, and i cant wait! God bless you all who are dealing with this, i will be coming back to post, just because i am done with my treatments wont stop me from posting here, thank you for the support and encouraging words that were posted here for me, it really meant alot.
    Chris NHL stage 3 4/08 in remission.

    Congrats Chris
    It does feel so good to be done but can be confusing too. I am glad you plan to hang around here. Looks like you were diagnosed around the same time I was. Continued success to you. Mary(FNHL-1-4A-8/08)
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175

    Congrats Chris
    It does feel so good to be done but can be confusing too. I am glad you plan to hang around here. Looks like you were diagnosed around the same time I was. Continued success to you. Mary(FNHL-1-4A-8/08)

    Thank you
    Thanks Mary, all im gonna do is take things 1 day at a time and pick up where i left off and enjoy my life again. I will never ever take things for granted,this morning i am tired not too nauseated, but i can handle it! Good luck to you as well Mary take care and have a great weekend.
    Chris NHL-stage3-4/08 in remission
  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178
    You will be fine
    Hi Chris,
    You will be fine and I think as time passes you won't feel quite so much like a bird being pushed from the nest. Your confidence will grow, and remember to keep positive thoughts! I'm so happy you can get on with your life now and take a rest from all of this. ENJOY!
    Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)
  • Helen Caruso
    Helen Caruso Member Posts: 11
    wow congrats!!
    i know that feeling and it is an awesome and proud feeling to have! just keep thinking positive and you will get through it!
  • bobmcghee
    bobmcghee Member Posts: 44
    last chemo Nov 17, 2010
    Nov 17, 2010 will be my last r-chop if my blood count holds. It would be better if I could skip day seven through 12 after chemo which is my worst time. I need to recover so I can put the Christmas lights up. Are you looking forward to the things that you missed? Hair, energy, getting feeling in your hands and feet, not feeling sick most of the time and scheduling your life around treatments.
  • dixiegirl
    dixiegirl Member Posts: 1,043 Member
    bobmcghee said:

    last chemo Nov 17, 2010
    Nov 17, 2010 will be my last r-chop if my blood count holds. It would be better if I could skip day seven through 12 after chemo which is my worst time. I need to recover so I can put the Christmas lights up. Are you looking forward to the things that you missed? Hair, energy, getting feeling in your hands and feet, not feeling sick most of the time and scheduling your life around treatments.

    Nov
    You are on the downhill slide!!

    Take care, and congrats for almost being done!

    Beth
    LPL/MALT/FNHL stage 3 (4/7/06)
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    bobmcghee said:

    last chemo Nov 17, 2010
    Nov 17, 2010 will be my last r-chop if my blood count holds. It would be better if I could skip day seven through 12 after chemo which is my worst time. I need to recover so I can put the Christmas lights up. Are you looking forward to the things that you missed? Hair, energy, getting feeling in your hands and feet, not feeling sick most of the time and scheduling your life around treatments.

    Bob
    Hi Bob im looking forward to all of it, this last round of chemo was retuxin a bit diff from what i had back in 2008,its called maintanence therapy. it still had some side affects i had to deal with, hopefully Nov 17th will be your last,all i want is my energy back, to be able to walk like i used to, as far as my hair is concerned this pic here is what i look like now , i lost my hair in 08 when it was past my waist, was a shock but i kept a sense of humor saying i would save money on shampoos and hair appts and it will grow back.I wish you all the luck, let us know how everything is going for you, the people here are very understanding and are here to help in any way if they can, good luck to you and hope to see another post from you soon take care
    Chris(FNHL-stage3-4-2008) in remission
  • WonderWoman88
    WonderWoman88 Member Posts: 19
    Congratulations! ^_^
    I am so happy for you!! I remember when I had my last treatment. It was a about a month ago actually. Its hard and scary because you think that your held onto this chemo and the sickness is a part of who you are when thats not the case at all.

    I was so terrified that I wouldnt make it because of my age and the situation I was in but I made it and its so worth it! Looking at the sun rise and set, seeing the clouds, listening to the birds, all that means something totally different. Ive never seen the real beauty of life until it was possibly taken away from me.

    You have the same attitude I did. Its oh so liberating to have that leave your body. We both know that the reality is that it could come back, for either of is, but dont focus on that right now. I see it like this: If it comes back, deal with it then. Dont dwell upon something that may never happen. Be happy, live life to the fullest and know and remember this moment for the rest of your life: your free :)

    Hats off to you hun ^_^
  • COBRA666
    COBRA666 Member Posts: 2,401 Member

    Congratulations! ^_^
    I am so happy for you!! I remember when I had my last treatment. It was a about a month ago actually. Its hard and scary because you think that your held onto this chemo and the sickness is a part of who you are when thats not the case at all.

    I was so terrified that I wouldnt make it because of my age and the situation I was in but I made it and its so worth it! Looking at the sun rise and set, seeing the clouds, listening to the birds, all that means something totally different. Ive never seen the real beauty of life until it was possibly taken away from me.

    You have the same attitude I did. Its oh so liberating to have that leave your body. We both know that the reality is that it could come back, for either of is, but dont focus on that right now. I see it like this: If it comes back, deal with it then. Dont dwell upon something that may never happen. Be happy, live life to the fullest and know and remember this moment for the rest of your life: your free :)

    Hats off to you hun ^_^

    True
    You hit the nail RIGHT on the head with that. John (FNHL-1-4A-5/10)
  • truckingalong
    truckingalong Member Posts: 445 Member
    Chris17 said:

    Bob
    Hi Bob im looking forward to all of it, this last round of chemo was retuxin a bit diff from what i had back in 2008,its called maintanence therapy. it still had some side affects i had to deal with, hopefully Nov 17th will be your last,all i want is my energy back, to be able to walk like i used to, as far as my hair is concerned this pic here is what i look like now , i lost my hair in 08 when it was past my waist, was a shock but i kept a sense of humor saying i would save money on shampoos and hair appts and it will grow back.I wish you all the luck, let us know how everything is going for you, the people here are very understanding and are here to help in any way if they can, good luck to you and hope to see another post from you soon take care
    Chris(FNHL-stage3-4-2008) in remission

    Congrats
    I am so happy for you. Gives me hope for my situation!! Enjoy your new lease on Life.

    Liz
    (HL4B - 8/2010)
  • bobmcghee
    bobmcghee Member Posts: 44
    Chris17 said:

    Bob
    Hi Bob im looking forward to all of it, this last round of chemo was retuxin a bit diff from what i had back in 2008,its called maintanence therapy. it still had some side affects i had to deal with, hopefully Nov 17th will be your last,all i want is my energy back, to be able to walk like i used to, as far as my hair is concerned this pic here is what i look like now , i lost my hair in 08 when it was past my waist, was a shock but i kept a sense of humor saying i would save money on shampoos and hair appts and it will grow back.I wish you all the luck, let us know how everything is going for you, the people here are very understanding and are here to help in any way if they can, good luck to you and hope to see another post from you soon take care
    Chris(FNHL-stage3-4-2008) in remission

    Learned a new word - Neutropenia
    My 8th and last chemo is scheduled for 11-17-10 but I started a fever of 102.2 and now I'm stuck in the hospital because my white count is too low for me to go home. I was admitted Thursday morning, Friday the count went down even further. It's Saturday morning so now I'm waiting for the results of todays blood test. They knocked the fever down right away on Thursday and I have felt okay since then. It's frustrating to think this will delay my last treatment. My doctor said if the count comes back by the 17th I can still finish on time and a dose of Neulasta.
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    bobmcghee said:

    Learned a new word - Neutropenia
    My 8th and last chemo is scheduled for 11-17-10 but I started a fever of 102.2 and now I'm stuck in the hospital because my white count is too low for me to go home. I was admitted Thursday morning, Friday the count went down even further. It's Saturday morning so now I'm waiting for the results of todays blood test. They knocked the fever down right away on Thursday and I have felt okay since then. It's frustrating to think this will delay my last treatment. My doctor said if the count comes back by the 17th I can still finish on time and a dose of Neulasta.

    Will be praying for you
    Hi Bob, i suffered with the fevers and had to take the neulasta shots which i didnt like, but was never placed in the hospital, came close though, i will pray that you will get better and get that last round of chemo in,but get your count back up and get you back on the road and get er done! Will keep good thoughts for you!
    Chris(FNHL-stage3-04/08) remission
  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178
    bobmcghee said:

    Learned a new word - Neutropenia
    My 8th and last chemo is scheduled for 11-17-10 but I started a fever of 102.2 and now I'm stuck in the hospital because my white count is too low for me to go home. I was admitted Thursday morning, Friday the count went down even further. It's Saturday morning so now I'm waiting for the results of todays blood test. They knocked the fever down right away on Thursday and I have felt okay since then. It's frustrating to think this will delay my last treatment. My doctor said if the count comes back by the 17th I can still finish on time and a dose of Neulasta.

    Almost there!
    Hi Bob,
    Sorry to hear about the hospital visit,and dang.... soooo close to your last treatment. I'll keep good positive thoughts that you get better quick and get that last treatment out of the way. Hang in there, and best wishes...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)
  • bobmcghee
    bobmcghee Member Posts: 44
    allmost60 said:

    Almost there!
    Hi Bob,
    Sorry to hear about the hospital visit,and dang.... soooo close to your last treatment. I'll keep good positive thoughts that you get better quick and get that last treatment out of the way. Hang in there, and best wishes...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

    I'm free again.
    HI,
    My count bounced back by Sunday morning so they let me go home. Now I hope it keeps going up so I can finish on Wednesday as scheduled. I guess I better be extra careful so I don't get another fever next time. Although I'm not sure how this last one got started.
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    bobmcghee said:

    I'm free again.
    HI,
    My count bounced back by Sunday morning so they let me go home. Now I hope it keeps going up so I can finish on Wednesday as scheduled. I guess I better be extra careful so I don't get another fever next time. Although I'm not sure how this last one got started.

    Bob
    I am so glad to read that, will continue with positive thoughts for you to finish your treatments,yes you do need to be a bit more careful i know i was,for us with a weakened immune system it doesnt take much for a fever to start, we have the immune system of a newborn pretty much, good luck to you and take care keep us posted
  • bobmcghee
    bobmcghee Member Posts: 44
    Chris17 said:

    Bob
    I am so glad to read that, will continue with positive thoughts for you to finish your treatments,yes you do need to be a bit more careful i know i was,for us with a weakened immune system it doesnt take much for a fever to start, we have the immune system of a newborn pretty much, good luck to you and take care keep us posted

    The doctor said 7 was enough.
    My onc decided I didn't need the 8th r-chop treatment. I'm still in a little shock about his decision. He said because of the good pet scan after 6 treatments that it may do more harm than good to do the 8th treatment. I have pretty bad neuropathy in my hands and mainly my feet. He also said since there is no cure the extra treatment may not make the remission last any longer either. Well I guess I had my last chemo and didn't know it was the last one.
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    bobmcghee said:

    The doctor said 7 was enough.
    My onc decided I didn't need the 8th r-chop treatment. I'm still in a little shock about his decision. He said because of the good pet scan after 6 treatments that it may do more harm than good to do the 8th treatment. I have pretty bad neuropathy in my hands and mainly my feet. He also said since there is no cure the extra treatment may not make the remission last any longer either. Well I guess I had my last chemo and didn't know it was the last one.

    Bob
    Well im glad you got a good result back on the scan, now you can take a breather and focus on getting back on track, now enjoy the holidays that are to come knowing you dont have to have anymore chemo,and just relax and take advantage knowing you dont have to set your life around chemo appts etc, good luck to you and thanks for keeping us posted, take care
    Chris(FNHL-stage3-4/08)remission