Is this real?
I had my first pet scan since completing all of my treatments yesterday and things didn't exactly go according to plan. The entire scan looked really good until they got to my right hip. There was a hot spot there, so I had an MRI to see what was going on and they told me that they found cancer in my bone marrow. I have a biopsy on Monday and then I will have a surgery a couple days later so they can remove part of my femur and possibly do a hip replacement.
I'm almost at a loss for words because I am so angry. I am 20 years old.. I shouldn't be having a hip replacement. Instead of running a 15K, I will be having months of physical therapy so I can learn how to walk again. All I want to do is go back to school and I am in complete shock that this is happening. The doctors have no idea how this happened. My breast cancer was incredibly rare. I failed chemotherapy, had a recurance in my right chest wall, and now this? None of it has made any sense. I'm finding it extremely difficult to stay positive. I feel like I went above and beyond this entire year to be positive and now I've had the rug pulled out from under me. UGH. Feels kind of nice to vent. Thanks for listening girls.
-Kat
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Kat,
I just want to wrap my arms around you and give you a big hug!! It's bad enough to have to go through it at any age but when it hits the very young, it's just not fair. You are such a beautiful, vibrant young lady. This is a set back, but I just feel you will emerge from all this with an incredible story to share with others.
Please vent all you want with your Sisters. We all need that. And know, we are here for you every step of the way sweetie. Please keep us posted.
Keeping you in prayer,
Sylvia0 -
Thats not fair!!
You have every right to vent! This is so not fair. But there is a treatment. You sound like a very positive person and that will help you recover faster. You may have to delay your plans but never give up. I am sure you will be running in front of that pick bus as us (cough ,cough ) slightly older sisters cheer for you out the window. My prayers are with you. Keep Fighting!!!!0 -
Kat,
Vent all you want, this
Kat,
Vent all you want, this is not fair. You are too young to have to deal with more than college and what to do Saturday night! Your attitude has been amazing so far, a little frustration is totally understandable....
It's good that there is a plan, your training should help with recovery. Then on to normal again.
Take heart, you are not alone,
Cindy0 -
Kat
Oh I can hardly believe what I just read! This is horrible. I feel so bad for you. You are right...this should not be happening to you...you are so young! Because you are young, you are strong and you will beat this. I met a senior citizen who had bone cancer 7 years ago and she is doing great...she is in her 60's. Again I am so sorry Kat. I know it will be so hard to go through this but I know you will come through stronger than ever. Don't give up now, do stay positive. Know that we all care here. Come to us for prayers and support.
Hugs
God Bless
Annette0 -
Kat, I wish I could saymamolady said:Kat,
Vent all you want, this
Kat,
Vent all you want, this is not fair. You are too young to have to deal with more than college and what to do Saturday night! Your attitude has been amazing so far, a little frustration is totally understandable....
It's good that there is a plan, your training should help with recovery. Then on to normal again.
Take heart, you are not alone,
Cindy
Kat, I wish I could say something or do something to take this away from you. I am so sorry that this happened to you. You are so young to have to go thru any of this, let alone what you already have.
Just know that we are here for you, and, will support you.
Hugs, Debby0 -
Hi Katpoplolly said:It may not seem like it now,
It may not seem like it now, but you will have better times ahead. I'm so sorry about the dx and the coming surgery. Get mad, vent, and resolve to continue the fight!!
hugs
JUdy
Your post makes me ashamed to complain about my problems! My daughter just turned 18 and her biggest worry right now is people she knows seeing her getting the carts in the parking lot at her new store job! I understand completely how frustrated you are as to getting yet another surgery....because yes it feels as if you've already paid your dues 10 times over! Like havent you gave enough! i always say...What else must I give? Wasnt a body part enough! I pray for a smooth surgery and that your healing is quick so that you can get on with your dreams. You are a winner and you will get that 15k. I will think of you when I think my problems are big!
Hugs & prayers
Renee0 -
It breaks my heart
Dear Kat,
It breaks my heart to read all that you have endured and then to end up with a hip replacement. You have been very positive. Please don't give up.
In my breast support group is a women who had Lymphoma at the young age of 18. They did everything for her and then said there was nothing more they could do. She was a fighter and opted to have a stem cell transplant (very rare at that time). It was successful and gave her life. Much later she met her husband (I think in her late 30's). She now in her 40's and they are going to China in a few weeks to adopt a baby girl. She did get breast cancer in her 40's which she attributed to the treatments she had when she had the first cancer. She is extremely positive, happy, and will retire from nursing to be a full time mother. Her name is Jan and she is one of my favorite women in the group. I love how she expresses her feelings.
I told you this true story to give you hope and encouragement to continue to be positive and to continue to fight. If you would like to communicate with this woman, please private message me giving me either your phone # or e-mail address.
Lots and Lots of Hugs and Lots of Love,
Janelle0 -
Speechless
Kat,
I am new to the CSN and read your post. I am left speechless and don't even know what to say. "Everything happens for a reason" or "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" are true, but sound so cliche right now. Expletives are coming to mind too but they would not be nice to post.
Please stay strong and know that I will be praying for you along with all other pink sisters.
Sincerely,
Lori0 -
KatYankee Girl said:Speechless
Kat,
I am new to the CSN and read your post. I am left speechless and don't even know what to say. "Everything happens for a reason" or "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" are true, but sound so cliche right now. Expletives are coming to mind too but they would not be nice to post.
Please stay strong and know that I will be praying for you along with all other pink sisters.
Sincerely,
Lori
I am so sorry that your
Kat
I am so sorry that your going through this. I think it must be especially difficult when you are so very young. I will keep you in my prayers that all goes well and you are able to do a 15K in the future.
Stef0 -
Oh No!fauxma said:Kat
I am so sorry that your
Kat
I am so sorry that your going through this. I think it must be especially difficult when you are so very young. I will keep you in my prayers that all goes well and you are able to do a 15K in the future.
Stef
Dear Kat-
Just want to hug you right now. This is so unfair. When will you be having your surgery? We're all here for you and you continue with your surgery and treatments. Please keep us in the loop so we can send that bus your way when needed.
For now, I'm sending you prayers and positive vibes for a successful surgery and treatment.
Suzanne0 -
Kat
so sorry that you got this news. Keep your spirits up to help you get through the surgery and physical therapy. Prayers are coming your way. Don't even know what to say except that this should not be happening to you. You have been so positive and such an inspiration, but it is really good that you came to us to vent, as it allows for a lot more prayers, positive thoughts and hugs coming your way.
Keep venting, we are all here for you. It sucks but you can do it!!
~Carol0 -
This sucks...camul said:Kat
so sorry that you got this news. Keep your spirits up to help you get through the surgery and physical therapy. Prayers are coming your way. Don't even know what to say except that this should not be happening to you. You have been so positive and such an inspiration, but it is really good that you came to us to vent, as it allows for a lot more prayers, positive thoughts and hugs coming your way.
Keep venting, we are all here for you. It sucks but you can do it!!
~Carol
It sucks for all of us, but especially for someone so young....I know, personally a young woman who had her first hip replacement at 18 and a second at 24...these were not due to cancer, but hip dysplasia that wasn't discovered at birth....the point is, because she WAS so young and in great shape she recovered very quickly...plenty of physical therapy, mind you but she did great and and I have faith you will too......
Wishing you the best and please keep us posted, we truly care....
Hugs, Nancy0 -
Kat - you have been incredibly strong
And you have every right to vent as much as you need to. I must admit
this shook me up this morning. But I also know that you will pick yourself
up and continue to do what you have to do. Every day, every hour, every
minute is worth fighting for. I am so impressed with all that you have done
in the past year.. and angry, can't help it. You are so vibrant and have so
much to give, I am so sad that you have to be here. I believe in you and
your amazing spirit and I will continue to look for your updates and hope
along with you for the day you will meet Ned and take his breath away
with your beautiful dance!
I am giving you a HUUUUGE big hug!
Love,
Ayse0 -
Hang in there sweetie thereaysemari said:Kat - you have been incredibly strong
And you have every right to vent as much as you need to. I must admit
this shook me up this morning. But I also know that you will pick yourself
up and continue to do what you have to do. Every day, every hour, every
minute is worth fighting for. I am so impressed with all that you have done
in the past year.. and angry, can't help it. You are so vibrant and have so
much to give, I am so sad that you have to be here. I believe in you and
your amazing spirit and I will continue to look for your updates and hope
along with you for the day you will meet Ned and take his breath away
with your beautiful dance!
I am giving you a HUUUUGE big hug!
Love,
Ayse
Hang in there sweetie there is a lot of love for you here on this board. You are one strong and amazing young woman with lots of strength. We are here for you..
Hugs,
Lorrie0 -
You are a Remarkable young Warrior --aysemari said:Kat - you have been incredibly strong
And you have every right to vent as much as you need to. I must admit
this shook me up this morning. But I also know that you will pick yourself
up and continue to do what you have to do. Every day, every hour, every
minute is worth fighting for. I am so impressed with all that you have done
in the past year.. and angry, can't help it. You are so vibrant and have so
much to give, I am so sad that you have to be here. I believe in you and
your amazing spirit and I will continue to look for your updates and hope
along with you for the day you will meet Ned and take his breath away
with your beautiful dance!
I am giving you a HUUUUGE big hug!
Love,
Ayse
without a doubt. I am so sorry to hear this news. My heart goes out to you and your family. You have been thru so much, at as such a young age.
You are truly a WARRIOR in every sense of this word -- Your attitude, poise, and demeanor astonishes me. I am hopeful that this latest issue with your hip -- and subsequent replacement surgery will be a distant memory for you in time.
Gentle hugs, prayers of support and hope for you, Kat.
Vicki Sam0 -
Dear KatVickiSam said:You are a Remarkable young Warrior --
without a doubt. I am so sorry to hear this news. My heart goes out to you and your family. You have been thru so much, at as such a young age.
You are truly a WARRIOR in every sense of this word -- Your attitude, poise, and demeanor astonishes me. I am hopeful that this latest issue with your hip -- and subsequent replacement surgery will be a distant memory for you in time.
Gentle hugs, prayers of support and hope for you, Kat.
Vicki Sam
I could hardly believe what I just read. Try to stay strong my darling because you have already been quite a warrior. We are always here for you whenever you need to vent or just talk. Prayers and lots of positive thoughts are coming your way.
Hugs,
Wanda0 -
Kat, my heart is breaking atcamul said:Kat
so sorry that you got this news. Keep your spirits up to help you get through the surgery and physical therapy. Prayers are coming your way. Don't even know what to say except that this should not be happening to you. You have been so positive and such an inspiration, but it is really good that you came to us to vent, as it allows for a lot more prayers, positive thoughts and hugs coming your way.
Keep venting, we are all here for you. It sucks but you can do it!!
~Carol
Kat, my heart is breaking at reading this. I am so very sorry. Please stay strong and turn to us if you need help or support.
Praying,
Diane0
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