It's finally setting in....

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SueRelays
SueRelays Member Posts: 485
Friday is my first chemo treatment. Even though I've been through this before, I am now starting to realize how different life will be for the next several months. Kind of had put it in the back of my mind with family visiting and trying to get in all the FUN I can before chemo starts. I'm always upbeat and positive, and everyone always comments on that, but feeling down today.......just not looking forward to food not tasting good(I'm Italian and I LOVE to eat)....no wine, no sun, etc......but I know it's better than the alternative. Just wanted to vent a little and say CANCER SUCKS!!!!
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  • mamolady
    mamolady Member Posts: 796 Member
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    Cancer does Suck!
    Try to save all your eating for the 2 days before chemo! Just kidding, but you should be able to eat the foods you love those days. This will be done before you know it.
    Feeling down is allowed, no body, with or with out cancer, is up all the time. You will get your fight back tomorrow. Till friday, eat all your favorites!

    Cindy

    On a side note: During chemo I was talking to my daughter (28) about how much I hate chemo. I don't usually use the word "hate" because it is such a strong word. She told me that she loves chemo. I almost reacted badly to the comment till she explained that anything that kept me around, she loved! After that, chemo wasn't so bad......
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
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    You just vent away and yes,
    You just vent away and yes, Cancer Sucks! Wishing you good luck on Friday with your chemo.



    Hugs, Leeza
  • ladyg
    ladyg Member Posts: 1,577
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    Cancer Sucks is right!
    Just because you have been through this before doesn't make it any easier. Or any less real. Vent away, we are here to listen.

    Hugs,
    Georgia
  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
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    Not much to say, you kind of hit it all
    Chemo sucks, cancer sucks, and it doesn't get easier because you have done it before!

    But mostly what sticks out is the positive attitude and knowing that you prevailed on the other cancers, no reason why this one should be any different.

    I know that for the 10 months before my last diagnosis, we were on a search and destroy mission removing atypical tumors. Amazing though we must have lives we love, because we just keep fighting.

    Prayers and hugs for your long journey.
    CArol
  • laughs_a_lot
    laughs_a_lot Member Posts: 1,368 Member
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    Yup
    chemo sucks extra for me because I still have to shave my legs. Vent away.
  • DianeBC
    DianeBC Member Posts: 3,881 Member
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    ladyg said:

    Cancer Sucks is right!
    Just because you have been through this before doesn't make it any easier. Or any less real. Vent away, we are here to listen.

    Hugs,
    Georgia

    Wishing you good luck with
    Wishing you good luck with your chemo.


    Hugs, Diane
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
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    Yup
    chemo sucks extra for me because I still have to shave my legs. Vent away.

    You're so right--chemo does suck
    but not as much as cancer. Every night in my gratitude prayers, I thank God for my doctors, nurses, chemo and radiation for stomping out that cancer. Today I visited my surgeon. It's been 18 months (I was Stage 3C invasive ductal ca with 10+ nodes) and last week I had an MRI, mammo and ultrasound that all said, "No evidence of malignancy." My doctor and I were all smiles. You can do this and you will soon be smiling again.

    Sending a ton of positive energy your way for your treatment tomorrow.

    Hugs, Renee
  • SueRelays
    SueRelays Member Posts: 485
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    missrenee said:

    You're so right--chemo does suck
    but not as much as cancer. Every night in my gratitude prayers, I thank God for my doctors, nurses, chemo and radiation for stomping out that cancer. Today I visited my surgeon. It's been 18 months (I was Stage 3C invasive ductal ca with 10+ nodes) and last week I had an MRI, mammo and ultrasound that all said, "No evidence of malignancy." My doctor and I were all smiles. You can do this and you will soon be smiling again.

    Sending a ton of positive energy your way for your treatment tomorrow.

    Hugs, Renee

    Thanks everyone!!!
    I feel

    Thanks everyone!!!

    I feel much better today after a nice pasta dinner with a glass of wine and an outdoor concert in Bend, and then coming in and reading all your supportive responses!

    I am trying to "embrace" chemo too and call it my friend, since it is what keeps us alive....and that wonder drug herceptin!!! I made a nice binder with all my info in it and put a picture of my girls and the caption "This is why I chemo"!! Figured it would help get me through the rough days!!

    I'm sure I'll be on here regularly now....so thanks all, and nice to meet all of you!!!
  • mollieb
    mollieb Member Posts: 148
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    mamolady said:

    Cancer does Suck!
    Try to save all your eating for the 2 days before chemo! Just kidding, but you should be able to eat the foods you love those days. This will be done before you know it.
    Feeling down is allowed, no body, with or with out cancer, is up all the time. You will get your fight back tomorrow. Till friday, eat all your favorites!

    Cindy

    On a side note: During chemo I was talking to my daughter (28) about how much I hate chemo. I don't usually use the word "hate" because it is such a strong word. She told me that she loves chemo. I almost reacted badly to the comment till she explained that anything that kept me around, she loved! After that, chemo wasn't so bad......

    What a Great Perspective
    Now I love chemo, too.
  • Alexis F
    Alexis F Member Posts: 3,598
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    SueRelays said:

    Thanks everyone!!!
    I feel

    Thanks everyone!!!

    I feel much better today after a nice pasta dinner with a glass of wine and an outdoor concert in Bend, and then coming in and reading all your supportive responses!

    I am trying to "embrace" chemo too and call it my friend, since it is what keeps us alive....and that wonder drug herceptin!!! I made a nice binder with all my info in it and put a picture of my girls and the caption "This is why I chemo"!! Figured it would help get me through the rough days!!

    I'm sure I'll be on here regularly now....so thanks all, and nice to meet all of you!!!

    What a great idea of the
    What a great idea of the binder with your girls pics on it! I am sure it will get you thru any rough days, IF, you have some.

    Good luck to you and please keep updating us on how you do.


    Hugs, Lex
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
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    Alexis F said:

    What a great idea of the
    What a great idea of the binder with your girls pics on it! I am sure it will get you thru any rough days, IF, you have some.

    Good luck to you and please keep updating us on how you do.


    Hugs, Lex

    Chemo, as well as 'cancer' sucks !!!
    I hate to capitalize the word - cancer, as it gives the word too much power -- and cancer controls so much of our lives during our fight.

    Sue -- Best of luck, continue to be positive, and post often - we are here for you 24/7.

    Strength, Courage and Hope.

    Vicki Sam
  • poplolly
    poplolly Member Posts: 346
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    I am totally disgusted with
    I am totally disgusted with cancer. Actually, I have more choice words for it than that. I hate that idea that my cancer may come back and I'll have to take chem all over again. Then I realize, I'd still do it again. That does not make it pleasant...and on top of not being able to taste my food, I didn't even lose weight!!! Now that's not fair.

    Judy
  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member
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    VickiSam said:

    Chemo, as well as 'cancer' sucks !!!
    I hate to capitalize the word - cancer, as it gives the word too much power -- and cancer controls so much of our lives during our fight.

    Sue -- Best of luck, continue to be positive, and post often - we are here for you 24/7.

    Strength, Courage and Hope.

    Vicki Sam

    I am wishing you good luck
    I am wishing you good luck today Sue!


    Hugs, Jan
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
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    poplolly said:

    I am totally disgusted with
    I am totally disgusted with cancer. Actually, I have more choice words for it than that. I hate that idea that my cancer may come back and I'll have to take chem all over again. Then I realize, I'd still do it again. That does not make it pleasant...and on top of not being able to taste my food, I didn't even lose weight!!! Now that's not fair.

    Judy

    I just want to say it does
    I just want to say it does suck but we are here with you always.
    I'm Italian too and boy do I love food :)
    Hugs,
    Wanda
  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
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    I just want to say it does
    I just want to say it does suck but we are here with you always.
    I'm Italian too and boy do I love food :)
    Hugs,
    Wanda

    Cancer sucks!!!!!!!!! I
    Cancer sucks!!!!!!!!! I know we all agree on that. I do wish you good luck and I hope and pray that you have no or little side effects with chemo.

    I'll be looking for an update from you.


    Hugs, Megan
  • DebbyM
    DebbyM Member Posts: 3,289 Member
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    missrenee said:

    You're so right--chemo does suck
    but not as much as cancer. Every night in my gratitude prayers, I thank God for my doctors, nurses, chemo and radiation for stomping out that cancer. Today I visited my surgeon. It's been 18 months (I was Stage 3C invasive ductal ca with 10+ nodes) and last week I had an MRI, mammo and ultrasound that all said, "No evidence of malignancy." My doctor and I were all smiles. You can do this and you will soon be smiling again.

    Sending a ton of positive energy your way for your treatment tomorrow.

    Hugs, Renee

    I'm hoping and praying your
    I'm hoping and praying your first chemo went well for you today.


    Big hugs,

    Debby
  • pinkpalette
    pinkpalette Member Posts: 112
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    Megan M said:

    Cancer sucks!!!!!!!!! I
    Cancer sucks!!!!!!!!! I know we all agree on that. I do wish you good luck and I hope and pray that you have no or little side effects with chemo.

    I'll be looking for an update from you.


    Hugs, Megan

    How did your first treatment go...?
    Greetings SueRelays....I hope your first infusion went well. Just think one down....

    I too am Her2+, just started my chemo Monday this week. The Herceptin wasn't too bad. You be sure to get out there on your good days and do the things you want to do. Don't let cancer rule your life. Your daughters are waiting for you....

    Do something fun!

    Hugs, pinkpalette
  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
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    How did your first treatment go...?
    Greetings SueRelays....I hope your first infusion went well. Just think one down....

    I too am Her2+, just started my chemo Monday this week. The Herceptin wasn't too bad. You be sure to get out there on your good days and do the things you want to do. Don't let cancer rule your life. Your daughters are waiting for you....

    Do something fun!

    Hugs, pinkpalette

    Also wondering how your
    Also wondering how your first chemo went. Praying it went smoothly for you.


    ♥ Noel
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
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    Noel said:

    Also wondering how your
    Also wondering how your first chemo went. Praying it went smoothly for you.


    ♥ Noel

    I was thinking about you
    I was thinking about you today as it is your first chemo. Let us know how it went when you have some time.

    Big hugs,

    Leeza
  • Angie2U
    Angie2U Member Posts: 2,991
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    camul said:

    Not much to say, you kind of hit it all
    Chemo sucks, cancer sucks, and it doesn't get easier because you have done it before!

    But mostly what sticks out is the positive attitude and knowing that you prevailed on the other cancers, no reason why this one should be any different.

    I know that for the 10 months before my last diagnosis, we were on a search and destroy mission removing atypical tumors. Amazing though we must have lives we love, because we just keep fighting.

    Prayers and hugs for your long journey.
    CArol

    Praying that yesterday went
    Praying that yesterday went well for you.

    Hugs, Angie