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Farewell Friends!
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Mar 17, 2011 - 2:29 am
My friends! My liver has failed and there are no other options available for me. I was sent home today on hospice care and they will monitor me at home until my last few days. I believe I will get to fully enjoy this weekend and perhaps some of next week. Soon after the start of next week rising ammonia levels in my body will make my brain loose awareness and then I will die. |
Joined: Feb 2011
Thank you
John
I am relatively knew here, but I have seen some of your posts, so I wanted to add my wishes that you enjoy the next few days, know that people accross the globe have you in their prayers and feel better for knowing you, even though it is through this site.
My regards to your family and hope they know, that you based on the comments here have enriched many a persons life.
Gary
Joined: Jun 2010
John, Sending you prayers
John,
Sending you prayers and wishing you peace.
Hugs
Joined: Nov 2006
Peace and comfort
John: I wish you and your family peace and comfort. Yours has been a courageous fight.
Hatshepsut
Joined: Oct 2008
Astounding bravery
Your post and acceptance is evidence of your proud and well fought battle. Thanks for the inspiration.
Mike
Joined: Oct 2010
I am so sorry
You have touched the lives of so many. Peace to you and comfort to your family.
Angela and Robert
Joined: Apr 2009
John....
My heart is breaking...... I have no words.....just tears. I just cannot believe this... I don't want to beleve this. I love you John...... I love your everything..... Oh God.... this so sucks...... Not going to say goodbye but choose instead to pray for a miracle.
Jennie
Joined: Jul 2006
Good luck.
I've read many of your posts here with the greatest interest and attention. Seeing phileg's post above reminds me that I never did pick a fight with you. Sorry about that -- no disrepect intended. Please let us know how things are going.
--Greg
Joined: Jan 2009
You fought the good fight...
I have been on the board about 2 years- mainly lurking the last one. You have always been very inspiring and a wealth of knowledge. You have fought for your health more than anyone I know. May it be a peaceful transition to the next phase- where there is no more pain. Keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.
Susan and family
Joined: Nov 2009
John
I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Your strength and determination have been an inspiration for me throughout my fight.
Deb
Joined: Aug 2010
I'm sorry. I don't know what
I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say. Prayers to you and your family.
Love,
Linda and Mom
Joined: Apr 2010
Please know that you have
Please know that you have been an inspiration to me and someone I admire for not giving up. Thank you for having the strength to consider alternative options and following through. You gave a heck of a fight!
Erin
Joined: Sep 2008
Farewell
Looks like we served in the same uniform and under the same flag. I wish you the traditional wish of sailors and marines "Fair winds and following seas." You are a gutsy individual and your family no doubt will reflect this in your final journey. I'm sorry I didn't get to know you.I'm sure we could have exchanged sea stories of the "this is a no-shxxer type and had some laughs.
Bravo Zulu, John
Trainer
Mike Walker CDR. USR Ret
Joined: Oct 2009
Dear John
I haven't been on the board for a few days and today, I was thinking about you. I've always admired your courage, your strength, and your honesty. John, I am very sorry and I hope that you have a very enjoyable weekend and more. Holding you and your family in the Light for peace, comfort, and strength.
Farewell Friend,
Audrey
Joined: Feb 2009
Oh My Goodness
I'm so very sorry to hear this. I've not been on the board lately and came in tonight to see what was going on and found your post. I'm so sad of this news. You have been such an inspiration on this board for all you have been through and all you have tried to accomplish through your experiments and you have done more and given more than a person would. You, my friend, are such a hero in my life. Just never forget that you are loved very much by your family and your family on this board. I'm praying that things will turn out different for you, but if not, you have left an impression of goodness with many people.
Love and Hugs! Kim
Joined: Apr 2009
John, I pray for your peace
John, I pray for your peace and peace for your family. You have not lived in vain. God be with you. Jean
Joined: Jun 2009
OMG,I can't believe this and
OMG,I can't believe this and I have tears in my eyes.You and your family are in my prayers.Don't know what to say,very very sad.:(
Joined: Jun 2010
God Bless you, John. You
God Bless you, John. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Joined: Jan 2009
DONT KNOW THE RIGHT WORDS
i HAVE SEEN MANY OF YOUR POSTS YOU WERE ANINSPIRATION TO MANY ON HERE I CAN ONLY SAY GOD MUST NEED ANOTHER ANGEL UP THERE
SHERI22
Joined: Sep 2006
My dear friend,
may God give you wings and may your soul spread them to fly
Joined: May 2009
John
My heart is heavy with sadness. We are all crying with you! We will meet again, my friend,
John
Joined: Jul 2009
Wishing you a peaceful
Wishing you a peaceful departure John. Thinking and loving you for all that you have given me, the lives you touch, our country and your courageous fight to live. “When you have come to the edge of all the light you have and step into the darkness of the unknown. Believe that one of the two will happen to you. Either you'll find something solid to stand on. Or, you'll be taught how to fly!”
~go fly my friend~
I will never forget you.
Christine
Joined: Aug 2008
An example
Dear John,
You have been such a great member of this board and have been such a wonderful example of how to live....fighting hard, educating yourself, enjoying time with your wife and son..... wishing your family lasting memories and you a peaceful journey....
Smiles,
Dawn
Joined: Nov 2010
Godspeed my friend! May your
Godspeed my friend! May your finally days be filled will love and without pain!
Joined: Nov 2010
You are an example of honor & integrity
All I can say is thank you!!!!! You have given this final phase of life that we all will face respect for what it is. Your words will be etched in my memory. May your strength and pride carry you to eternal happiness as you leave your wisdom behind for us to seek for,in our times of weakness.the wisdom to walk with dignity into the unknown that you have showen me, for that I will forever be indebted to you. THANK YOU again & bless you on your journey
Joined: Jan 2011
John, I too am so new to
John,
I too am so new to this board and did not have the opportunity to get to know you as the others did. That is my loss. I will be praying for your wife and son and that your last days are peaceful and pain free. I went for a liver biopsy this week to see if I have mets to the liver and as I lay down on the table, they had piped in music from the radio. The song that was playing was "In the arms of the angels"; how comforting to go to sleep to. I pray that you will carried to our Heavenly Father in the arms of the angels and finally be at peace. I will get to meet you one day and we will both finally be forever cancer free! Bless you John for your courageous fight and thank you for your service to this country.
Much love and prayers,
Pam
Joined: Jan 2010
John
I too did not get to know you well as my husband's battle lasted only 9 months. But he went peacefully and I hope the same for you.
Farewell
Kathy
Joined: Jul 2009
Farewell John
Have a peaceful journey.
My thoughts to your loved ones: I lost my wife just two short weeks ago. The hospice doctors and nurses can and should provide much comfort to you and John. Insist on it.
Talk to John, he will hear you.
Hold his hand, he will feel your touch.
Love John, and he will always be with you.
With warmth,
Al
Joined: Sep 2009
Such hard news to hear
I'm just so sad to hear this.
Thanks for being a good friend to so many here. You've been an inspiration to many, myself included. It is sad to say goodbye so soon. I wish you more good days with family and loved ones, and a peaceful passing.
Joined: Dec 2008
I've read all your posts
You have been an example and an inspiration. You have had a profound impact on many lives, including mine. I hope you know that.
You will be greatly missed. Wishing you a peaceful exit, and comfort at home with your family. My thoughts are with you and you loved ones this weekend.
Joined: Apr 2009
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@John: I truly think of you everyday...and I was going to leave you a PM but I suck at it I guess as I spent here an hour and I still don't find how I could do that...the funny thing is, I've done it in the past!!! But I forgot how I did it...well...I think of you, and I soooo don't want to let you go! I'm a kid myself, and it's so annoying and heart breaking to accept reality...I hate reality...please take care!!!!
Hugs,
Sophie
Joined: Oct 2009
Peace be with you my friend
You and your family are in my heart, mind, and prayers. Til we meet again on the other side...
Tashina
Joined: Jul 2009
John I will hold you, your
John
I will hold you, your wife, child, family and friends in my thoughts and prayers over the coming hours, days and weeks ahead. Your fight is our fight and we will carry that with us as we move forward, never forgetting and always remembering. Rest well John, rest well.
Joined: Dec 2009
JohnT
You've been an inspiration. You sir, have fought a valiant battle with the beast. A warrior. Much love to you and your family.
Joined: Jun 2009
Thanks
John,
Wishing you peace, and thanks for all the help you gave us.
Through you and others on this board...you gave us hope and the confidence
to ask questions, and somehow feel we knew what to expect.
You have been a "trailblazer" as mentioned earler...it is so sad cancer can destroy
the lives of such great people. Peace to you and your family
Cheryl
Joined: Jul 2009
Oh Dear John....I am shocked
Oh Dear John....I am shocked by the raw candor of your words. I wish for you the most peaceful journey
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Everything remains as it was.
The old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no sorrow in your tone.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort
Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner.
All is well. Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting, when we meet again.
Peggy
Joined: Oct 2007
Oh, my
Wow, everyone has said such beautiful things. If your message wasn't painful enough...i'm drenched in tears.
You are such an important member of this board, John. What are we going to do without you? I wish to God there was some way to change this. Why can't we just reach into our bodies, and scrape off the disease from our organs, and that would be that?
Like everyone else on this board, my heart is breaking, and i am cyber hugging you, and comforting you, and telling you my vision of heaven, which is just the same as the most beautiful, and peaceful place you've ever seen in your life; times ten.
I pray your passing is painless, and that the warmth of everyone's love engulfs you and carries you home.
Many hugs, and much love.
Krista
Joined: Sep 2008
I'm sorry
John, as a fellow cancer survivor, thank you for inspiring me to fight even harder. You did not lose the battle, you served your time honorably. May God Bless you and your family, Randy
Joined: Jul 2008
May you have many good days left on earth
Dear John,
I am so sad to read your post. You've been such a big positive part of this board and you will truly by missed by all of us. My precious husband David was in your same situation. He was told in April last year about his liver failure and went on hospice. He lived five more months and had some very good days. In fact most of them were very good. He was not in pain and I doubt you will be either. Please know what a precious difference you have made in the lives of so many.
Wishing you love,
Priscilla
Joined: Jul 2006
John, many blessings to you
John, many blessings to you for peace of mind, warmth of heart, and the knowledge that you have made a difference to so many people - you are loved. Prayers and thoughts are with you and yours....Katie
Joined: Jun 2009
Dear One
Dear One,
I have been trying to write something meaningful to you but I can not find the right words. All I know is that you have so freely given of yourself to us. You have shared from the depths of your heart, soul and mind. Always ready to help and share your experiences with us. Thank you, thank you, thank you for your selfless service to our country and for all the trails you have blazed in this crazy cancer battle. You will never be forgotten. I think of you often and still when I realize a breath I take I think and pray for you my friend.
May the Lord bless you and hold you in His loving arms. Peace and comfort to you.
Debbie
Joined: May 2008
John
I am so sorry.
michelle
Joined: Mar 2011
Goodbye John
Godspeed
Joined: Jun 2009
Thanks for the good fight.
Thanks for the good fight. I'm sure because of you the others behind us wont have to fight as hard. See you on the other side my friend
Brooks
Joined: Mar 2009
I pray for you to have
I pray for you to have comfort and to know that everything will be ok. God Bless. I am at a loss for words.
Joined: Mar 2011
What a Great Man
For so long you have stared this disease in the face and with great dignity you have fought it. Many battles you have won and some you have lost but over the course of your battle you gave cancer all it could handle. So now your body has said it can fight no more and soon you will be at peace. But know this my friend that although your body will no longer walk this Earth your spirit will live on in the eyes of your son and in the hearts of your family here. When your time does come and you take your last breath I hope you can hear all of us here saying thank you for all that you stood for. I pray that your family will find comfort and peace in knowing that you are no longer suffering and you are in a place where cancer is not even a word spoken. God Bless you my friend and good bye.
Joined: Aug 2006
Respect
John you honor us all with you courage. In my career a salute from your people with whom you served meant more than any medal. In our fights with cancer we all serve together here. Attention...there is a hero on deck... hand salute!
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