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Looks like the decision isn't going to be mine to make!

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Thanks for everyones words of encouragement. And Thanks to craig for the tribute. I went to the ER again on tuesday because I didn't feel my pneumonia had cleared. I was very short of breath. I had 3 Pulmonary embolisms. I've lost a ton of lung function. I'm on oxygen and blood thinners. It's very hard to maintain proper O2 saturation and I see little room for improvement. Sadly, The PEs occurred in the lung with the least tumor involvement. The Drs are confident I will get to go home, but they have ruled out any future cancer treatment. I'll keep you guys posted.

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So very sorry to hear of this latest complication.

I know you have fought hard and are still doing so, so that you can get home to your family.

I pray that you and your family can have much more time together.


Marie who loves kitties

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Hope you get better soon ! take care ,rest and get strong enouht to continuing fighting !.
Cheer up my friend y pray for you and your people!

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John ever since I came on the board you and everyone else have shown me the true meaning of the word fight. Your an amazing man who hasn't given up, and your family would be proud of you for that. If your body is ready to give in, it's not because you haven't fought tooth and nail, for yourself or your family. I too pray you get to go home and have more time with your family.

Love and hugs

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hi john,

you are in my thoughts.

my prayers are for you and your son and your family,


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John you and your family are in my prayers today. You work on getting well and let them just love you. You have so much to fight for, so enjoy all of it. Love, Jean

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Man...I am at a loss for words. No more cancer treatments???? The pneumonia is still there?? Dang, I thought that was clearing up. Please keep the faith John..... You are a soldier and stand strong with everything. You will figure out your next move when you get home...thats just how you roll. Take care... love ya!


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I am so sorry to hear this. Thank-you for posting.

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John, you are very welcome and it was a privilege to be able to do something for you.

I understand O2 sat levels and their signifigance, so this news caught my attention right away - you were the 1st thing I saw today when I logged on.

So, I'm very concerned at the latest news from you. I'm upset that this is the result and anxiously await more updates from you.

You are very much being thought of:)


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I had a pe a few weeks after liver surgery and I thought I would never breathe normally again or have the energy to walk across a room. Fortunately time helps. Have faith that things will improve and don't give up. Just take it a day at a time and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers ............hang in there.

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Just hang in there and get yourself home, the best place to heal. As far as future chemo treatments, who knows for sure. Like the board always says, one step at a time and one day at a hime.

Hugs - Tina

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do you feel them? Safe and warm!

BIG hugs to you, dearheart! Rest well.

Hugs, Kathi

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i wish i could shake your hand and give you a hug.you have always been on this board since i joined.hang in there and enjoy every moment with your family...Godbless...johnnybegood

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Sorry that you are going thru this. I will keep you and your family in my prayers and thoughts. Stay strong.


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I know you must be weary of all these additional complications and rightfully so. This damn cancer train takes all kinds of twists and turns that can wear anyone out. Just hang in there and remember one step at a time. It's when we do that that we get to put some steps together and find we are getting somewhere. For now let's just concetrate on getting you well enough to get out of the hospital and then take it from there. Sometimes when we look at the big picture ... it seems just so overwhelming. Try and break it down into smaller pieces and it becomes more manageable. Then you can tackle one thing at a time and make some headway.

I am saying some extra prayers for you and hoping for a speedy recover for you. Extra HUGS for you and your family.

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gotta remember, til the last breath is taken there is still hope.....I have you in my thoughts and prayers buddy, be strong............Clift

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You are a brave man who I respect so much. I pray that you will be at peace and enjoy your time with your family. I am also praying for your wife and child.


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John..I just want to tell you that you are in my thoughts and that I am praying that your pain will diminish.I have kept up with your posts and always admired your determination to do what you felt had to be done such as researching indepth, going to a foreign country for treatment, etc, and flicking your finger at cancer every chance you got. I must say that I think you are a much stronger individual that I ever could be.

I am glad you will be able to go home soon. My thoughts will continue to be with you and your loved ones.Peace & love to you John.


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I am so very sorry to hear that things are not going well right now. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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John, am so sorry to read this latest news. I continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. Sending big hugs for you all. Joyce

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So sorry to hear you are going through this ... just want you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.


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I am with Ron!!!!

dearest ((((((JOHN))))))))


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We are all pulling for you. You have had a tough road but have maintained a great attitude - you are obviously a very strong and intelligent person. Stamina is tough to maintain - but you can do it.

These PE's will resolve and be re-absorbed over some time, a few weeks. I suspect your need for oxygen will also be reduced over time. Give the blood thinners and your body a chance to work before you make up your mind. Once you are through the acute phase I suspect other treatment doors will open.

Keep the faith, we are all thinking of you.


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I'm a little late getting to reading posts....I really hope you're feeling some improvement in your breathing and everything else after some meds. Bust those PE's!


Fight for my love
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My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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Hi John,

I'm saddened to hear your news & I know your fighting spirit has kept you going for a long time & sometimes people have to lay their battle gear down. I just hope and pray that it really isn't the case for you now- someone just mentioned here they had a PE also & that it was bad at first, but did get better. Don't give up, John- things can still get better. You know we are all rooting for you here & I am also praying you will be strengthened again.

Hugs to you,

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John, I hope you get out of the hospital soon and begin to recover. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.

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I hated to hear this news, and I'm standing here by you as you go through this latest development.

all the best, Leslie

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