No woman is an Island either....

aysemari
aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Ladies,

first off I really missed you all. It's funny how you make a connection to people
just by posting on a board.

I was in my shell for quiet some time now. I am just biding my time till I am
reunited with the city that makes me feel alive. And woods and ocean...

Though I didn't make a peep, I never stopped caring and checking on you.

I found a saying by Georgia O'Keefe that goes like this:

"The cure for loneliness is solitude"

And suddenly I knew what I was doing.

Love,
Ayse

Comments

  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
    #2
    Sometimes you have to take a
    Sometimes you have to take a break and crawl inside yourself in order to heal. Glad you are back. that quote was so spot on.
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    #3
    carkris said:

    Sometimes you have to take a
    Sometimes you have to take a break and crawl inside yourself in order to heal. Glad you are back. that quote was so spot on.

    Ayse--I'm glad to hear from you
    Every day you are closer to your goal of starting a brand new life in a brand new city.
    :( for me but :) for you!

    Let's set up a play date soon!

    Hugs, Renee
  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    #4
    Ayse, I missed your posts
    Ayse, I missed your posts but am glad you are back.

    P.S. I LOVE your new pic!!
  • Jean 0609
    Jean 0609 Member Posts: 2,462
    #5
    Hi Ayse,
    You look great! Thanks for checking in. Hope you are able to make your move back to the "city" soon. Hugs, Jean
  • Bella Luna
    Bella Luna Member Posts: 1,578 Member
    #6
    So good to hear from you.
    So good to hear from you. You look beautiful in your pic. Love the colors! How exciting... it sounds like your move back to the BIG APPLE is underway! So happy for you!
    BL
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
    #7
    Bella Luna said:

    So good to hear from you.
    So good to hear from you. You look beautiful in your pic. Love the colors! How exciting... it sounds like your move back to the BIG APPLE is underway! So happy for you!
    BL

    Yes I can relate. I've been
    Yes I can relate. I've been in solitude for a while myself. I love the quote. Sometimes I don't know what to do with my feelings and sometimes I am alone then I rush back into life before I go over the edge. The edge meaning, I might want to stay home in solitude and I know that isn't good for me.

    Getting through the medical battle was a fight that I was prepared to do, now I'm left with the battle of my mind. Your picture is beautiful and best of luck on the move to The Big Apple!I have the feeling that I might need a geographical cure, maybe you've inspired me.
    Hugs,
    Wanda
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
    #8
    I love the photo, welcome
    I love the photo, welcome back. When is your reunion with the city?

    For me, those times of solitude and reflection are what allow me to face the world. They give me the strength and courage to deal with the ugly stuff life presents.

    Thank you for caring, and for checking on us.

    Hugs,

    Linda
  • Heatherbelle
    Heatherbelle Member Posts: 1,226 Member
    #9
    I missed you too :)

    I missed you too :)
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #10
    Heatherbelle said:

    I missed you too :)

    I missed you too :)

    Ayse .. Cute new Photo of you .. when R you leaving that
    hot, windy State of Arizona for NYC ?? Thinking about you lately, and wishing you had more friends and family around you .... Glad you are making the move back to NYC.. Lights, hussle and bussle ... Love it all


    •☆.•*´¨`*••♥ Vicki Sam ♥••*´¨`*•.☆•
  • mariam_11_09
    mariam_11_09 Member Posts: 691 Member
    #11
    oh Ayse how beautiful!
    It
    oh Ayse how beautiful!

    It reminds me of a poem by Hafiz called 'My Eyes So Soft'

    Don't surrender your loneliness so quickly
    Let it cut more deep.

    Let it ferment and season you
    As few humans
    Or even divine ingredients can

    Something missing in my heart tonight
    Has made my eyes so soft
    My voice so tender

    My need of God
    Absolutely clear.
  • lizzie17
    lizzie17 Member Posts: 548
    #12
    solitude
    My family and friends won't let me have the solitude that I feel like I need to heal. Between working every day, and all the day to day stuff----sometimes I just need to be left alone.
    I feel it is essential for me, and I wish it wasn't something that makes those close to me concerned.
  • KayNYC
    KayNYC Member Posts: 495 Member
    #13
    Welcome back
    Love your new photo.You look great. Happy to hear you are closer to your dream of relocation. Great to have you back.Are you here in the Big Apple enjoying the beautiful Fall weather?
    Hugs, K
  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613
    #14
    Good to see you post!
    I love your photo :)

    I hope and pray you are reunited with such lovliness to surround you.


    Hugs,

    Sylvia
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #15
    KayNYC said:

    Welcome back
    Love your new photo.You look great. Happy to hear you are closer to your dream of relocation. Great to have you back.Are you here in the Big Apple enjoying the beautiful Fall weather?
    Hugs, K

    Kay,
    if it's ok with you, I will let you know and we can catch a play
    or eat some YUMMMY New York cheese cake.

    I started the process, it will still take about 2-3 months.

    Ayse
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #16
    mariam_11_09 said:

    oh Ayse how beautiful!
    It
    oh Ayse how beautiful!

    It reminds me of a poem by Hafiz called 'My Eyes So Soft'

    Don't surrender your loneliness so quickly
    Let it cut more deep.

    Let it ferment and season you
    As few humans
    Or even divine ingredients can

    Something missing in my heart tonight
    Has made my eyes so soft
    My voice so tender

    My need of God
    Absolutely clear.

    Lovely Poem

    Thank you for sharing, I actually looked up some more poems from
    Hafiz.

    Ayse
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #17
    My Halloween Costume
    This was me on Halloween, one of my favorite Holidays. I loved to dress up and be silly
    and really act my part. I almost didn't go anywhere but in the last minute I thought heck
    no, cancer won't take Halloween from me. I have started my Chemo again, Herceptin and
    have about 6 more treatments left but this is not so bad by itself.

    Here's some interesting tid bit. I bought this outfit on impulse when I was in an indian part
    of NYC and then I didn't know what to do with it. So I had a friend from Morroco and sometimes
    just for fun he would wear his traditional clothes and I would wear this and we would pretend
    we were visiting NYC and have drink and fun conversations. Only once did I pretend I couldn't
    speak english. My crazy friend was telling all kind of wild tales about me and I had to do all I
    can not to laugh.

    Ayse

Discussion Boards