Lung metastasis

Well now there's spread to the lung. I have to get it CT'ed on Monday so they can get a better look at it, and figure out what to do about it. Surgery is a given, but the onc doesn't know what kind. He's taking it to the tumor board the day after the CT. I told him i don't want any more surgery...damn i'm sick of surgeries. I think i'd rather do chemo, but my onc says they no longer treat tumors with chemo until surgery has been done first. Whatever.

I feel like all the hard work i've been doing; changing my diet, drinking nasty pom juice, supplementing, has all been for naught. I'm telling myself that i just haven't been doing it long enough, and i need to give it more time, and be even more rigid with myself. There are days i don't drink the pom juice, and sometimes i forget my supplements. I need to do better. I feel i may not have the time i need. Four months ago, at my last PET scan, there was nothing on the lung. Now it's lit up like a Christmas tree. I said i wouldn't do chemo unless a tumor formed, but even though one has, i still don't want to do chemo. I feel fine, and healthy. By looking at me, you'd never know i have stage IV colorectal cancer. I feel better than i have in five years! If i start doing chemo, all of that will change. I'm very confused as to what to do. Any suggestions?