ONE YEAR AGO THIS WEEK (22ND) SURGERY PERFORMED, OUR JOURNEY BEGAN AND NOW DONE

Hello all my CSN friends,

I don't post much but wanted to celebrate the one year anniversary of Jeff having the IVOR LEWIS SURGERY. Yes for the ones wondering I was like you, I was scared, and didn't know what to expect, i was petriffied, and starting wearing my BIG GIRL PANTIES!!! Wow!!! was this a journey to remember. Surgery was good, but on day 2 of surgery was only given 24 to 72 hours to live, not due to the surgery but due to his lungs, as the doctor told me and his mother "HE HAS SICK SICK LUNGS" so with that said he was in ICU for 12 days, then all of a sudden he woke up and hospital calling me and he was up and moving along. From there we went to a floor to home and to many many appts. I never imagined that i would ever walk a journey with someone with cancer. I have met so many wonderful people on this site since I signed on a little over a year ago. Most of the friends are still around and posting and some we have lost and went to be with our GOD in heaven. I was so blessed that his was operable especially at such at young age he was only 45 at the time. Wow I wore those BIG GIRL PANTIES for about 6 months.

Jeff had some AWESOME DOCTORS, they were there through everything the surgeon never left us made rounds twice a day and always called me if I wasn't there. The nurses were the best, but the best one is the caregiver.

Being a caregiver to someone that has Cancer, is very hard, your there holding their heads, cleaning them up, letting them know they can do this, plus working a 40 hour week and trying to keep everything as normal as possible in life.

I have had alot of things happen in my life but this was one AMAZING JOURNEY, and I would walk these shoes again, BUT, i would know what to expect, how to deal with it, and what to expect, I wouldn't be in the dark wondering what was going to happen next or what bad news is in line.

Jeff still goes for appointments every 3-4 months to see the oncologist and have a Pet Scan done, and you always wonder in the back of your mind will it be back, you just have to hope for the best. Today was good news.

To all my CSN friends, as you see I talk about Jeff throughout this journal, not my husband well I have kept it away long enough we are no longer husband and wife, we are friends. Cancer does some ugly things to you and for out of respect of others I won't go into detail, but it has been for the best, we still talk, we still care but we grew out of love, and without love you cannot be in a relationship.

I still feel like a caregiver, and always will there is always a little part in my heart that cares, and always will it was just time i moved on it was for the best.

I will continue to post and read other posts, and will help whenever I can, cause without my CSN family I wouldn't have got this far.

Yes I have retired my BIG GIRL PANTIES, but if I ever had to deal with CANCER again, i would know what to expect.

I hope everyone fights this disease and keeps it away esophogeal cancer is a disease that is hitting more and more people everyday, lets fight it.

now to sign off this is for you KITTEN0385(LOOKING DOWN ON US)

LIFE ISN'T ABOUT WAITING FOR A STORM TO PASS, ITS LEARNING HOW TO DANCE IN THE RAIN"

Love to you all

Lori aka MOE58