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Sue,
I imagine it is a combination of everything. So much stuff goes thru your mind at a time like this. Even after treatment starts it does not end. You wonder if it is working,what the next round will be like,will it be better or worse etc. etc. It gets to the point it all overwhelms you and you start to mentally break down at times. Some,Iguess handle it in a different way, but it is still on their minds. I know it is on my mind all the time. You can find other things to occupy your self, but then it flashes thru your head again. The mind is so powerful and it more or less controls everything in the way we look at things. John0 -
crying
Hey Sue I hear you, it is a very emotional roller coaster ride, but I have found that you can't waste any energy on the things you can't change. It may seem crazy now, but you will find inner strength to get you through it!!!!!!!! Not to sound cocky but I have been through it before, I will get throughit again God willing!!!! Stay Positive, laugh a lot!!!! Vinny0 -
Thanks guys...vinny59 said:crying
Hey Sue I hear you, it is a very emotional roller coaster ride, but I have found that you can't waste any energy on the things you can't change. It may seem crazy now, but you will find inner strength to get you through it!!!!!!!! Not to sound cocky but I have been through it before, I will get throughit again God willing!!!! Stay Positive, laugh a lot!!!! Vinny
Your both right. Today is a "NEW" day...and I've already made some adjustments. Hubby and I went out for breakfat and then took a litle ride. Thats more than what I did yesterday. I need to get out more and quit isolating myself to home. Each day I need to tell myself..Vinny...John...Mary...Beth, etc are here for me. They are doing it and SO CAN I! There is strength and safety in numbers. I promise to do better!
God bless us all!...Sue0 -
DOING JUST FINEallmost60 said:Thanks guys...
Your both right. Today is a "NEW" day...and I've already made some adjustments. Hubby and I went out for breakfat and then took a litle ride. Thats more than what I did yesterday. I need to get out more and quit isolating myself to home. Each day I need to tell myself..Vinny...John...Mary...Beth, etc are here for me. They are doing it and SO CAN I! There is strength and safety in numbers. I promise to do better!
God bless us all!...Sue
Sue, you are doing just fine. We all went thru it and still are. Good days and the bad days.0 -
Been ThereCOBRA666 said:DOING JUST FINE
Sue, you are doing just fine. We all went thru it and still are. Good days and the bad days.
Yep, like Cobra said, We are all going through it or have been through it. I've definitely had days where I layed around and cried. I think I whine more than my daughter does most days
It gets easier with time though, you kinda get used to it. Take care and God Bless! 0 -
Did my shareTracie1981 said:Been There
Yep, like Cobra said, We are all going through it or have been through it. I've definitely had days where I layed around and cried. I think I whine more than my daughter does most days It gets easier with time though, you kinda get used to it. Take care and God Bless!
I certainly did my share of crying too. I would sit in the chat room and type and cry, cry some more, type and cry and whine. People there walked me through it and showed me how to enjoy humor, get me laughing.
It's a process. We'll be there for you!
Beth0 -
We're here for youdixiegirl said:Did my share
I certainly did my share of crying too. I would sit in the chat room and type and cry, cry some more, type and cry and whine. People there walked me through it and showed me how to enjoy humor, get me laughing.
It's a process. We'll be there for you!
Beth
I'm still waiting on my treatment plan as well, I have stage iv. So... boy can I relate. I'm trying to work (last week I worked the entire 5 days and was quite proud) but when I get home I am more tired than I have ever been in my life, plus my abs hurt from the lymphoma there. So I fall apart. Then I get up the next day and do it all over again and try so hard to have a normal day forgetting that hey... this is the "new normal". So I then adjust my thinking and give myself a break! Vinnie is right - laughter is soooo good for you. I'm also finding great strength in the love and prayers of friends and even friends of friends. (Not to forget this sight as well!!)
One other thing that I am going to do (hopefully before treatment) is to go on a spiritual retreat. I figure that in order to fight this with both barrels loaded I need all the spiritual strength I can get!
God bless and know that you can definately do this. Be kind to yourself, laugh,love and let people hold you up. (BTW I have one of those totally supportive husbands too... we are really blessed!)0 -
Mine are in my abdomen asonlytoday said:We're here for you
I'm still waiting on my treatment plan as well, I have stage iv. So... boy can I relate. I'm trying to work (last week I worked the entire 5 days and was quite proud) but when I get home I am more tired than I have ever been in my life, plus my abs hurt from the lymphoma there. So I fall apart. Then I get up the next day and do it all over again and try so hard to have a normal day forgetting that hey... this is the "new normal". So I then adjust my thinking and give myself a break! Vinnie is right - laughter is soooo good for you. I'm also finding great strength in the love and prayers of friends and even friends of friends. (Not to forget this sight as well!!)
One other thing that I am going to do (hopefully before treatment) is to go on a spiritual retreat. I figure that in order to fight this with both barrels loaded I need all the spiritual strength I can get!
God bless and know that you can definately do this. Be kind to yourself, laugh,love and let people hold you up. (BTW I have one of those totally supportive husbands too... we are really blessed!)
Mine are in my abdomen as well. I have the soreness at times too. I wonder if it is the tumors shrinking that cause it. It worries me at times. What do you think? John0 -
Know what you mean
Know what you mean Sue...it's 4:12 in the morning here and I'm on here instead of sleeping because my brain is in overdrive. You have alot on your plate and as you mentioned to me in a previous post, it's common to be an emotional wreck. That's O.K.; however, it's extremely important that you get your rest. Lay down and take a nap today and go to your "happy place". You WILL GET through this...I need you as I help my wife prepare for this road to recovery. Mark0 -
AbsCOBRA666 said:Mine are in my abdomen as
Mine are in my abdomen as well. I have the soreness at times too. I wonder if it is the tumors shrinking that cause it. It worries me at times. What do you think? John
John,
Has the ab discomfort changed since you started treatment? I haven't started treatment yet so I think mine are pressing on something, very deep ache. Also, have you ever bent over and when you come up something in your ab feels "caught or stuck"? I've had that for awhile and am wondering if it is related... seems like it must be.
I would think that as you get treatment and the tumors shrink it sould cause new symptoms. Make sense to you?
How did you feel this week?0 -
ABSonlytoday said:Abs
John,
Has the ab discomfort changed since you started treatment? I haven't started treatment yet so I think mine are pressing on something, very deep ache. Also, have you ever bent over and when you come up something in your ab feels "caught or stuck"? I've had that for awhile and am wondering if it is related... seems like it must be.
I would think that as you get treatment and the tumors shrink it sould cause new symptoms. Make sense to you?
How did you feel this week?
HERES THE DEAL WITH ME. I NEVER HAD ANY DISCOMFORTAT ALL BEFORE TREATMENT. I DID FEEL A TIGHTNESS IN MY BACK WHEN I WAS DRIVING. I COULD FEEL THE LUMPS IN MY STOMACH WHEN I LAY ON MY BACK. AFTER I STARTED TREATMENT I FELT THEM START TO MELT ALMOST RIGHT AWAY. BE RIGHT BACK0 -
abdomen also...COBRA666 said:Mine are in my abdomen as
Mine are in my abdomen as well. I have the soreness at times too. I wonder if it is the tumors shrinking that cause it. It worries me at times. What do you think? John
I haven't even started treatment yet and my tummy does weird things.Looking back, it's been doing this off and on for over a year or better...(before being diagnosed). It always feels like I have a pair of pants on that are too tight around the waste...make sense? I can be standing in the shower naked and I swear it still feels like I have something around my waist thats too tight. Also...after two or three bites of food (any food) I start to feel full and then a twisting feeling occurs like someone is opening and closing their fist in my belly. I've always been a little bit hyper, so I kind of figured this feeling was attributed to that. The last few times I've eaten mixed nuts from Costco they have really intensified the twisting feeling so I've decide not to eat nuts anymore. I'm thinkin it's the cancer and tumors causing this discomfort....what do you think?0 -
I'll be herefriendm7 said:Know what you mean
Know what you mean Sue...it's 4:12 in the morning here and I'm on here instead of sleeping because my brain is in overdrive. You have alot on your plate and as you mentioned to me in a previous post, it's common to be an emotional wreck. That's O.K.; however, it's extremely important that you get your rest. Lay down and take a nap today and go to your "happy place". You WILL GET through this...I need you as I help my wife prepare for this road to recovery. Mark
Thanks Mark...I'll be here. Last week was just a bad week and it all caught up with me by Friday. First the BMB test on Tuesday and then my oldest sons boss passed away the day before from lung and liver cancer. He lived 17 days from the time he was diagnosed. I'm sure theres alot of info that hasn't been shared with people outside of his family, but it was still scary and very up-setting for all of us. My prayers will be with you and your wife as she goes in this coming week for treatment...Good luck!....Sue0 -
Thanks....onlytoday said:We're here for you
I'm still waiting on my treatment plan as well, I have stage iv. So... boy can I relate. I'm trying to work (last week I worked the entire 5 days and was quite proud) but when I get home I am more tired than I have ever been in my life, plus my abs hurt from the lymphoma there. So I fall apart. Then I get up the next day and do it all over again and try so hard to have a normal day forgetting that hey... this is the "new normal". So I then adjust my thinking and give myself a break! Vinnie is right - laughter is soooo good for you. I'm also finding great strength in the love and prayers of friends and even friends of friends. (Not to forget this sight as well!!)
One other thing that I am going to do (hopefully before treatment) is to go on a spiritual retreat. I figure that in order to fight this with both barrels loaded I need all the spiritual strength I can get!
God bless and know that you can definately do this. Be kind to yourself, laugh,love and let people hold you up. (BTW I have one of those totally supportive husbands too... we are really blessed!)
Thank you onlytoday....I know I'm not alone and appreciate everyone being here. Please share when you start your treatment...I'm anxious to learn and hear how each one of us fare with our treatment programs. We WILL progress in a positive direction! I'd say I feel that in my bones....but I better wait to say that until my BMB results come back....ha!ha!0 -
Did my share...dixiegirl said:Did my share
I certainly did my share of crying too. I would sit in the chat room and type and cry, cry some more, type and cry and whine. People there walked me through it and showed me how to enjoy humor, get me laughing.
It's a process. We'll be there for you!
Beth
Hi Beth....As soon as I sent my whiney message off to the group I wanted to reach in my computer and grab it right back...ha! It's nice to know more than one of us has tear drops on our keyboards. Each day gets a little better and I know there will days I slip back a few steps. Indeed.. this cancer business is a process! Thank goodness for all of you!....Sue0 -
ABS (CONTINUE)COBRA666 said:ABS
HERES THE DEAL WITH ME. I NEVER HAD ANY DISCOMFORTAT ALL BEFORE TREATMENT. I DID FEEL A TIGHTNESS IN MY BACK WHEN I WAS DRIVING. I COULD FEEL THE LUMPS IN MY STOMACH WHEN I LAY ON MY BACK. AFTER I STARTED TREATMENT I FELT THEM START TO MELT ALMOST RIGHT AWAY. BE RIGHT BACK
AS TIME WENT ON I FELT THEM GET EVEN SMALLER. THE ABDOMEN ACTUALLY STARTED TO FEEL SOFTER. THE TUMORS WERE 5 AND 6 CMS. I HAD OTHERS IN THE SAME AREA THAT WERE SMALLER. I GUESS ALL BEING TOGETHER IS WHY I COULD FEEL THEM. TRY LAYING ON YOUR BACK AND PRESS IN THE CENTER OF YOUR ABDOMEN AND SEE IF YOU FEEL ANY THING. LATELY I HAVE BEEN FEELING SOME SLIGHT PAINS IN THAT AREA AND WAS WONDERING IF IT WAS THE TUMORS SHRINKING AND OTHER ORGANS MOVING AROUND. JOHN0 -
I'LL BE HEREallmost60 said:I'll be here
Thanks Mark...I'll be here. Last week was just a bad week and it all caught up with me by Friday. First the BMB test on Tuesday and then my oldest sons boss passed away the day before from lung and liver cancer. He lived 17 days from the time he was diagnosed. I'm sure theres alot of info that hasn't been shared with people outside of his family, but it was still scary and very up-setting for all of us. My prayers will be with you and your wife as she goes in this coming week for treatment...Good luck!....Sue
Sue, Sorry to hear about your sons' boss. I hear stuff like that all the time and my mind slips back to the 60's and 70's era. It is frightening to say the least. I got to remind myself over and over this is 2010 as hard as it may be to do. We have lymphoma and not an internal organ disease. What we have is treatable and manageable. It seems like that is all I hear anymore is cancer of the lungs,liver,pancreas,kidneys,stomach,esphogas,breast. These cancers are terrible,not saying ours is by any means a picnic. Even after saying all that as soon as I hear about someone else losing a battle it starts all over again. Believe me you are not alone. John0 -
ABDOMEN TIGHTNESSallmost60 said:abdomen also...
I haven't even started treatment yet and my tummy does weird things.Looking back, it's been doing this off and on for over a year or better...(before being diagnosed). It always feels like I have a pair of pants on that are too tight around the waste...make sense? I can be standing in the shower naked and I swear it still feels like I have something around my waist thats too tight. Also...after two or three bites of food (any food) I start to feel full and then a twisting feeling occurs like someone is opening and closing their fist in my belly. I've always been a little bit hyper, so I kind of figured this feeling was attributed to that. The last few times I've eaten mixed nuts from Costco they have really intensified the twisting feeling so I've decide not to eat nuts anymore. I'm thinkin it's the cancer and tumors causing this discomfort....what do you think?
Sue,I know what you mean about the tightness. I had the same feeling as well. Mine was mostly in the back, but I did feel like my pants were to tight at times. Sometimes I feel it in the lower right and left areas in the front of the hip area. Feels like a funny movement and even aches at times. Its not that bad but is a little uncomfortable. I believe it is the tumors that are making the difference, but not positive. Its the only thing I can relate it too. John0 -
A band going around meCOBRA666 said:ABDOMEN TIGHTNESS
Sue,I know what you mean about the tightness. I had the same feeling as well. Mine was mostly in the back, but I did feel like my pants were to tight at times. Sometimes I feel it in the lower right and left areas in the front of the hip area. Feels like a funny movement and even aches at times. Its not that bad but is a little uncomfortable. I believe it is the tumors that are making the difference, but not positive. Its the only thing I can relate it too. John
Hi,
I feel like I have a band going around my lower ribs upper abs, also (this might sound like TMI but...) I can't stand wearing a bra anymore, I wear tank tops. Can't stand the pressure. Sounds like some of us have varying degrees of the the same tight feeling...0 -
A band going around meonlytoday said:A band going around me
Hi,
I feel like I have a band going around my lower ribs upper abs, also (this might sound like TMI but...) I can't stand wearing a bra anymore, I wear tank tops. Can't stand the pressure. Sounds like some of us have varying degrees of the the same tight feeling...
Me too...in the exact place you are talking about. I have not been comfortable in a bra for quite some time. I wear a weird soft granny type bra thats fits very lose around my my chest. I also sit with a soft pillow scrunched under my boobies for support when I'm watching t.v...reading...and at the computer. I'm small chested thank goodness so at least I don't have alot of bounce to worry about...ha!0
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