I DID IT! I went out in public ALL DAY yesterday topless! Read on....

I finally worked up the courage to go without a scarf! I can't believe it! I did it! I am so happy! I went everywhere! I had to go to the doctor, so I thought ok I can do this. Then I had to go to the therapist, so I thought ok I can do this. Then I figured....what the heck...just do it already! So I did! I went to a few stores and then grocery shopping. I loved it because all the ladies know me in the grocery store and one in particular last week asked if I had finished chemo. I told her yes (BTW...11 weeks post chemo today) and asked how long I was going to need the scarf. I told her maybe I'd lose it next week. So when she saw me from three checkout lanes down she totally yelled out to me and said I looked great without the scarf and was so proud of me. Of course all the other cashiers were smiling and all the customers were looking and smiling and stuff! It kinda made me feel more comfortable that she did that because then everyone in the entire grocery store knew I was recovering from chemo and cancer and just didn't have a jacked up hair cut! I also started my training for the Komen walk last night. Some of you may know that I just had expanders put in on the 10th then a 60cc fill on the 17th. I am now feeling better from that so I started walking. I go again on the 1st and yesterday I asked what kind of fill I should be expecting. 90cc to 120cc per! Yikes! I'll let ya'll know how that goes!

To all the women that have just been diagnosed...I have been reading your posts about how scared you are and how tired and painful and testing and everything. I am so sorry you all are going through this right now. This is an amazing place you've found with a group of people that are so knowledgeable, sweet, caring, loving and brave! I just can't keep up and post to each one of you, but I do want you to know that I am always thinking about each of you and I want you all to know that I too was there just in August 2009. I never in a million years then would have thought 9 months (really even sooner than that) later I would be posting such a thread as the one above. To think I would feel as good as I do now...I never thought it possible again. To feel such empowerment and uplifting from taking the final steps of this battle of a beast. Trust me and everyone else here that is supporting you through your journey....it will get better. Stay strong survivor sisters!