LisaQ

Lisa13Q said:

Hello and Thanks for thoughts
Hi Nancy,

I had along talk with the gyn/onc today which was very helpful. Essentially this is a recurrance. I don't know why I was so stunned. I should have known there would be a recurrance. I think I was terrified by the location and she clarified that it was not on the liver and was not concerned with it going into the liver. It's ovarian cancer and this is how it works. I think I was in denial. I was believing that my mother had beaten the monster. I have to admit I had a terrible night last night. My day has been better. I am amazed at the incredible attitude of all the women on this board. They are so supportive and helpful. My mother also had a great attitude. It's such a weird feeling. I feel like I'm fighting the disease too even though I'm not. I, for sure, will be back in NY more often, and I promised the doc I would not worry. She asked me to let her do the worrying, and just spend fun time with my mother. So I will try. I can't tell you how much I appreciate the thoughts and support of everyone. For me, this board is a lifesaver, and I am going to have to do something about this disease and raising money. It's a travesty how everyone knows about breast cancer and no one about this cancer!! How are you doing? When do you find out about the avastin and whether you can use it?

nancy591 said:

My sister has said the same
My sister has said the same thing you did.....she feels as though she is fighting the disease too. Like Kathleen said, your mom is likely to have such a caring daughter like you. Sometimes I feel like nobody in my family really understands what I am going through. I do get jealous they get to go on with their lives while I'm stuck in my reality. It would be so nice to have someone to hold my hand and be by my side. I also agree totally that some people do beat the disease/...even if it is only 20%...there are people in that 20% and why can't it be me!!!

I start carbo/gemzar on Monday. I will receive it in the outpatient center in Sleepy Hollow, NY. The schedule is one day one week, one day the next then two weeks off. I delayed starting it because there were events at my children's school I didn't want to miss. I already missed the Mothers Day celebration because I was having my PET/CT. Dr. S told me to call his office the 2nd week of June and they should know the results of the Avastin trials.

Did your Mom have areas on her bowels? Does she have digestive symptoms?

Best of luck. I was thinking about you after you seemed to leave so suddenly. I felt like writing "LISA WHERE ARE YOU??!!!" I am happy you have a clearer head now. Although I was upset with my progression while on the Doxil. I was relieved to finally get the results. Now I know and I can move on. Everyone says...'oh you are handling it so well' I think...well what choice do I have??

Be well!

msfanciful said:

Same here,
How dare me to
Same here,

How dare me to have the nerve after being in remission for one-year and one-month to think that I was done with stage IV OVCA?

Once I heard the work recurrence, I realized then that this beast called cancer was not going to be that easy to get rid of. I just thought, take the eight rounds of chemo, the chem will kill the cancer and then I'll be cured? NOT!

I think the real key to beating this is to just decide this is something that I will have to live with for the rest of my life and to stay as well informed about my condition as possible so that I will know what I am fighting and thus how to fight it.

We do adjust Lisa.

Stay strong,



Sharon