Today was not a good day...

Hi to all. Today was a day for the birds...

I went to visit Mom at the hospital. When I got there, I saw all of the nurses scurrying around the nurse's station and they kept saying my Mom's room number-I knew something was wrong... I went into her room and she was hooked up to pure oxygen and pale as a ghost. She said that she has a terrible pain in her lung area and couldn't breath well. The nurse pulled me aside and said that her oxygen level was dropping fast and her heart rate was extremely high. They were possibly going to put her back into ICU and put a ventilator in. I knew this was not going to be a good conversation. The nurse told me that it would be a good time to sit and have a talk with Mom about what her wishes are. Would she want to be put on a ventilator? The nurse also said that we should get her to sign a living will with her wishes. She informed me that Mom's prognosis is poor and we have to start talking about the inevitable...

They did stabilize her breathing-thank GOD, They did take her off the oncology floor for now and put her on the heart floor due to her high heart rate. They have her on a special medicine that brings that down and can only administer it to her from the heart floor. They need to figure out why she is having severe pains in her lung area. They are going to do tests tonight to see if it might be due to tumors, blood clots, or if the pleural effusion is back.

Mom popped back to her normal self again for a few hours until the pain took over. The o2 levels did drop again but came back up.

This really can be like living in a nightmare. I pray that tomorrow will be a better day and for a miracle.

I will not give up hope, Mom told me so. We always do what our Mothers tell us to.