Definitely NOT Dancing With Ned

padee6339
padee6339 Member Posts: 763
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Well, yesterday I had my mammogram. I was going to go to work and go straight to the radiologist, but due to lack of sleep and a sick stomach from nerves the night before, I didn't make it to the office. I took my Mom with me (as she was with me last September with my first diagnosis) and found out that my long-term mammo doctor had dropped my insurance. They did the mammo and a sonogram for free, can you believe that? Anyway, (getting wordy here), they did the mammo, then a magnification of the new lump, and while I was waiting for the results the technician came out and asked me if I could wait while they called my primary care physician. She said he wanted to do the sonogram and needed an order from the PCP. So I waited and then had the sonnogram. Dr. B told me that the mammo showed a suspicious area which looked very similar to last year's in the other breast. The sonogram showed something different. It showed a lump with fluid in the center which could be a cyst or hematoma, but he did not like the peripherals or the sack containing the fluid. Lucky me! I have to have another biopsy and will find out on Tuesday when I see the surgeon when it will be. I really don't want to go through this again so soon, but if I have to, I have to. At least the fear of the unknown is not there this time, I know what I will go through. Funny how calm I feel today. Last night I wanted to stand outside and scream at the top of my lungs "Bulls*&^" but kept my cool. I feel like I'm in a fog. Here we go again! Just pray with me that it is not the beast and just a bump in the road.

Love ya all!
Pat
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  • rjjj
    rjjj Member Posts: 1,822 Member
    #2
    Praying for you Pat
    I will be praying that it is just a cyst, I am really sorry you have to go through all this worry again, please keep us posted dear, we will be right here with you.
    Hugs Jackie
  • creampuff91344
    creampuff91344 Member Posts: 988
    #3
    Pat, I am so sorry to hear
    Pat, I am so sorry to hear this news, and please know that I will certainly have you in my prayers until you receive the news....good or bad. If you do have to go through this treatment process again, at least you know what to expect, and if the news is good, then you have worried for nothing. I am keeping my fingers crossed that this is just a bump in the road. Keep us posted. Lots of hugs,

    Judy
  • padee6339
    padee6339 Member Posts: 763
    #4
    creampuff91344 said:

    Pat, I am so sorry to hear
    Pat, I am so sorry to hear this news, and please know that I will certainly have you in my prayers until you receive the news....good or bad. If you do have to go through this treatment process again, at least you know what to expect, and if the news is good, then you have worried for nothing. I am keeping my fingers crossed that this is just a bump in the road. Keep us posted. Lots of hugs,

    Judy

    Thanks Judy and Jackie -
    I certainly can use all the prayers I can get. I want to dance with Ned so bad my feet tingle!!!!
    Pat
  • outdoorgirl
    outdoorgirl Member Posts: 1,565
    #5
    Pat
    hopefully it will just be a cyst or something benign.
    I'm sorry that this happened. Both mammos so far that I've had since dx I've had to have more xrays taken-I hate that because you are left in that waiting room while the radiologist is looking at them, wondering if they saw anything or not!
    Sorry that you have to go through another biopsy,keep us posted on what happens on Tuesday when you are up to it...
    My prayers are with you,Pat.
  • mickeymom
    mickeymom Member Posts: 117
    #6
    I'm so sorry!
    Hopefully it will be something else and NED is just late getting there. I am sorry you have to have a biopsy. You're definately in my prayers.
  • e_hope
    e_hope Member Posts: 370
    #7
    Sorry to hear... Hope
    Sorry to hear... Hope everything turns out in your favor... keep us posted
  • tgf
    tgf Member Posts: 950 Member
    #8
    e_hope said:

    Sorry to hear... Hope
    Sorry to hear... Hope everything turns out in your favor... keep us posted

    Pat
    Sorry to hear that you have to go through all the tests etc. again. I'll be thinking of you and hope the news is good news.

    hugs.
    teena
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    #9
    :-(
    Oh Pat, I am so sorry you are having to deal with this I know how scary (as we all do) it can be. I will be praying for you and sending cyber hugs your way. Should it turn out to be a recureance you can do this too, I know as I had to. It is doable and you we are here for you! Wishing there was more I could do for you!

    <<<<<<<<<<HUGS>>>>>>>>>>

    RE
  • padee6339
    padee6339 Member Posts: 763
    #10
    RE said:

    :-(
    Oh Pat, I am so sorry you are having to deal with this I know how scary (as we all do) it can be. I will be praying for you and sending cyber hugs your way. Should it turn out to be a recureance you can do this too, I know as I had to. It is doable and you we are here for you! Wishing there was more I could do for you!

    <<<<<<<<<<HUGS>>>>>>>>>>

    RE

    Thank You so much
    Everyone - I can feel your strength and love and know this will probably turn out to be nothing. If not, then I'll just have to deal with it - right? I can do it with all of you behind me, next to me, and on my shoulder. There is strength in numbers and I love you all!
    Thanks - and have a great weekend everyone!
    Pat
  • Christmas Girl
    Christmas Girl Member Posts: 3,682 Member
    #11
    So sorry, Pat
    Of course, I'll be sincerely hoping this is definitely a mere "bump in the road" for you - and nothing more than that.

    Try not to worry too much (I know, I know - easier said than done). Wish you didn't have to endure this stress, and more waiting. I'll be hoping Tuesday comes soon enough, when you'll learn of the timing of your next step.

    Best wishes to you.
  • padee6339
    padee6339 Member Posts: 763
    #12
    Christmas Girl said:

    So sorry, Pat
    Of course, I'll be sincerely hoping this is definitely a mere "bump in the road" for you - and nothing more than that.

    Try not to worry too much (I know, I know - easier said than done). Wish you didn't have to endure this stress, and more waiting. I'll be hoping Tuesday comes soon enough, when you'll learn of the timing of your next step.

    Best wishes to you.

    Thanks
    Thanks Christmas girl, I wish it were over, but...........ah oh well!
    Have a great weekend!
    Pat
  • mimivac
    mimivac Member Posts: 2,143 Member
    #13
    Oh damn
    I was hoping the mammogram would be totally clear. But still, Pat, the sonogram showed what could be a cyst or hematoma, so please don't despair yet. We are here for you no matter what. But I am still holding out for totally benign.

    Mimi
  • padee6339
    padee6339 Member Posts: 763
    #14
    mimivac said:

    Oh damn
    I was hoping the mammogram would be totally clear. But still, Pat, the sonogram showed what could be a cyst or hematoma, so please don't despair yet. We are here for you no matter what. But I am still holding out for totally benign.

    Mimi

    Hi Mimi
    Me too - my heart and head tell me its benign. I felt scared with the first one, this time I don't so maybe that's a sign.
    You have a wonderful weekend and thanks!
    Pat
  • fauxma
    fauxma Member Posts: 3,577 Member
    #15
    padee6339 said:

    Hi Mimi
    Me too - my heart and head tell me its benign. I felt scared with the first one, this time I don't so maybe that's a sign.
    You have a wonderful weekend and thanks!
    Pat

    Pat,
    My most positive
    Pat,
    My most positive thoughts and prayers are coming to you that this is benign and NED is just trying to be fashionably late. Glad to see you have a good attitude should it be something more. You are strong and will do what you need to do, but again I am wishing and hoping that this is a big nothing.
    Stef
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    #16
    padee6339 said:

    Hi Mimi
    Me too - my heart and head tell me its benign. I felt scared with the first one, this time I don't so maybe that's a sign.
    You have a wonderful weekend and thanks!
    Pat

    Hey Pat....
    Of course I am praying for you. I had 7 benign lumpectomies before my eighth one was malignant. Maybe you are doing the opposite! You had your malignant one, so anymore will turn out to be benign! Keep us posted. ♥Pammy
  • mmontero38
    mmontero38 Member Posts: 1,510
    #17
    Pat I'm crossing my fingers
    Pat I'm crossing my fingers and saying lots of prayers that it is a benign cyst. Please keep us posted. Hugs, Lili
  • mmontero38
    mmontero38 Member Posts: 1,510
    #18
    Pat I'm crossing my fingers
    Pat I'm crossing my fingers and saying lots of prayers that it is a benign cyst. Please keep us posted. Hugs, Lili
  • mmontero38
    mmontero38 Member Posts: 1,510
    #19
    Pat I'm crossing my fingers
    Pat I'm crossing my fingers and saying lots of prayers that it is a benign cyst. Please keep us posted. Hugs, Lili
  • Tux
    Tux Member Posts: 544
    #20
    Pat, so sorry to hear that
    Pat, so sorry to hear that "something" has come up. Please keep us posted on what is happening. Sending hugs & payers your way....
  • mgm42
    mgm42 Member Posts: 491 Member
    #21
    You're facing my worst nightmare....
    Oh, Pat. Please know how very sorry I am for what you are going through, and that I'm amazed and encouraged by your attitude. You are facing my worst nightmare - yet another mammogram which shows something suspcious and the interminable waiting - AGAIN! You are so strong. I'm sure we'll all be watching for your posts. And, I'm thinking positively that you WILL DANCE WITH NED. Hugs, Mariynn

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