Help! I'm tired & I can't think

Jashe: One day at a time, keep putting one foot in front of the other, keep breathing in and out, and most of all, be patient. You will get past the tiredness, the forgetfulness. At first it seems to take forever, you think these symptoms will never go away and you will never be the same...it takes a long time. Improvements are incremental, slow but daily. You don't wake up one day and "poof" you feel fine. I am one year out after ending 8 rounds of chemo. I can say compared to a year ago, I feel like a million bucks...but it took that long. Keep resting, keep being patinet with yourself. Your hair, eyeleashes, will grow back, so will your brain cells. I had to go on a mild anti-depressant to help me through to the end, and it DID help me. I still have some stomach sensitivity, but tolerable...I just don't drink soda anymore, and no more chili peppers. No big deal. Keep moving forward, its a long road, but persistence and patience, and belief that God believes in You will get you there. ---Laura

Hi,

The tiredness does get better, but it takes along time. I had 6 months of Taxol and Carboplatin 4 years ago, so I understand how you feel. I still have days when I forget a word in mid-sentence. I hate it! But at least we can blame it on the chemo, right? When I was first in remission I was also worried all the time about recurrence, somedays I would get sick to my stomach with worry. Finally, I decided I couldn't live like that anymore. I promised myself not to let myself ever get that scared and worried again, and I haven't. It does get easier with time. But we have two choices, we can either make our lives better or be anxious and worried about every little pain we feel. My oncologist told me early on that if I have a pain that last longer than a week or two then I should have it checked out.

After chemo I had to start taking nexium, it's for acid re-flux desease, and also my throid is low so I had to start taking Synthoid. Gee, I hope this helps. Feel free to email me if you have any other questions.

Luann

THERE IS STILL HOPE
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Chemo Brain
I found it hard to think also. Hard time remembering things etc.I had forgot that I was at the Oncologists office for a shot to keep my white cells up. The next time I was there I asked if it hurt. They said you had the shot before and I insisted I did not. Anyway the nurse said I had chemo brain. I thoguht she was kidding. A few weeks later the other nurses gave me an article on Chemo Brain.