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xskeetshooter
xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
i have just had breast cancer operation , lyhmph nodes came back with cancer..stage 3. they want me to take a test where they put radation thru my veins..i have cancelled twice scared of reaction.dont know how i am going to do chemo if i cant even do that. first visit to cancer center wed aug 19, to find out when i start.
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  • tgf
    tgf Member Posts: 950 Member
    you can do it
    As the saying goes ... welcome to the group no one ever wants to join... but you have come to the right place. This discussion board has been a blessing for all of us ... seeing us through good times and bad. So feel free to ask questions, be angry ... vent ... or whatever you feel like saying. You are now part of our "family" ... full of unconditional love and acceptance. We're all here to give support to each other ... and share our knowledge, experiences etc. I know I speak for many others ... when I say ... I couldn't have gotten this far without the support I get here.

    So sorry about your news. I had chemo and radiation ... but I think the type of radiation you had is different from what I had. I believe I have heard others on this site talk about that type of treatment so I'm sure you'll be hearing from them.

    I can tell you the one thing that got me through chemo was having a port "installed." It made the treatments so much easier. They didn't have to go poking and prodding looking for good veins each time they needed to draw blood or give me a treatment. The port did it all. And ... if you get a prescription for EMLA cream and put that on the port site an hour before your appointment ... by the time you get there ... the port site is numb so you don't feel the needle go in at all.

    I don't know what chemo treatment you will have ... but whatever it is ... I'm sure there are others on this site who have had the same ... and can give you some suggestions. I had taxol/herceptin ... and other than a few side effects ... it was very easy. Never had any nausea!

    In the meantime ... just take it one day at a time. Don't try to look too far ahead or the treatment process will seem overwhelming. One day at a time ... you can handle that. You are a lot stronger than you think. We've all learned that we can do things we never thought we could do ... and you'll find that too.


    hugs ... and keep posting ... and asking questions. We're here for each other..

    Teena
  • brenda247
    brenda247 Member Posts: 124
    know how ya feel
    i was scared to and i just so afraid of what to expect.. but i prayed and had a special person in my life that gave me the strenght to be strong.. i have taken 4 treatments of chemo and boy i hate it!!! i want you to know that this site has help me so much and i wanna thank them all.. you hang in there my prayers and love are with you!!! brenda
  • Calleen
    Calleen Member Posts: 411
    brenda247 said:

    know how ya feel
    i was scared to and i just so afraid of what to expect.. but i prayed and had a special person in my life that gave me the strenght to be strong.. i have taken 4 treatments of chemo and boy i hate it!!! i want you to know that this site has help me so much and i wanna thank them all.. you hang in there my prayers and love are with you!!! brenda

    Skeeter
    The test is very imortant!! Don't be scared...(i know easier said than done) My Daughter is a 2 time tyroid cancer survivor.. She had to take a radioactive pill 2 different times..The 2nd time was alot stronger than the first... She had no side effects from it other than her having to stay away from all of us while the radioactive medicine killed her cancer.. The material they use for the test you need isn't very strong.. I know it's hard to think about this positively but every step you take gets you closer to being on the other side of your illness... Have someone go with you if you can...

    I am alot like you with fearing everything!!!... I got through it by being determined that the beast wasn't going to beat me!!!

    HUGZ... Calleen
  • dmc_emmy
    dmc_emmy Member Posts: 549
    Welcome to the boards...
    Teena offered you a grand welcome and gave you some good advice. She's right, no one wants to be here, but we are here. The bond between us is strong and it is made quickly, because we all understand fear. We also understand what it means to care, unconditionally, for people who (for the most part)we have never met and may never meet. Our bond will probably last a lifetime and that is something many cannot say about friends they have made in the past, because no one wants to go through this alone.

    It's okay to be scared, we are either where you are now, or remember it all too well. Please know that we will "walk" beside you all the way and you can come to this board, typically around-the-clock, to ask for support, to share, to vent, to cry, and even to laugh (who would have thought that one could laugh while going through cancer?), but it's true...we have some really funny sisters here.

    dmc
    PS
    Who is the cutie in the pix? Your daughter? Let me guess, about age 3? Absolutely adorable :).
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    Welcome Xsheetshooter
    You have already been given excellant advice and words of wisdom, so all I can add is a warm welcome. Just know that you are not alone and are welcome here anytime and for any reason. Pammy
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    scared
    I will be thinking of you on Wednesday, 8/19 as I too have my first appointment with a breast cancer doctor, after receiving my diagnosis on Friday 8/14.

    Please take someone with you if at all possible.

    The below statement is helping me thru the next 24 hours ...

    Cancer is in me .. but Cancer does not HAVE me. I am sure I heard this somewhere ...
  • traceyt
    traceyt Member Posts: 77
    Xskeet
    Welcome although sorry for the reason! Lots of good advice has already been given. Find comfort here anytime day or night. When I found out about my dx I was sure it was a dream and I would wake up...time does wonders...allow yourself to feel the emotions, it does help in healing. Although BC is a physical disease, I find it to be mental as well, keeping a positive attitude has helped me so much but I do allow myself moments to just break down.
    ((hugs)) to you
    TT
  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member
    Akiss4me said:

    Welcome Xsheetshooter
    You have already been given excellant advice and words of wisdom, so all I can add is a warm welcome. Just know that you are not alone and are welcome here anytime and for any reason. Pammy

    Hi and welcome. We are here
    Hi and welcome. We are here to support and encourage you. Hang in there!
  • TraciInLA
    TraciInLA Member Posts: 1,994 Member
    traceyt said:

    Xskeet
    Welcome although sorry for the reason! Lots of good advice has already been given. Find comfort here anytime day or night. When I found out about my dx I was sure it was a dream and I would wake up...time does wonders...allow yourself to feel the emotions, it does help in healing. Although BC is a physical disease, I find it to be mental as well, keeping a positive attitude has helped me so much but I do allow myself moments to just break down.
    ((hugs)) to you
    TT

    Welcome, Skeet
    I can tell you from my own experience that some of the tests and procedures that they send you for that sound completely insane (You want to do WHAT to me??) turn out to be not nearly as bad as they sound.

    I had a PET scan, where they inject you with a radioactive sugar, and I can honestly tell you that it was completely painless, and I had no side effects whatsoever. It was first thing in the morning, and I didn't go to work afterwards, because I'm thinking -- I can't to work if I'm RADIOACTIVE, for heaven's sake! And I just sat in my apartment the rest of the day waiting to feel, I don't know, radioactive, I guess, and I felt really silly by the end of the day, because I felt completely normal!

    So please GO for the tests that they recommend, and don't let fear keep you from facing breast cancer head on and letting it know that YOU are in charge!

    Sending courageous thoughts your way,

    Traci
  • rjjj
    rjjj Member Posts: 1,822 Member
    What a beautiful little girl!
    I love the picture, Is this your daughter? or grandaughter? she is beautiful.

    I was also dx'd stage 3 with lymph involvement. I have finished all treatments except Herceptin. It is never fun but it is doable and you will be fine. I've had test with radiation in my veins and it was painless.

    I know how scary this is, but once you get into a routine with your treatments and become familiar with it all it becomes less scary and can actualy become empowering, because you know you are fighting and killing the beast with each treatment.

    I will be praying for the best tomorrow, and keep us posted.

    hugs, Jackie
  • meena1
    meena1 Member Posts: 1,003
    , I also had 2 PET scans. I
    , I also had 2 PET scans. I did not have any reaction to them at all. They want to do the scan to see if the cancer spread anywhere, I was diagnosed last July, I was so terrified. Both my husband and I were so scared, but i knew I had to do this. I read alot and googled alot about breast cancer. I was stage 4, and now my last scans and blood work were clean.
    I am sending positive energy your way for tomorrow!
  • lolad
    lolad Member Posts: 670
    meena1 said:

    , I also had 2 PET scans. I
    , I also had 2 PET scans. I did not have any reaction to them at all. They want to do the scan to see if the cancer spread anywhere, I was diagnosed last July, I was so terrified. Both my husband and I were so scared, but i knew I had to do this. I read alot and googled alot about breast cancer. I was stage 4, and now my last scans and blood work were clean.
    I am sending positive energy your way for tomorrow!

    welcome
    I want to let you know that you came to the right spot here. Everyone on the board is wonderful and have helped me through my fears and down times. I totally understand your fears, we all do. Its so hard to get thru all of this. You will find that coming here and with everyones support is so helpful. Hang in there and try to be strong. You are in my prayers.

    laura
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    rjjj said:

    What a beautiful little girl!
    I love the picture, Is this your daughter? or grandaughter? she is beautiful.

    I was also dx'd stage 3 with lymph involvement. I have finished all treatments except Herceptin. It is never fun but it is doable and you will be fine. I've had test with radiation in my veins and it was painless.

    I know how scary this is, but once you get into a routine with your treatments and become familiar with it all it becomes less scary and can actualy become empowering, because you know you are fighting and killing the beast with each treatment.

    I will be praying for the best tomorrow, and keep us posted.

    hugs, Jackie

    god bless
    thank you for reassuring me, the first time i tried to go for the scan with radation, I made to the second bus, and talked my self out of it. and took the bus back home. then i got the nerve up and made it to the test. And there was a lady there with her mother in law, she told me you dont get sick unless you take a reaction. thats all i needed to hear, i was out of there !!! now i have my first appointment to meet cancer doc, to tell me what and when they are going to start this chemo, i am so mad at myself i cant afford to lose time fighting this, and it might of delayed the start .but reading all the replys has gave me piece with it,cant run no more, time to take the bull by the horns,, lol ,,easy to say here. and that is my grandaughter she is 4 , the best...
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    tgf said:

    you can do it
    As the saying goes ... welcome to the group no one ever wants to join... but you have come to the right place. This discussion board has been a blessing for all of us ... seeing us through good times and bad. So feel free to ask questions, be angry ... vent ... or whatever you feel like saying. You are now part of our "family" ... full of unconditional love and acceptance. We're all here to give support to each other ... and share our knowledge, experiences etc. I know I speak for many others ... when I say ... I couldn't have gotten this far without the support I get here.

    So sorry about your news. I had chemo and radiation ... but I think the type of radiation you had is different from what I had. I believe I have heard others on this site talk about that type of treatment so I'm sure you'll be hearing from them.

    I can tell you the one thing that got me through chemo was having a port "installed." It made the treatments so much easier. They didn't have to go poking and prodding looking for good veins each time they needed to draw blood or give me a treatment. The port did it all. And ... if you get a prescription for EMLA cream and put that on the port site an hour before your appointment ... by the time you get there ... the port site is numb so you don't feel the needle go in at all.

    I don't know what chemo treatment you will have ... but whatever it is ... I'm sure there are others on this site who have had the same ... and can give you some suggestions. I had taxol/herceptin ... and other than a few side effects ... it was very easy. Never had any nausea!

    In the meantime ... just take it one day at a time. Don't try to look too far ahead or the treatment process will seem overwhelming. One day at a time ... you can handle that. You are a lot stronger than you think. We've all learned that we can do things we never thought we could do ... and you'll find that too.


    hugs ... and keep posting ... and asking questions. We're here for each other..

    Teena

    thank you for the kind words
    the information about the port will be very helpfull ,and your right it is overwhelming thinking of the unknown, i will take it one day at a time..that reminds me of my grandmother she loved that song...god bless and thankyou
  • Tux
    Tux Member Posts: 544
    I also want to welcome you

    I also want to welcome you to this board; you will find a supportive network here like no other. BC is so scary; we all need help getting through this. Visit anytime to find the support you need. We are behind you all the way!

    Hugs & prayers sent your way!
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    brenda247 said:

    know how ya feel
    i was scared to and i just so afraid of what to expect.. but i prayed and had a special person in my life that gave me the strenght to be strong.. i have taken 4 treatments of chemo and boy i hate it!!! i want you to know that this site has help me so much and i wanna thank them all.. you hang in there my prayers and love are with you!!! brenda

    thankyou
    i live alone, but i have my family behind me and god, my ma will be coming with me but she is 75, worries me because its the same place my pa died. but no talking her out of it.thank god for mom.
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    dmc_emmy said:

    Welcome to the boards...
    Teena offered you a grand welcome and gave you some good advice. She's right, no one wants to be here, but we are here. The bond between us is strong and it is made quickly, because we all understand fear. We also understand what it means to care, unconditionally, for people who (for the most part)we have never met and may never meet. Our bond will probably last a lifetime and that is something many cannot say about friends they have made in the past, because no one wants to go through this alone.

    It's okay to be scared, we are either where you are now, or remember it all too well. Please know that we will "walk" beside you all the way and you can come to this board, typically around-the-clock, to ask for support, to share, to vent, to cry, and even to laugh (who would have thought that one could laugh while going through cancer?), but it's true...we have some really funny sisters here.

    dmc
    PS
    Who is the cutie in the pix? Your daughter? Let me guess, about age 3? Absolutely adorable :).

    thankyou
    thank you for the support, everyone here has been so kind. that is my granddaughter she is 4 , she has so much love in her, grandbabies are the best. i have a grandson on the way, due end of november.
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    Akiss4me said:

    Welcome Xsheetshooter
    You have already been given excellant advice and words of wisdom, so all I can add is a warm welcome. Just know that you are not alone and are welcome here anytime and for any reason. Pammy

    so kind
    thank you for taking the time to say wecome
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    Akiss4me said:

    Welcome Xsheetshooter
    You have already been given excellant advice and words of wisdom, so all I can add is a warm welcome. Just know that you are not alone and are welcome here anytime and for any reason. Pammy

    so kind
    thank you for taking the time to say wecome
  • xskeetshooter
    xskeetshooter Member Posts: 169
    Akiss4me said:

    Welcome Xsheetshooter
    You have already been given excellant advice and words of wisdom, so all I can add is a warm welcome. Just know that you are not alone and are welcome here anytime and for any reason. Pammy

    so kind
    thank you for taking the time to say welcome