Just needed to talk

Yes, it is harder the second time...
I wish it wasn't, but, in my case too, it is. Mainly because I am so much older now I think. I was only 34 when I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my left breast. I had a lumpectomy with removal of all of my lymnph nodes. ( they called it a partial radical in 1985, but, I kept my breast ) Then, 25 radiation treatments. Then, in January of this year...I had a new cancer in the other breast. 23 years plus later..unbelieveable. I had a lumpectomy and had my 5th radiation treatment today out of 37. They say this is not a reoccurence but a new cancer. I guess it is suppose to make me feel better, but, it does not. I don't have to have chemo because my tumor was only .8 centimeters and I am stage 1. So, I am lucky inre to that. I also feel overwhelmed and wish I could just crawl into bed and wake up realizing this is a bad dream. But, I can't. I do truly love life, I love my husband, my family, my friends and God. So, I get up everyday, put a smile on and know that there are always people worse off than I am and I need to remember that. I always say everything happens for a reason...so...we will see. God bless you chetra and take care hun!

Jeanne D said:

Yes, it is harder the second time...
I wish it wasn't, but, in my case too, it is. Mainly because I am so much older now I think. I was only 34 when I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my left breast. I had a lumpectomy with removal of all of my lymnph nodes. ( they called it a partial radical in 1985, but, I kept my breast ) Then, 25 radiation treatments. Then, in January of this year...I had a new cancer in the other breast. 23 years plus later..unbelieveable. I had a lumpectomy and had my 5th radiation treatment today out of 37. They say this is not a reoccurence but a new cancer. I guess it is suppose to make me feel better, but, it does not. I don't have to have chemo because my tumor was only .8 centimeters and I am stage 1. So, I am lucky inre to that. I also feel overwhelmed and wish I could just crawl into bed and wake up realizing this is a bad dream. But, I can't. I do truly love life, I love my husband, my family, my friends and God. So, I get up everyday, put a smile on and know that there are always people worse off than I am and I need to remember that. I always say everything happens for a reason...so...we will see. God bless you chetra and take care hun!

After 23 yrs, wow, what a
After 23 yrs, wow, what a disappointment. I'm glad you caught it early and can forego chemo. Just shows that we can't let our guard down.
love
jan

chetra said:

A little more about me
I just turn 50 Dec 2008. Tumor was in my left breast and had traveled to the lymph nodes. Stage was 3B. I am a mother of one,and grandmother of one. The second grandchild is in the oven baking LOL Due sometime in Dec. I am divorced.I am a bookkeeper of 15 yrs and did work two jobs, but just one right now. My hormone theropy is in shot form once a month. Will ask name next time I go. And will have a bone theropy once a month with no ending date that I am aware of. The name of it is Vanesta, spelling is wrong Im sure same stuff Sally Field recomands in pill form. Mine is infusion for 25 min. I just was so shocked to get the news again I guess my ears turned off. Didnt remember much. I just so much want to see my grandchild grow up. Thanks for talking to me

What a darling baby
That must be your darling grandchild. He is adorable. Isn't it funny that we just hear bits and pieces..maybe its just to much to takein all at once. I am glad you found us. Please let us know how you are doing. I will keep you in my prayers.
God Bless
jackie

So sorry you are going through a recurrence. I can only imagine how difficult that was to hear. But take heart, Chetra, there are women here who have been through a recurrence to the bone and can tell you about their experiences. Otherwise, we are always good for emotional support and empathy.

Mimi