scar tissue

Boy, do I! I get (and do) exactly the same thing. I had stage IIB, diagnosed last march/apr. Treatment was 6months abvd and 18 radiation zaps. I have scar tissue but, perhaps not that oddly, it wasn't until my dr. mentioned that my neck was a bit lumpy I really started monitoring it - he always said it was there and that it was absolutely nothing to worry about.However, now, say if I go to scratch my neck, for a second I think something's bigger. I'm repeating myself from another message, but I've enlisted the help of my boyfriend (added stress for him, but it was either that or go crazy). If I freak-out he checks my neck for me. Says nothing's changed from the last time. Show's me on his neck where everyone has lumps and bumps - it helps.(any close friend/family member you trust should be able to help). Apart from that I just keep on with a mixture of relaxation, and rationalisation and plan old pushing worries to the back of my mind. I hope this doesn't sound too fatalistic but I also sometimes think that as the dr. wont do anything till my next scan there's no point in worrying till then (although I'm also safe in the knowledge that if something was really up he'd do something). Anyway, I've gone on for long enough, when all I really wanted to say was yes, I know what you're on about.Don't worry you're not alone!