Hello All

I just can't get over all the posts that have been left on this site since I came on board 1 year 5 months ago. Then there were just a couple of hundred. It still saddens me to think so many others must do what I have done.
Just wanted you all to know that I have reached the last issue to be addressed after 5 long years of fighting to be well once again. I finally convinced Doctors nothing would change as long as nauseated and throwing up often. It was becoming away of life one that I really didn't want any part of, my body acting anerexic when in fact I use to love food. Now food is just something I need to live each day to the fullest. Funny how that could be. Now that I have nausea controlled I am better able to eat with no gagging going on. Who wants to eat when you feel like you can't get it down. I found my whole life evolved around this horrid feeling and it got to a point that I could think of nothing else just trying told hold onto something. There was a point that I really thought I was going to have to learn to live like this and learn to quit listening to this body of mine even though it has been right ever time.
Now the pain controlled and nausea taken care of without being knocked out all the time. I am actually beginning to feel like my old self something I thought was never going to be possible. It was difficult trying and staying hopeful through these past years but somehow it has helped me move ahead one step at a time.
This chick indured and survived all right even when doctors told me there was little hope of my life being anything different. With good physical exercise program and good meds I am back bigger and better than I have ever been since cancer took its hold on me. That is a whole lot to be hopeful about and I am the one who did it all, knowing it started with me. I had to be the one to push beyond anywhere I had been before and I am now places I never thought possible, a very good thing. Here is hoping that others will find the hope they are looking for and hang onto it, because we truly have the answers inside of us we sometimes just have to dig deeper than we ever have before. I know that life is hard work and we have to be up for that challenge.
Love and Light to you all,
Being good to myself has helped allot too,
Tara
ps looking forward to returning to work in the next week or so after a very long hard year.