Family,Friends, And Morphine

IT's hard to write this, especially when I cant spell anyway. But I cant beleive how mean I was- am thru all of this. I was mean to my family, didnt want to see my mom and dad, Pushed away all of my friends when they came out of the woodwork to support Me, but I just wanted to be left alone, arnt I an ****. Then came that wonderful dependency on morphine that I had been on since the beginning. For the last three weeks I have been weening Myself off this $#*? With the help of the Docs ofcorse. It has been like a bad dream. But there is light at the end of the tunnel, which I saw yesterday morn when I got up. I feel so much more in control now. But I do feel that if I would of known about this website before, it would of helped, especially knowing all of you were here. I had been alone all this time, and you guys were here the whole time. Monty L.