Didn't think it was important..

I still have imposter syndrome, I was diagnosed with colon cancer back in 2021 Dec, had it removed Jan 25th 2022. It was stage three, but I have a 12 percent chance to get it again, so low risk. I didn't go through chemo or anything like that. So for me I figured it wasn't that bad, but when I look back at the photos, I had lost so much weight, almost died twice cause of dehydration, was in and out of the ER, cause I didn't know what was going on. I was fine one day, then I wasn't. I know that colon cancer is slow growing, but I do remember back in 2017 I started to become more tired than normal, and that's one of the many symptoms of it, a warning sign. I just thought it was my depression etc. I didn't have support then, and I didn't have support when I was going through it, I was on so many antibiotics cause they didn't know what was going on, it tore up my stomach and lining in the colon pretty damn good. After surgery I had a break from reality, still feeling it to this day, not as bad mind you, but it was hard to go through this alone. I had people around me, but they wanted me to die.. that's another story. It's hard to even type this and look at what i'm typing, I almost died twice in bed, cause I couldn't drink water or even make myself eat, I was starving to death. I think or I hope, my goal here is to get the support I never got, try to work through what I went through, and come to terms that even though I didn't do chemo, I did go through having cancer, I did have major surgery, sigmod surgery, reattachment. It's shouldn't of been taken lightly, and people should of helped me when I couldn't even help myself. just for context, I went from 260 pounds to about 160 within a month .. that's how fast things started moving. Anyway, I hope this helps me, I haven't spoken about this this intensely.. if ever, so it's a first for me to even share this. And I went threw so much... so much.