Fistula/hole in back of mouth

MST,

Feel free to private message me.

It appears that most people here have the hpv positive SqCC cancer. Well, I do not.. And my RO told me that's why radiotherapy did not eradicate my first Primary malignancies and in fact I had invasive tumors come back only 9 months after treatments. Yeah...surgeries on top of of surgeries ad nauseum!

I've never smoked and I do not drink so WTH?!

Now, this New cancer. Second Primary cancer. Metastatic and terminal, they told me treatments ( systemic and rads) will give me only a couple more Weeks and that I will die from this new cancer, regardless of getting more treatments. Its Metastatic and when it invaded my Voice box in Early March, I could no longer produce any speech at all. No more voice. I cannot even utter Yes or No. ... Nothing. Just some Airy type sound

And I don't feel like detailing here, what I'm experiencing right now....

I gotta sign off now, to do suction ( sorry) and take meds. By the way, MST, I haven't eaten food in over 5 years. This is a crazy existence...

Anyway, cheers,

Crystal

Hospice supplier just brought me 6 new tanks and my new Oxygen unit, which is thankfully completeky.portable. but it's not as lightweight as I wanted. It has a nice carrying system though. So, I have the Kangaroo feeding system and backpack and now this too. Soon my equipment is going to outweigh, little me.

Hey Logan,

Dear, I do not feel extraordinary. Not at all. I am in fact in a lot of oain. Throat cancer, and smothering .. Just trying to get through day by day, moment by moment . You all know how it is , try to find something to do to distract oneself and go on..

Thank you for the very nice message!! I hope MST gets a Break soon, a much needed lull in the terrible events he has been going through. He needs some comfort and rest from all of it. I'm sure his family wants the same for him too.

Crystal