Hall Pass For Two More Weeks...

I got back to my moutain place yesterday. After having labs drawn (all looked good), I hit the road. It has been six weeks since surgery. Honestly, this weekend was the first time I actually thought I might turn the corner on this. This surgery was no picnic and I NEVER want to go thru anything like it again. I lost about 10lbs so I am trying to put that back on in the next two weeks before I start back on chemo. My oncologist discussed everything. Her thoughts were that she would do the mop-up chemo. I have done 5 of the standard 12 sessions so that would leave 7. I asked her why I would use chemo as a prevenitive to recurrence with my liver when the initial path said my liver tumors had a poor response to the Folfox. She said she thought the poor response was due to the fact that the two tumors were already very large. She said she would do the remaining chemo to kill any cells floating around. Since my liver should be "clean" now, she said she thought the response would be positive with anything in the liver. I agreed to do as many of the remaining sessions as I felt like my body could handle. If I don't do well, I'll stop....simple as that. I have already decided that I will not do surgery or chemo again if the cancer spreads. When this mop-up chemo is done, I want the port out and will let life play out for me as it comes. Buuuuttttt...I am not ready to go just yet, lol...I am going to kick this and slide in sideways withy a smile when my time comes!! 

I have two more weeks of recovery and will start with the mop-up on the 16th...yuck! I won't have Avastin so maybe that will play in my favor as far as how I feel physically. I got thru 5 sessions relatively well, so I am hoping the second 5 won't be that bad since I've had a break to get some of the first "juice" out of my body. I hope this finds everybody with something good in their world and off to a great morning. I am going to savor every second of the next two weeks in the mountains before I have to return to SC for treatment. My plan is to go to my daughter's, have my treatment, stay until the pump is disconnected from me and then hit the road back to my mountains that same day. It's only about a 2 1/2 hr drive and my yuck days are usually the two right after the pump is disconnected so I would be back in my own place before they hit . I guess I will just have to play it by ear and see how the next rounds of chemo hit me and pray they don't knock me down hard.  HUGS....M