The Cancerous husband

Seeing posts of people with supportve spouses and family is something we all would love to have, unfortunately some of us don't have. I would get dropped off at chemo. Two years ago I was told I had 1-4 years before all my chemo/ surgery, my husband out of the blue decided to move to Michigan to be closer to my living family, wasnt exactly his true intentions. I went through 11 rounds of full firi, had 4 major surgeries at once as a chance to make me possibly cureable than just treatable. It was a risk but one worth taking. I did well, however, I guess  that wasnt the outcome my husband and his friends were expecting. I found out towards the end of last year, few weeks before my surgery and right after, my husband stole my ira pretending to be me online. Money I talked about using to go on a vacation after all of this, because I have never really been on one. The bills, property taxes not paid when we had the money. My life before all finding out I had cancer was hell with mental, financial abuse. I just was never good enough and made to do things I did not want to do that were traumatic. I was almos amputated twice from other illness. Promises of change that never happens. It seems flirting with girls on all social media as a single guy and having a joint everyday is more of a priority and as long as I dont ever leave the house that is perfect for them. 

I don't understand how someone can treat someone like this and their friends also ok with, how I am treated, like a maid/servant. You would think someone would try to make the days better after this. I never knew how selfish people can be. My stress has been really bad, and it's not even from cancer, the sideshow that goes on keeps me this way. I've asked for a divorce and he won't give me one, unless I pay for it. He's done things in the past like making my tired slowly leak air, and making my car battery dead so when I could drive, I could not. I opened up to my family about most of the issues I have to face, some say I chose this life, which I did not.  I been through full firi, radiation, and another type of chemo treatment that I had to stop to get my port replaced and on a break to save up to pay for my chemo. It's taken me a bit to save up. It's just a hard hit, to know that no one cares about you, and looking inot my future seems bleak. I will be doig it alone, which I practically am. My husband only comes home to sleep. I'd love to move on and try try try to be happy, he did a good job at making sure I don't have any friends and it really sucks to start over. It would not be so bad if I did not have cancer, wasn't shy, and afraid to trust after being so used and uncared for. I know I am a good person and deserve better. I just feel so crushed and hoping things go better.