Upcoming scans and bronchoscopy

We're still trying to figure out for sure what these lung nodules are. The needle biopsy in August was inconclusive, and landed me a week in the hospital with a pneumothroax. Liquid biopsy showed a genetic mutaion that, while consistent with RCC, was not also present in the initital tumor. Assumption is that it's likely mets, but we need some kind of positive confirmation to be sure. I have to admit, I'm a little anxious about this one. I hate going under anesthesia, and I am even more anxious about the tube down my throat. I know I just have to suck it up and deal, but all the possible ramifiations leave me stressed. I know I need to not focus on those possible outcomes that may never happen, but that's a real challenge for me. I'm really trying; it's just not as easy as I'd like. I guess I just want to get a treatment plan in place and to really know what we're dealing with - not in that order, of course. And because it's lung-related, I'm a bit freaked out, despite knowing about these nodules for a while now. Maybe it's becoming more real, I don't know. This whole year seems so surreal, I can't even begin to explain. Trying to bury myself in work, but even that's getting harder. I just want to get it done already. Hell, right now, I'd settle for a hug and an 'it's gonna be ok" from someone reassuring. Sorry for the downer rant today - just needed to get that out.