So much anxiety

Hi Ambava,

Your tumour won't get any worse in the short time before your surgery. Since you are young and healthy and having a partial nephrectomy your kidney function should remain good.

But it sounds like your anxiety might be getting away from you. It might be worthwhile getting some medical or psychological advice. Massage or meditation might help, though it is almost impossible to meditate when your mind is racing.

Actually, long walks can be very calming. Find beautiful places and try to look outward instead of inwards.

I had a nice experience one evening just after learning about my tumour. I was out walking, feeling very agitated, when I stopped and saw the sunset. A sense of peace settled on me and I knew that everything would be ok.

I wish that peace on you, too.

Steve.

We all know what you are going through.  I had a five year old daughter at the time when my tumors were discovered.  Very few people know what you are going through right now, but those who post here do know.  You can always vent, post, and ask questions here.  

Talk to your doctor about something for anxiety.  You may need something like Xanax for a short amount of time.  I used it just at night because that was the worst time for me.  I could keep busy during the day, but night was a scary time for, hell everything is scarier at 2 AM.

Avoid consulting Dr. Google, most of the data online, which is free, is old and no longer clinically relevant.  Even the survival rates are grossly underestimated.

You've got a lot of good things going for you.  You are young, you are healthy, your tumor is small, there is a very good chance you will get to keep most of your kidney, and you will be monitored very closely over the next few years so nothing will sneak up on you.  Because your tumor is so small you will be cured after surgery and that’s it, no chemo, no radiation, nothing other than follow-ups.  You got this!!!

Medic

I can just totally understand your anxiety! Sweetheart, be strong and positive! my husband suffers from anxiety and we are awaiting a surgery date for him! Lots of positive thoughts and prayers your way! 

Hugs

It's such a mild effect but really helps get one thru those days filled with anxiety.  Just takes the edge off without knocking you out.  Unfortunately, the anxiety kind of goes along with the territory, but it does ease up eventually.

Donna~

{{{{  AMBAVA  }}}}

You know WE understand!

You are and can learn new ways to cope when that nasty anxiety starts to build up.

Most likely it starts with a thought, a negative one. Then you give it power by releasing your much needed energy by listening to the  negative thought.YOU my dear can learn to get ahead of this anxiety and take CONTROL over intrusive thoughts in your mind !!

You can and you WILL!

Switch by changing your breathing. Fill up your lungs via your nose, then let that breath out S-L-O-W-L-Y through your mouth, lips apart, teeth not touching as if you just want to make a candle light flicker.

Go somethere in your mind where you are in  a happy, secure place. A place that makes you smile.

By changing your breathing you  gain control over your body, mind and thoughts. Try it!

Practice this mindful breathing many times, before you start to feel anxious, so you can go to it right away.

THEN count your blessings, accomplishments, talents etc. Remember you are what you think.

You want to get ahold of your cancer, not let "it" control you.

After all, why use up precious energy to LIVE by worrying?

We're here for you.. all...the...way!!

Hugs, Jan