Movies and Book w/ People Dying of Cancer

I had no idea it was coming in the movie. My husband and step son had seen it and were insisting I watch it. I didn't want to watch because it was about aliens and I'm not into space movies like they are. I had no idea it really wasn't that much about aliens and more about the situation in the life of the heroine. When I started to get upset my step son was saying 'they never said it was cancer'. Which is true but when they show a dead body and it's bald that's my assumption.

I'm just so tired of it all. This is the first period of time where I haven't been able to stop thinking about my cancer ad the met that's growing fast and the fact that right now I'm doing nothing about it. I think ablout it almost constantly and it kind of makes me mad. I've been able to either put it at the back of my mind or compartmentalize it before now. I started back to work yesterday and I don't think I'm going to be a good employee now. He's upset about a pateint not showing up for an appointment and it seems so trivial to me but I'm supposed to be all upset about it. It's not like we can do anything about it. My boss is a pretty good guy but he's wound pretty tight and while he spends tone of money and make huge money he frets about amall amounts. A hygienist got in troupbe for giving away a toothbrush for a patient who didn't have an appointment. "We can't keep giving things away, I won't make any money!" He's looking at buying an expensive new truck because he thinks they're cool. Last summer he bought a new Jag. He drives a BMW. He has a 1.5 million dollar house. Which is fine, he did the schooling and started the business and he makes a lot of money. Just don't be petty about small things.

PamRav said:

Just a thought

 Are there any support groups near you?    It's always good to talk to other people face-to-face that are in the same situation as us.    You are understandably worried and upset and I think the extra support would be a great help.   Also meditation is really a great help.  While it certainly doesn't make our problems go away  it does help with that incessant chatter in our head and the negative feelings that we feel.    I highly recommend it 

 Where I live we have a  Center that is just for people and their families that are suffering from cancer They have yoga classes, meditation,  group sessions therapy. I feel so fortunate to have it in my neighborhood it's a wonderful resource. 

Peace

ps   I hope you won't be offended when I say your boss sounds like a total jerk and I wish you could find another job with somebody who really appreciates the wonderfulness that is you!    

hugs

 

Thanks Pam! You're sweet! My boss is okay but he's a boss and his priority is his business which is to be expected. His ife told me the other day to figure out a game plan for my future there and talk to him about it. She says he 'loves' me and will do whatever it takes to make me happy.

Trubrit said:

'You look so good!'

Oh, how they lied! 

I used to get told how good I looked during chemo. Now, when I look back at pictrues I see how sick, how yellow, how, how, hairless I was. 

I am always happy to see you posting, Linda; but sad that your dear one had to pass. 

TRU

Yes Linda. I'm so sorry as well. I hate how for so many it takes their dignity and humanity before it's done. If anyone is ever wondering, when I had the cardiac arrests from my blood clot I was told they tried to get me stabilized for ten minutes and were going to give up. When they arrived at the house I was in full cardiac arrest. The last thing I remember is the sensation of falling asleep, then nothing. No white light, no relitives who have passed calling to me or telling me I have to go back, nothing. I'm a little disappointed because I fully expect that to happen when I do pass. It would have been a great way to go, just too soon.

I was going to tell everyone that there had been a white light and all that after I woke up from the coma but then I was so messed up I didn't bother. Would have been a good trick, though. 

beaumontdave said:

Jan, your thread reminds me

Jan, your thread reminds me of hearing about a great tv show back in 08, but because the premise was a regular guy getting cancer and cutting loose, I couldn't watch it. After a couple of seasons I finally broke down and binge-watched "Breaking Bad" to get caught up, and I enjoyed the series right through to the end. Except for BB, I felt like you do, I didn't want to hear or see cancer stories. Even cancer treatment commercials made me wince, I didn't want even the word intruding on my peace of the moment, Cindy and I had more than enough reminders. Time has dulled my reaction to that stuff, but I know if it shows up again, I'll feel as you do, and avoid any of those kinds of stressors. Another thing that amused when I was younger, but no longer appeals is horror movies. Life has enough frightening realities without paying to suffer through 2 hours of invented awfulness. Oddly I enjoyed disaster movies back when, partly because the idea of the planet getting wiped out by one thing or another made cancer seem irrelevant. If something else was to get me, then all that emotion I'd invested in my diagnosis was a waste of time, which it is. I suppose it just illustrates my peculiar reasoning process. Anyway I understand your reasons and sympathize...........................Dave

Dave, you just reminded me of how I felt for a long time after the surgery and abcesses and the infection in my surgical scar. I also couldn't stand to watch shows with people suffering. My husabnd likes Asian war movies and watches them whenever he can find one, even if it's just subtitles. I could barely stand to hear the screams and wails of people being killed. So yes, I fully agree.

I still watched Game of Thrones, though. Love that show. I should try Breaking Bad, I've never seen it. Thanks for the support!

Jan