Todays another day

I'm so sorry you are feeling nervous- that is perfectly normal and understandable!  What you've been through is NOT minor and cancer is cancer- it changes you for the rest of your life!  Please post however and whenever you need to and keep coming for love and support of your sisters here- for me this is a great source of comfort and hope because you can see for yourself that no matter what happens there are answers, there is strength and there is someone walking the same journey or who has walked just ahead so you can follow.

I'm glad your Dr. is on top of this and that you are getting tested.  I have never had one, but you will find you do what you have to and it's good- you are honoring your body and your intuition when you listen and act accordingly.  I hope you get the all clear and they figure out what's been going on to cause the bleeding.

We'll be thinking of you for sure!  (((HUGS)))

Glad to hear from you! I can remember seeing your picture in earlier threads, but you are a quiet one. Remember, this is a "no apology" zone! We're all here for each other whether it's for information, support, or whatever. 

You say that you're normal gyn dr. does your check-ups? Did he/she do your surgery? Even if your cancer was caught early it seems odd to me that you wouldn't have your check ups done by your gyn oncologist.

You'll probably have the results from your colonoscopy before you read this, so hopefully that won't show anything worse than hemorrhoids for you. If that goes well, I think I would suggest a follow-up visit with your gyn oncologist to get your uncertainties and any lingering questions cleared up regarding any remaining risk for recurrance so that you can feel more confident about your care going forward. Mine told me he'll being doing my check-ups for the rest of my life, so that's why I'm a bit surprised to read that your normal gyn is the one doing yours. 

Given your family's cancer history, has anyone ever suggested you see a geneticist? My gyn-onc. sent me to one and it turned out that I'm positive for Lynch Syndrome which is indicitive of higher risk for a number of cancers, but especially colorectal and endometrial cancers. Having that identified justifies more frequent screening to insurance companies and could help better protect you from finding a new cancer at a later stage. Here's a website you can check out for more information: genefacts.org Click on the link for condition specific fact sheets.

Hi, I hope your colonascapy shows you dont have cancer.  I am glad you are getting it checked out though. 

No such thing.  As others have said, no apologies needed here.  As far as your checkups, I alternate between my gyn/onc and my regular ob/gyn every 3 months.  I do agree that you may want to ask your doctor about being tested for Lynch syndrome.  My parents had cancer on both sides of the family tree, and my doctor ordered the test for Lynch syndrome.  I tested negative, which was some relief.

I am so sorry for your experience compounding your already nervous state.  I have had to have multiple colonoscopies due to an aggresive polyp found years ago and I am telling you that is NOT THE WAY THAT PROCEDURE SHOULD GO. I'm sure it's not high on your priority list, but I would be filing a complaint with the state about this doctor so he can't do this to anyone else. (It also sounds like you may need a new on) Glad your colonoscopy was clear.  Keeping fingers crossed that you continue to have good reports from your doctors.  

Tichondria said:

So here is the TLDR of my day

So here is the TLDR of my day of the 14th.  Arrived 20 min ahead of time. They get me in 20 min after 11 (my appointment time) Takes them 1 1/2 hours to get an IV in me. I'm told multiple times that I woun't remember it and or feel it. I get into the room, nurse gives me the drugs... says it takes a couple mins to take effect. So I wait, and I wait. Suddenly out of no where the doctor shoves the device up inside (i'm still wide awake) It didn't hurt at first then suddenly the pain started (probably due to the air they have to blow in) I'm almost crying, telling them how much it hurts. Doctor doesn't reply... nurse just says we are almost done. (Doctor continues to talk about his bad day with the nurses and where he wants to vacation next) 5 min later we are done and I'm wheeled out.

 

Needless to say, I was so angry.. and violated that I couldn't even talk. I simply asked the only nurse who just looked at me like "I'm so sorry" to get the IV out of me and leave so I could get dressed. I then walked out, refusing the wheel chair. Which they all looked at me like... uh oh... and then went to my car to have my husband take me home. literally 15 min, 10 for procedure and 5 to get dressed and out of there.

 

Oh, and apparently I'm clean as a whistle, everything looks great. Didn't even see hemroids, yet mentioned it was probably hemroids that was making me bleed 1-2 times a month. (how that even makes sense is beyond me.. I must have hemroids that took after houdini because they just magically dissapear)

And I'm sorry for how angry this sounds. I just... it left me UN-trusting of doctors even more today. I think I'll just forgo any more testing, because all a doctor sees when they look at me is my weight anyway. Which ya.. I was told he gave me all the sedation he felt ok with due to my (Weight, PTSD, and past sexual abuse) I don't know what world he comes from that less means a better experience but then again I'm not the doctor.

I am so sorry, but yes, I totally understand how terribly we're sometimes treated by the medical community.  When I had my port out, I told my doctor the site was not frozen and he cut into it anyway.  I screamed and he acted angry.  He left and a nurse came in and tried to use something different to freeze it.  He came back again and cut and I could still feel it - he said it was just "pressure" and there was nothing he could do about it.  Damn him - I could FEEL him cutting into me.  

We are treated like a piece of meat, but we are at their mercy!

I'm so sorry this happened to you!!

Love,

Eldri

There is NO EXCUSE for that kind of treatment!  I don't understand where the compassion and kindness has gone.... their oath is 1st do no harm!!!  So many people don't go to the Dr because they have been harmed either physically or emotionally by them.  If they are so jaded then perhaps it is time for them to get into a new profession.

I am hopping up and down mad for you and with you and the others and I do believe that it merrits a phone call or visit with someone who can investigate and fix the problem.  

I wouldn't let this stop you from finding out what is going on if you continue to bleed- especially with your history.  I would perhaps ask for a woman Dr. in the future and make sure they know you've had trauma in your past??? 

Sending you healing (((HUGS))) and prayers for peace that passes understanding as this upset isn't good for you.

Tichondria said:

So here is the TLDR of my day

So here is the TLDR of my day of the 14th.  Arrived 20 min ahead of time. They get me in 20 min after 11 (my appointment time) Takes them 1 1/2 hours to get an IV in me. I'm told multiple times that I woun't remember it and or feel it. I get into the room, nurse gives me the drugs... says it takes a couple mins to take effect. So I wait, and I wait. Suddenly out of no where the doctor shoves the device up inside (i'm still wide awake) It didn't hurt at first then suddenly the pain started (probably due to the air they have to blow in) I'm almost crying, telling them how much it hurts. Doctor doesn't reply... nurse just says we are almost done. (Doctor continues to talk about his bad day with the nurses and where he wants to vacation next) 5 min later we are done and I'm wheeled out.

 

Needless to say, I was so angry.. and violated that I couldn't even talk. I simply asked the only nurse who just looked at me like "I'm so sorry" to get the IV out of me and leave so I could get dressed. I then walked out, refusing the wheel chair. Which they all looked at me like... uh oh... and then went to my car to have my husband take me home. literally 15 min, 10 for procedure and 5 to get dressed and out of there.

 

Oh, and apparently I'm clean as a whistle, everything looks great. Didn't even see hemroids, yet mentioned it was probably hemroids that was making me bleed 1-2 times a month. (how that even makes sense is beyond me.. I must have hemroids that took after houdini because they just magically dissapear)

And I'm sorry for how angry this sounds. I just... it left me UN-trusting of doctors even more today. I think I'll just forgo any more testing, because all a doctor sees when they look at me is my weight anyway. Which ya.. I was told he gave me all the sedation he felt ok with due to my (Weight, PTSD, and past sexual abuse) I don't know what world he comes from that less means a better experience but then again I'm not the doctor.

That's great news that you don't have cancer, but what an ordeal. That doctor deserves to suffer similarly. I would like to suggest another possibility for the hemorrhoids, please excuse my lack of delicacy. I sometimes have huge shits that cause me to stretch and bleed... and it usually just heals itself quickly. Even when I have had hemorrhoids, it's always been temporary, a little itching and discomfort, but they are usually gone within a week.