you never knowPLEASE HELP

Mags - That plain sucks.  I know you, you're a fighter like many of us, you'll get through it.  YOu have evry right to be upset and this is just the place to vent.  I hope they've caught it early.  My thoughts are with you.  Traci

I'm so sorry to hear this. You've been through so much already...
{{{hugs}}}

maglets said:

more thanks

Traci Richard AA......thanks and thanks.....on  lighter note the breast cancer seems to be bringing out lots of nice cuss words from people.....including the surgeon!!! haha rock on english language......

no calls from the surgeon so wait through the weekend......hopefully surgery date sometime soon or I just might have to x@kk*7aF

mags

this truly does suck! Enough is enough! You are going to kick it's ****, I know it! I hope the surgeon gets back to you soon. I don't get why they make people wait so long. They know people are worried as it is, why add to the worry by delaying the call? Ugh! 

Please let us know how it goes.

I'll be thinking of you.

Lin

I'm with you, I thought enduring this crap ws supposed to make one tougher as you go, but it seems I land in melancholy a lot more these days. Ah well, back to raking the lawn. It's a beautiful day in Cali, and I want to feel all of it. Hope it's fine where you are, hang tough........Dave

Mags,

I'll keep updated on the bc board.  (As you know I am there for my mom now.)   I just want to add my love to all those here who I know will be with you during this journey.  We all love you so much.

Aloha,

Kathleen

maglets said:

surgeon

saw the surgeon last Thursday and he offered a lumpectomy or a mastectomy and we have agreed on the mastectomy.With this surgery he can remove the breast tissue and nodes under the arm for testing.  He felt that was best considering the number of surgeries I have already done. So then he leaves and says his secretary will call and then it's the weekend and then you all know the drill........it's called The Wait. Getting darned close to the holidays so may just get tied up in that and have to wait till January.

I must confess to not doing too well with this one......all the old fears and terrors rest just under the surface come roaring back up.  I am finding the nights long and hard.....have started back on ativan in order to get some rest. Thought I might be stronger at the game as the years pass but apparently not.....

thanks for asking and listening.......mags

I know of what you speak, dear one.  I look at it as a great bird of prey, soaring behind me, just out of sight.  Occasionally, when it catches my eye (around appointment time), I must push it away.

As far as Christmas....dearheart, I know that it's aweful this cancer...but in my humble opinion, the sooner you get it out, the sooner you can start returning to normal.  That is how I felt...and worked through Christmas with a pump from my rectal cancer.  Also, one compromised Christmas and then ''normal" Christmases beyond is the best.  Again, in my humble opinion.  Pull up your 'big girl panties', dear one....git 'er done as the saying goes!

BIG hugs from a 'been there/done that'!

Hugs, Kathi

Hi Mags, My brain just hurts from this one.  I don't understand this life and sorry this is happening to you is just not enough.  Just to throw it out into the universe . . .has your doctor discussed with you that breast cancer can be a "side effect" from chemo and radiation treatment?  I don't have any actual knowledge on the topic but this happened to my friend.  Her doctor told her that her breast cancer was a direct result of the chemo she had for her thyroid cancer and this is not uncommon.  Keeping in mind that my friend had cancer in the 90s.  I never really read the side effects of the drugs we take, I took them because they were the way to stay alive.  I think I will take some time and read the packaging to see if this is a possibility.  The drugs may have improved since the 90s.  Knowledge is power.  Also I've had precervical cancer cells.  I've come to realize that I am prone to cancer and it's pretty scary.  I wish I knew what I knew now, I would have gone for the colonoscopy in my 30s when my general doctor dismissed me and said I am too young and it's just hemmorhoids.  I haven't addressed him about it yet, still pretty angry.  We didn't have the internet back then=(  I would never have waited now.  As my Aunt (not a blood relative) recently said "once a cancer patient, always a cancer patient".  She's had the same issue with her body.