What does it feel like to die?

2»

Comments

  • traci43
    traci43 Member Posts: 773 Member
    #22
    Sundanceh said:

    Hey

    made it thru the night...

    much love to you

    Craig - You've been an awesome warrior.  To see you posting, sad that you're in so much pain still.  I hope they find the right pain meds to grant you some relief.  You have been an awesome support of folks on this board, thanks for being the inspiration that you are.  Love and peace to you, Traci

  • herdizziness
    herdizziness Member Posts: 3,624 Member
    #23
    Sundanceh said:

    Hey

    made it thru the night...

    There you go

    and then tonight and then next. One day at a time, one night at a time :).

    Winter Marie

  • abrub
    abrub Member Posts: 2,174 Member
    #24
    thinking of you

    Craig, thinking of you and wishing you comfort and relief; Freedom from pain. And thanking you for your friendship and support,  both to me and everyone else who has found this forum. You are a treasure, loved by all who have encountered you. 

    Alice

  • Daisy13
    Daisy13 Member Posts: 43 Member
    #25
    Dear sweet Craig

    Daisy13 wants you to know that your old friend Devotion10 is wrapping her arms around you. You rest easy, breathe gently, try to be calm. You are surrounded in the warmth of all our love.  ~ Peace.

  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #26
    Daisy13 said:

    Dear sweet Craig

    Daisy13 wants you to know that your old friend Devotion10 is wrapping her arms around you. You rest easy, breathe gently, try to be calm. You are surrounded in the warmth of all our love.  ~ Peace.

    Thanks everyone

    don't think I can make implant surgeon visit at this point....will try but so long trip and hard on me....would still have a ct to do for placement as well.....another long trip and difficult procedure as well....then the surger...would I even be strong enough For surgery?

    damn it all.....things can turn on such a short time we never know....the lion does not feel very strong right now.......just wish I could get through this stage.  My mind is racing with living and closing thoughts of all kinds...even doing battle with each other.

    i had one more post I was planning to write on outliving cancer by outliving our choices...

    even surrounded by by friends I still feel a little alone if you can understand this at all what I'm trying to tell you......a little scary I must say.  It's a strange feeling I must say.

    you know I love you all and want the best for you....I will keep going for now but I will miss so many things and folks because that's all I've ever known.  The future and unknown are just plain scary right now.

    Alice thank you for what you said:)

    i had hoped for so much more with this last fight.....maybe I still got one left....know you're worried but I'll let you off the hook because I've drained you...I can tell from some of you...I'm sorry.

    goodnight and well hope for another one or two.  Thanks for writing to me:)

    its funny how things seem important.....yet really are not...

    -Craig

  • jen2012
    jen2012 Member Posts: 1,607 Member
    #27
    Sundanceh said:

    Thanks everyone

    don't think I can make implant surgeon visit at this point....will try but so long trip and hard on me....would still have a ct to do for placement as well.....another long trip and difficult procedure as well....then the surger...would I even be strong enough For surgery?

    damn it all.....things can turn on such a short time we never know....the lion does not feel very strong right now.......just wish I could get through this stage.  My mind is racing with living and closing thoughts of all kinds...even doing battle with each other.

    i had one more post I was planning to write on outliving cancer by outliving our choices...

    even surrounded by by friends I still feel a little alone if you can understand this at all what I'm trying to tell you......a little scary I must say.  It's a strange feeling I must say.

    you know I love you all and want the best for you....I will keep going for now but I will miss so many things and folks because that's all I've ever known.  The future and unknown are just plain scary right now.

    Alice thank you for what you said:)

    i had hoped for so much more with this last fight.....maybe I still got one left....know you're worried but I'll let you off the hook because I've drained you...I can tell from some of you...I'm sorry.

    goodnight and well hope for another one or two.  Thanks for writing to me:)

    its funny how things seem important.....yet really are not...

    -Craig

    hope you are finding some joy

    hope you are finding some joy in every day.

    you know we are all pulling for you and wish we could ease your pain.

     

  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #28
    jen2012 said:

    hope you are finding some joy

    hope you are finding some joy in every day.

    you know we are all pulling for you and wish we could ease your pain.

     

    Jen

    yep...but joy has left the bldg but we all know that all too well...

    youre sweet Jen thx for msg d again...know words are hard right now for you...it's ok:)

  • jen2012
    jen2012 Member Posts: 1,607 Member
    #29
    Sundanceh said:

    Jen

    yep...but joy has left the bldg but we all know that all too well...

    youre sweet Jen thx for msg d again...know words are hard right now for you...it's ok:)

    Yup finding the words is

    Yup finding the words is hard.  I'm sad and angry for you and for all of us dealing with this garbage.  but it's never hard to talk to you or hear from you, so keep on talking to us my friend.

    I know that you've done some looking towards religion, not sure if you are still doing so, but I like to take comfort in the readings that say those who suffer on earth will get glory in Heaven.  You are due lots of glory, but let's not rush to get you there.  

    This song is going through my head for you this morning

     

    https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OORsz2d1H7s

     

  • Helen321
    Helen321 Member Posts: 1,460 Member
    #30
    One night Barb (Barbebarb)

    One night Barb (Barbebarb) sent me a message that she had decided to stop treatment.  I was crying very hard and I wanted to beg her to continue but I didn't.  She said it was a "peace".  She had made her decision and was okay with it.  She said you just can't understand until you are the one.  I don't think any of us can truly understand what you are going through.  If you are at peace, let yourself be at peace but if you need to keep fighting, see if you can get to that surgeon consult via ambulance/ heck maybe even by facechat on the phone.  My current insurance supports that, maybe your does too.  Whatever your decision, we're all thinking about you.  Helen

  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #31
    Sundanceh said:

    Ran out of medicine

    emergency nurse called to bring new med bag.....really thoughtless mistake on their part

    and...I'm not ready to go yet

    just my body feels funny and it makes uou wonder if this is it or not

    more physical not mental right now 

    hopee they get here soon

    Whew!

    Hang on!!! 

     

    Love you!

     

    *hugs*

    Gail

  • Phil64
    Phil64 Member Posts: 838 Member
    #32
    Sending you Love and Prayers

    Craig,

    I am sending you lots of Love and Prayers. I pray for pain-free, peaceful, and joy-filled days for you, your wife, friends, and family.

    You are a hero to me. You exemplify how to fight this beast.  And you have given me much inspiration.

    I hope you will be blessed today! And that the pain will subside.  Calling for a cease-fire day for Craig!!!

     

    Love,

    Phil

  • thingy45
    thingy45 Member Posts: 632 Member
    #33
    Dear Craig

    Dear Craig,

    only you know when it is your time. So sorry about your pain, that makes it all so much harder. You are such an inspiration to all who love you and care about you. And that are many. You are often in my thoughts.

    hugs dear friend, Marjan

  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #34
    Prayers

    I'm so sorry to see this post from you as I'd never thought that you could possibly not be here anymore.  Only you will know when your journey will be close, but I'm still hearin the fight and roar in you.  I'm praying that your suffering is minimal and you can be at peace with everything.  May God Bless you and keep you near.  I'm so glad that you are still a part of this board as long as you are able.

    Kim

Discussion Boards