Happy New Year

May the New Year bring each of you, peace, happiness, and improved health.

Many thanks to the heads, hands and hearts who have reached out to all in need here.

Hugs and a New Year's smooch!

Marie who loves kitties

ron50 said:

Wishing the same

   To you Kim. The kindness and empathy displayed here is a model of how support groups should and do work. Everytime a year finishes and a new one begins  my first feeling is that of surprise. I must admit that I am doing it tougher each year. I have just bought a cpap machine. My test showed that in rem sleep my O2 levels were dropping below 80%. That really is not good. My doctor ordered me to stop driving until I started treatment. He expected miracles but i suspected otherwise. I have the best machine I can afford ,it has a heated tube ,a humidifier and a facility to record my results that can be uploaded via cloud to the sleep centre. I have acclimatised well to the mask and such. I am sleeping well. No nightmares and panic at not being able to get enough oxygen. But by 430 each morning I have slept enough and can't get back to sleep. The heat and humidity is killing me . Apart from the better sleep I am feeling as bad as I have ever felt. My pain levels have been helped by the targin (oxycodone and naloxone0 but I forgot to take my morning dose on tuesday and I thought I was going to die. I still have trouble with the opiate induced constipation and I really have to work at stayingon top of it. I cannot explain it to my doctor It is nothing specific I just feel totally unwell. Sometimes I ask myself if this is what it feels like to die. Our bodies cop a real hiding from the treatment, the cancer the long term side effects of bothand all of the drugs It takes to keep us alive. My friend say to me why don't you just stop taking them. My answer to them is simple , because I will die if I do. This month I finish year sixteen and start year seventeen of survival . I really don't know how much longer I want to go on. I suspect that It will not be my decision and that I will catch some nasty bug and my kidnies will fail. I have no fear of death or dying. I have spent nearly a third of my life under some sort of threat from illness I just hope that I can maintain my dignity to the end. I am feeling fragile at the moment I shall  just have to see what 2015 brings. Ron. Thinking of you all and specially Craig who is doing it so tough , peace mate.

Happy new year to you all, too. All the best to everyone in 2015.

something funny happened to me... last night I watched the ball drop. I have done this nearly every year since I was a kid. Well, I usually count down from 10, watch the thing drop, sing a few bars of Auld Lang Syne and then turn off the TV and go to bed. Or when I was younger, I'd turn off the TV and continue to party.  Well, this year, I got interrupted and did not turn off the TV. Well, lo and behold, there's a whole after show on **** Clark that I never knew about. And fireworks, too.  Who knew?  So I watched a bit more of it and then went to bed. A lifetime first.

cheers to you all  

Karin

Happy New Year!