new problem from all the great cures from cancer

For what it’s worth….?

The herbs I took did manage to do exactly what the studies, tests, documentation, and those that used it for their only treatments, said it would do…… and yeah, luckily I’ve been “cancer free”. Not too bad for a 2006 diagnosis that said that I’d have maybe 3~5 years –if- I did chemo and -0- time if I didn’t…..

However.. (this may make you feel better)… The initial operation left me with an Ileostomy, and the surgeon(s) didn’t use preventative measures to keep adhesions to the minimum… and those same surgeons left what remained of a small section of colon tangled up inside me, causing problems since 2006… And… they left a cancer nodule behind the well-placed stoma.. Three separate operations across two weeks in 2006, and they didn’t do much right.

The cancer nodule died (thanks to the herbs), but the adhesions caused a major blockage that needed surgery to repair in 2011/12. And –that- surgeon apparently panicked during the extended surgery, and resected ½ of my small intestine, leaving me with two (2) Ileostomies. The original Ileostomy/stoma was left connected to the ½ of intestine that was stapled shut inside me and left to die, rotting for over a year inside me. They couldn’t figure out why my surgical wound refused to heal and appeared to be continually infected. I went for over a year like that, until I had another adhesion (related to both 2006 and 2011 surgeries) in 2012/13.

That surgeon was absolutely excellent. He removed all the rotting intestine, the two old stomas, repaired the section of colon so it would drain properly instead of poisoning me slowly as it had been. He gave me a new stoma in a new location, and did his best not to make my remaining small intestine any shorter…

However Lou, I have a “short bowel” dumping into an Ileostomy. I am always dehydrated and have to take three liters of hydration via a PICC line daily. They say that my remaining digestive tract will never absorb enough liquid to make up for what’s normally being expelled instead of being re-absorbed.

And Lou… They say that eventually I’ll likely need to take daily nutrition via a PICC line as well.

Dumping stuff directly into one’s blood stream will eventually lead to severe renal problems. Normally our digestive tract filters out all the garbage prior to feeding it into the liver and kidneys for filtering. When we bypass that integral step, we add problems to where none existed previously.

So ya’see, Lou… Cancer takes away a lot from us; a lot that can never be replaced. Cancer changes us in ways that we do not always see as clearly as those around us do. We reflect the fear we feel deep inside us without realizing that we are doing so.

But is the feeling of “impending doom” any different than simply growing old? Is it any different than getting to the age that most people die at, wondering when –our- last day is going to be?

Don’t those of us who have family that managed to last to 75~85 years, and who are now reaching those years ourselves worry as much as a cancer victim who is starting to realize that only a handful of years may remain?

Sobering thoughts?

No-one wants face the reality of our own mortality; we refuse to quit, and that is the way we are intended to be.

It’s the power of self survival; the natural power of the will to live. It’s what keeps that weed in the middle of a major highway growing……..

Cheer up old man. Keep trying to grab that gold ring as the merry-go-round passes it; sit higher on the horse and reach further for it…. What’s to lose by trying?

Be well,

John