Waiting on Results

First, thank you all for sharing on this site as it's aready been so helpful.  So far my story sounds very similar to others which is comforting to know what I've been dealing with is pretty 'normal'.  I'm almost 45 and  starting having irregular periods and chalked it up to peri-menopause.  Then about 3 weeks ago I got another period just 2 weeks after the last. I didn't worry at first, but after about 2-3 days when it normally slows down, I was still having heavy heavy bleeding and clotting.  It was different than any other heavy period where I could feel the large clots and running to the bathroom a lot.  One night I woke up just an hour after I went to bed and was soaked.  I really thought I was hemmoraging....but I was in France for work so just dealt with it.  I went to see my gyno once I returned from overseas as I was on day 13 and still bright red.  She's a family friend too and said she wanted to run the standard test to rule out cancer.  She put me on Megestrol to stop the bleeding.  Had an ultrasound and then just went in this past Thursday for a biopsy.  The ultrasound showed that my lining was still think (21mm) even after bleeding heavily for 15 days straight.  Of course I was anemic too.  She did the biopsy (took a few tries as I've only had c-sections) but it wasn't too bad.  I got dressed and when she came back in she sat down and told me she had to be honest.  She didn't like how it looked.  Explained something about curling or something of the tissue.  She said she hopes she is wrong, but she suspects it is either pre-cancer or cancer.  I really appreciated her honesty as I'd rather be prepared for the worst and get the best news rather than thinking its nothing and then get the call. I trust her completely and know she wouldn't say this unless she truly was worried for me.   I'm actually at peace with it if it is cancer.  I know I'll manage through it and I have my faith.  As I read more and more other issues I've been having are starting to make sense a bit more too....although I may be reading more into it as well now that I'm aware of uterine cancer.  For the past 2-3 years I've been telling my generalist that I'm fatigued more, lack of sex drive, etc.  Not sleepy tired just no energy to do anything.  I have also had this intense itch in my groin area for about 2 years that comes and goes and I've seen dermatologist, my gyno, etc. and nothing has been diagonised or cured it.  It actually got better several months ago and then just before this last period it started acting up again and especially in the middle of the night.  I'm reading that high estrogen levels can cause this.  The other odd pain I've been having over the past several months is pain in my hip/buttock.  I have a physical therapist that helps to relax the area but the pain hasn't gone away and it doesn't shoot down my leg like sciatica.  Its been slowly getting worse especially if I stand for some period of time.  I work out and it doesn't hurt then, just when I'm standing still.  And there has been a dull pain in my lower left side of my back that has recently started up.  Right before the biopsy I was actually telling my gyno that the night before I woke up a couple of times with a bad pain in my lower gut/back.  She said the Megestrol can cause bloating and gas.  All of this I have been writing off as getting older and closer to menopause.  Now....I'm thinking it sounds like it may all be connected to my lady parts and something going on there

The doctor said she'd have the results back by Tuesday.  If it's not cancer then she definetely wants to do a D&C to clean out the build up in my lining.  She didn't mention if she'd have that biopsied or not.  If it does come back a cancer, then she wants me to go see a gyn/onco.  She explained what many of you have said in that my gyno could do a hysterectomy but it's best to have it done by the specialist so they can evaulate the other areas while they are inside to make sure they get all of the cancer out.  She was very optimistic that this is a curable cancer with many under control just with surgery. 

I want to be optimistic that it may be nothing than an overactive lining....but in my heart I just don't believe that will be the case.  I wasn't shocked when she told me (although my doctor certainly was as she didn't suspsect it and was only doing it to make sure as my dad was a physician and a friend).  I'll be thrilled if the results come back negative, but I'll will probably still anxiously await the D&C and a full report of no cancer.  And if it is cancer, I'll take it one step at a time.  Either way I plan to start eating right.  A friend came down with prostrate cancer over a year ago and became a vegan.  I read the books and tried but never could get my habits in shape.  This is a wake up call that no food is worth it and I can eat better!!!  I also recently joined a women's small group from chuch and we meet on Tuesday, the day I get my results.  Talk about perfect timing for support that night.   I believe God is walking before me and putting these women in my path for a reason at this time.  My husband is taking it well at the moment too, as I worry about him more than me.  I lost my mother to breast cancer 20 years ago and I know how difficult it is to watch and not be able to fix it. 

Well....that's my story.  I really appreciate this site and the information I've found.  Thanks for letting me put my story down as it helps and comforts me to be able to 'tell' people.  I am waiting to tell family, kids, friends, work until we know for certain what I'm really dealing with or not.  My prayer group, my husband and two close high school friends are the only ones who know at the moment....and now you!

One strange question.....My appetite has been terrible the past year and I've actually gained 15-20lbs.  I've been maintaining a very healthy weight for the past several years after I finally lost the baby weight.  Now I have bad cravings and can't seem to eat right.  We lost my father and my father-in-law in 2012 so again I thought it was just my emotions.  But I can't get that under control and I'm a bit concerned because what I've been craving the most is dairy (cheese, milk, yogart) and SUGAR.  In reading I see that these are probably the worst foods as cancer thrives on them.  Has anyone heard or experienced 'cancer cravings'?  Maybe I'm just looking for an excuse for my terrible habits   No longer....cancer or not time to eat healthy with this scare or news.

Take care and thanks for reading!

Suzi